`187th post

sdnly i just feel like i dunoe how to make friends anymore.
sdnly i just feel like i dunoe how to maintain a friendship.
sdnly i just feel like i dunoe how to tell everythng to a friend.
sdnly i just feel like going back to the past.
sdnly i just feel like i dunoe how to explain anymore.
i dunoe how it is like to have a friend.
i dunoe how it is like to msg a damn long msg to a friend telling her wad happened.
how i missed the past dat will nv come back.
i dunoe.
i really dunoe.
all those smiles and tears.
would they ever come back?
would i ever find a friend like her?
would i ever have another friendship like the one we shared?
sebas is just different.
just different in some way.
i dunoe.
i just want to find a friend like her.
who is not afraid of telling me everythng.
who is not afraid of telling me my faults
who can let me complain and vent everythng.
who is just there with me.
who loves me as much as i do to her.
wads gone is nv going to come back eh?
i dunoe how.
will i be willing to open up.
i dun dare to really go all out to make friends.
smtimes im afraid dat they would rather be with other ppl than me.
i just dunoe how to build up a friendship.
i dunoe how to make the bonds stronger and closer.
i dunoe how i dunoe how i dunoe how.
alot of thngs i want to share i want to say.
but i just take a step back.
cuz im unsure wad to do wad to say so dat i wun make ppl hate me.
im happy to have alot of ppl with me in the first place.
im just afraid dat i might lose them one day.
some probs dat i feel like saying i dunoe how to say animore.
i dunoe who would understand.
i miss her.