`250th post

just wanted to say, hh's ex (his girlfriend after me) came and chatted with me.
and we sort of started emailing each other.
got to noe dat he sort of cheated on her as well. -_-
i seriously start to NOT understand why girls fall for him.
in the past maybe.
but now no.. -_-
esp when he got to noe most of these girls online.. -_-
i cant deny when i saw dat girlfriend's email/message i was pretty shocked and surprised and had this nervous kind of feeling inside me dat i would often have when i was with him.
its like a feeling of fear and nervousness.
weird mixture of feeling.
just like how i used to jump at the sound of the telephone ringing, thinking dat it was him.
argh maybe i think too much.
how i wish limjiahao is here with me now.
he would hug me and i noe everything would be alright.
smhow this thing is linking me back to the past.
but im not afraid.
cuz it IS my past.
smhow this thing might lead to tearing up my healed wounds and everything.
but im learning to be strong.
and soon they wun be scars or anything like it.
not healed.
but as if the wounds were never there before.
i noe i can do it. :))
with the courage dat everyone around me gives just by being my friend and staying by my side.
i noe i can. :))

okies i have to admit dat i dun dare to slp now cuz of the stupid website dat ahwen gave me.
ahh idiot you.
going to hit you when i see you tml. >: )
shall slp when the sky turns brighter or when papa comes back home. :))
papa faster come home!! T.T