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i love new love.
i love seeing people falling in love.
i love seeing people around me being in love.
i love love that matured over time even more.
i love the love that i belong in.
i love the person i'm in love with.
i love everything about us, from the biggest fights to the tiniest squabbles.
i love how i feel when i'm with you.
i love you. ♥

stating this on a random day yet not, for it's our 657th day and counting...

love me? or hate me?

okay i was bathing and you know how ideas just pop out in your head while you are all relaxed while bathing?
yea and i got this idea of asking people to tell me one thing that you love about me, and one thing that you hate about me.
okay i would very much prefer you tell me what's the one thing you hate about me FIRST, before telling me what you love about me, so i can get cheered up almost immediately after feeling sad HAHAHA.
all you need to do is to leave a comment belowwww!!!!
if nobody comments about anything i guess i am just another foreveralone kid lolol.
can leave anonymous if you are planning to write something super hurting to me but is too paiseh to spoil the r/s we have w each other~

basically i do know where my weaknesses are and less so about my strengths, and i just wanna see if there are parts of me which people find it intolerable or lovable.

i'm on a project to create the most beautiful me and i hope you can be a part of it! lolol.
love you all people muaks muaks!

i'm proud to say that after almost two years, you are still able to put that kind of smile on my face.
hehe you are loved. less than 3!

and i only realised it when clara kept scolding me to stop arm-chio-ing the whole day ytd hahahaha.

i'm in control.

i feel so much happier today.

i guess probably cause i tidied up my study table and though it can look better if i decorate it a little but so far i am quite satisfied with it heh.

gonna do some crafts and put around it i guess :) just to beautify things a little more :D

i feel so much in control of my life.

and yes, i am once again the master of my life :D

i stopped feeling 'I am doing this cause I am expected to do so' anymore and i only realised i was feeling this way until i stopped feeling it.

this is a great feeling, really.

i am in control. i am gonna control. i feel so damn good. hohohoho.

i feel more on track, more like i am living life, and not that lost and aimless.

so doing nothing actually gives me more focus in life hahahaha.

okay no focusing on doing one thing at a time is really helping.

i am no longer distracted and i hope this is going to last.

jiayou jiale jiayou you :)

sometimes, just sometimes, i feel that i might still be loving the idea of you.
yes, not you, but the idea of you.
cause the current you is too far for me to understand, and now the idea of you just seem so impossible yet possible at the same time.
i rmb that once, when i thought i saw you walking towards me, i panicked and almost felt guilty cause i was holding someone else's hand.
it was such a knee-jerk reaction that even i shocked myself.
it's stupid i know, esp when that someone is my boyf.
but i can't forget that feeling which makes me wonder a little sometimes.
am i being delusional about how i feel now?
i really hope not.
things aren't as complicated as i often think they are.
i should stop overcomplicating things and concentrate on enjoying the people and things i have now.
probably it's just the emo songs which are getting into my head... or else, i don't know anymore..
probably i never got over that r/s, and i never will.
the memories we shared will just be there to remind me that we are happy once, and that's enough.
don't get me wrong, it's not that i'm wishing that we are back together, but more of us being able to shake hands and smile genuinely at each other.
i guess i need a closure.
and stop feeling that i am somehow being left hanging there by you.

Dumb Ways to Die

Currently my favourite vid and song hehehe.
it's accompanying me all day long as i study hard (L) love it so very much!
it's by the melbourne metro to remind commuters to be careful and safe around trains, i.e. their safety campaign!!
super creative and cute i love it!! even the lyrics are cute! and the melody is so catchy omggg!
lyrics below interpreted by myself hehh.


Lyrics:
Set fire to your hair,
Poke a stick at a grizzly bear,
Eating medicine that's out of date,
Use your private parts as piranha bait~

Dumb ways to die, 
So many dumb ways to die,
Dumb ways to die-ie-ie,
So many dumb ways to die~

Get your toast out with a fork,
Do your own electrical work,
Teach yourself how to fly,
Eat a two week old unrefrigerated pie~


Dumb ways to die, 
So many dumb ways to die,
Dumb ways to die-ie-ie,
So many dumb ways to die~

Invite a psycho killer inside,
Scratch your drug dealer's brand new ride,
Take your helmet off in outer space,
Use a clothes dryer as a hiding place~


Dumb ways to die, 
So many dumb ways to die,
Dumb ways to die-ie-ie,
So many dumb ways to die~

Keep a rattlesnake as a pet,
Sold both your kidneys on the internet,
Eat a tube of superglue,
I wonder, what's this red button do?


