`125th post

familarity struck me again.
isit cuz i haven let go of the past?
or isit cuz i juz nd more time to forget?
i dun wan to get reminded of *smone1* cuz of smthng *smone2* did.
i noe they are two diff person.
i noe the thngs they do the thngs they say maybe the same juz cuz dats wad *ppl1* usuallie do or say to *ppl2* so i cant mix them tgthr.
ohh wth.
why do i smtimes still have the feeling of wanting to see *smone1* ?
wad for?
isit cuz i wan show *smone1* how well im living now?
how happy im now as a revenge for how miserable *smone1* had caused me to become in the past?
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its confusing.
but im quite quite contented wif my lot lehz.
whenever im wif *smone2* i still have the *feeling* ..
but why do my heart still skips a beat whenever i hear the hse phone rings?
am i hoping *smone1* to call me?
but i tink of *smone2* almost *time* and im tinking of *smone1* lesser and lesser.
plus i find *smone1* *smthng* whenever i see *smone1*
this is smthng dat has nv happened b4 to me.
so wad does it mean?
maybe this WHOLE thng happens to everyone?
everyone will get reminded of their *ppl3* whenever their *ppl4* does or says the same thng as their *ppl3* ?
i dunoe.
but i do hope i find out soon..