`74th post

OMG I MUST BLOG ABT THIS B4 I FORGET MY DREAM LAST NITE.
okies i forgot where i was.
and i forgot who i was with.
i tink its either ah hao or jiejie.
smone who noes how hh looks like.
okies.
im crazy but i dunoe why i dreamt abt him okies.
its like i saw his 背影..
i saw the hair and the clothes.
den i was like ITS HH!!
den i wanted to say it out but i dunoe why i cant..
i juz stood there dumbfounded.
i wanted to say.
but i couldnt.
like my mouth was stuck shut.
i dunoe why.
den when he turned arnd the corner i sdnly notice dat his hair become longer.. O.O
much much longer okies.
abit like it sdnly grow long.
hahahahahahahahax.
den i was tinking OMG HE REALLIE LOOKS LIKE A GURL AH HAO IS RIGHT!!
i was quite positive dat the face belongs to him.
cuz he was coming up from the escalator back facing me ma.
coming up to the floor i was at.
den when he turned arnd and hugged this gurl.
his current girlfriend.
shes pregnant!?!? O.O
den he turned and walked away from me.
den he turned again to carry this kid den i was like OMG ITS A GIRL!!
cuz the face sdnly change into a gurl..
den i saw the three of them walk away juz likedat.. -_-
okies its so stupid.
and why did i dream of him i dunoe..
fate and destiny this kinda thngs are so miraculous dun you tink so?
for example if i met who who who earlier i might not wad wad wad.
but thngs oreadi happened.
and no matter wad you say it juz wun change.
i owaes believe dat thngs happen for a reason.
like thngs happen so dat smthng else can happen in the future.
everythng is interwined and meant to be.
its all our fate and destiny.
i dunoe wad my future will be like.
but i noe its fated and it wun change.
smtimes i will feel dat even if i feel extremely lazy now its aso fated.
hahahahahahax.
as in aft i had been lazy larz.
den erm like its fated dat i will get this exam results cuz its fated i will study hard all those.
dun tink dat cuz theres fate we dun nd worry abt our future!!
ITS WRONG!!
CUZ ITS ASO FATED DAT YOU WILL TINK THIS WAY AND NOT WORK HARD AND IN THE END BE AS UNSUCCESSFUL AS YOU CAN BE!!
okies i dunoe if anione understands wad im toking abt but seriously this is my point of view of life okies. :))
so dun laugh or find it stupid.
hahahahax. :DD
hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm..
so its fated dat i will end up likedat now?
its fated dat i will be blogging at this time abt all these stuffs.
hahahahahahahahahax.
okies i have decided.
i will not blame anione abt anithng.
and i will not blame fate.
i absolutely wun blame AT ALL~
i dun wan to be some grumpy and grouchy old woman blaming her pai mia(bad life/坏命 in hokkien).
hahahahahahahahahahax. :PP
i will juz take one step at a time.
owaes looking foward at my future~ :))
smtimes i feel dat i cant let go of my past..
like i still yearn abt the friendships dat i had with sarah yy xiao mon mon kwan and everyone.
but now i noe.
its not dat i cant let go of my past.
its juz dat i wan to rmb them so dat i wun make another mistake animore.
i had suffered enuf for dat mistake.
and im truly truly sorry towards them.
i understand.
if i had been decisive and rational enuf i wld have broke up wif him.
but nope i din.
and in the end im the one suffering.
i din listened to all ur advices and everythng im reallie sorry.. T.T
i haven been a gd enuf friend.
im sorry.
its been so long and i noe noone blames me for wad happened.
but still.. :))
i still love all of you.
hahahahahahahahax.
even though i noe none of you will come and read it since none of you noes my blog.
hahahahahahax.
its kinda stupid ehh.
but its okays.
its my blog rite!?!?
im supposed to blog wadever i wan as long as its not offensive or wad dat is illegal.
hahahahahahahax. :))
i dun wan to hold on to the past animore.
kp on dawdling in it and regretting isnt of much use.
i will take it as a lsn i learnt in my life.
a mistake dat i will NEVER EVER commit again my life.
i solemnly swear to it.
cuz i never ever wan to bring hurt and pain to all those i love and care for animore.
i have lots of guyfriends in fact almost all my friends are guys.
but i still hope to have some girlfriends to be my side.
hahahahahahahax.
like dat kinda clique.
i very very very very long dun have clique le.
unless we count larissa yunhui and yingchyi.
thanks for being my friend.
hahahahahax.
i was damn lonely dat time smmore sebas got his own clique canot owaes pei me.
clique as in theres girlfriends whom i can share stuffs abt.
maybe its me who din share stuffs wif those three gurls.
yupx i noe kinda my fault. :))
sorry.
i juz wasnt very friendly and amiable dat time.
din reallie have those mood.. ://
it was until my beloved friend kevin toh kun yi brot me to raffles hotel dat i learnt how to make friends and everythng.
hahahahahahahahahahax.
i used to be 慢热型 okies.
like i mentioned b4.
i nv dared to make friends wif ppl.
i wait for them to make friends wif me.
hahahahahahahahahax.
now not le.
at least i dare to ask ehh wads ur name ar and start a conversation.
hahahahahahahahahahax.
thank you ar kevin toh kun yi. :))
cuz actuallie i will only be friendly towards those dat i oreadi noe.
hahahahahahahahahahhax.
its cuz of you i learnt to be more open-minded~
lalala~ :DDDD
i like myself changing for the better.
and im aso looking foward to the start of poly.
one reason is dat now reallie very sianz owaes nothng to do.
but the very very very main reason was dat i wan to meet new ppl and make new friends.
i reallie reallie reallie want to make new girlfriends and have cliques again.
hahahahahahahahax.
i miss those days alot.
hahahahahahahahax.
im not finding replacements.
juz wan to have girlfriends to share all kinds of stupid stuffs again. :))
i wonder wad kind of ppl im going to meet in the future~
hahahahahahahax.
but i wun forget my beloved 'old' friends too~
hahahahahahahax!! :DD
i wonder how fate will arrange all of us..


不要在意我有很多的男生好朋友好吗?
对我来说真的只是朋友而已..
我不想再失去任何一个朋友了..
知道你明白可是..
请相信我.. :))