feelings.

a friend, shan't say who, once said that people around him has been breaking up, including me. smtimes i feel like i have been ruining and wrecking my own life through all these. :// i don't feel good too you know. i do feel tired too you know. when i see friends around me getting hurt over relationships i do feel sad too. i do feel worried too. though they might be smiling at me, i know it somehow still hurts. it's so hard to find someone who you are in love with who is similarly in love with you. it's even harder to find that same person who understands you and love you just the way you want. i am not in search of such a perfect love, it just seems too much impossible. but yet i don't deny that i still hope for that miracle. i am really happy that some of my friends are really in happiness too. but most of them are unsure, insecure, afraid. that's what it is right? relationships are often filled with uncertainties. this is what makes people afraid. or rather than relationships, i should say the future is filled with uncertainties. but future is supposed to be like that, isn't that so? it's okay to be afraid. there's nothing wrong. but keep in mind not to be too afraid, remember to trust in your relationship, remember to trust the other party. no matter how many times you have been hurt, no matter how uncertain and unsure you are. you might be sick and tired of falling in and out so many times, give yourself a break then. cause the right person will appear at the right time and moment at the right place. a small something which i will always want myself to remember. believe and trust in miracles and hopes and wishes. if you do believe and trust them enough, they will happen and come true. :)) trust me.