the little girl.

'One year is all you have to wait,' the little girl told herself. Inside her, her heart throbbed painfully. She soothed herself, rocking back and forth while hugging her legs. She smiled even though there was no one to watch, but the twitch at the corner of her lips did not hide the agony that gave her much difficulty to even breathe. Tears formed in her eyes and streamed down as she struggled to raise the corner of her lips. 'It's okay!' she continued comforting herself, 'I will live.' She resisted the urge of pinching herself as if the physical pain would numb the emotional one and mumbled, 'You know it's of no use. There are people out there who are in much worse situations than you. You know that.' All the rational words and phrases were thrown to her heart by her brain, but all she ever wanted was that happiness she had felt before. At that moment, all she wanted to do was to rant and wail and vent everything out as she bawl her eyes out like a baby. But she had been through rougher patches, thus, even though she thought she would finally be happy and could let down her guard, she knew she had to stay strong in order to not hurt those who love her and whom she love dearly. 'I will wait and be truly happy once more,' she told herself as she settled in bed, clutching her bolster as tears wet her pillow. 'I miss you,' she added as her eyelids fluttered, and she slowly fell into the dreams which consisted of memories of their past.