Dumb ways to die, 
So many dumb ways to die,
Dumb ways to die-ie-ie-ie,
So many dumb ways to die~

Dress up like a moose during hunting season,
Disturb a nest of wasps for no good reason,
Stand on the edge of a train station platform,
Drive around the boom gates at a level crossing,
Run across the tracks between the platforms,
they may not rhyme but they're quite possibly,

the dumbest ways to die,
the dumbest ways to die,
the dumbest ways to die-ie-ie-ie~
so many dumb,
so many dumb ways to die~

HAPPY 1 3/4 YEAR!!!

WOOOOOHOOOOOOOO!!!

MR TAY YIN JI!!!

HAPPY 1 3/4 YEAR TO YOU AND MEEEE!!!

WE ARE 8 YEARS AWAY FROM HARRY POTTER'S PLATFORM 9 3/4!!!! (okay lame -_-)

i dun have any pictures of us cause they are all inside my laptop which is currently with you :(

so i can only post a picture of me and captain later which signifies how happy we both are and thanks for tolerating my bad habits and constant bullying and teasing and forever loving me all the same.

thanks for being worried that i will feel unloved and preempting me that you will be busy and reassuring me anyhow and tell me about how you won't have time to accompany me much but still come over to find me all the same.

thanks for all your time for me and all your love and all your understanding and how you will always be cool with no matter what i do and how ridiculous me and my ideas get and still go along with it.

thanks for being the one who will hold me down if i get too wild, remind me of the things i should do and should not do and even if i insisted on going on the wrong way and come back crying to you you will still be there to hug me and pat my head to let me know everything is still alright.

thank you for being my boyfriend, my girlfriend, my best friend, my parent, my brother, my everything.

thank you for all the roles you have to play to deal with me.

thank you for being everything that i want and need and yet you are everything more.

i love you.

MAJOR CRAVING

NOW I HAVE THIS MAJOR CRAVING FOR THIS:

OMG it's really the best best best ice cream/gelato (or whatever you call it) i have ever eaten.

this is like their first outlet which is located at star vista at buona vista and it's really sad to see their shop quite empty because the traffic there isn't really alot in the first place.

i first and last went there a few weeks back and i'm definitely returning in the near future due to this major craving of mine hahahahaha.

it's simply the best. no other ice cream or gelato can ever beat it. there are still SO MUCH flavours of theirs i wanna try.

:')

as you can probably see from the cup, the name of the shop includes the word 'pinocchio'!

i tried looking up for the original name and here it is:

GELATERIA PINOCCHIO

the unit number is #01-47/48!!!!

you will have to go down one storey if you take the escalator up to Star Vista from the MRT station!

you can see the star vista from the mrt platform so dun worry about losing your way!!

if you scared ah, here is the mall's website complete with it's picture: The Star Vista

i know everybody now got smartphone can access 3g or even LTE so you can check okay!

HEHEHE please show it as much love as i do!!!

though i know location might be far for most of us but i scared their business cannot make it then they close down :(

i will not be able to take it cause i think this is their first venture into asia... their other shops are like in spain and france omg i cant fly there anytime i want as compared to flying to buona vista.

but dun have to intro to too many people okay. i dun want too long a queue either hahahahaha.

TAY YIN JI IF YOU SEE THIS LET'S GO BACK THERE ASAPPPP!!

omg

just blocked this colleague from twitter because he is being far too weird and i dun want him to stalk my twitter anymore and making me feel so awkward to post it knowing that he is stalking it -_-

he needs to stop asking me weird qns like 'i will still be seeing you right? :)'
THAT SMILEY EMOTICON MAKES IT SOOOOOOO CREEPY OKAY. LIKE TIMES A MILLION TIMES.
and i am not the only girl he treats this way to.
he may think it's gentlemanly or whatever, but to us it's just plain disgusting hahahahaha.

okay GOOD JOB FOR ME FOR BLOCKING HIM!! (Y)
WAY TO GO JIALE!

TIME

i really need ALOT ALOT ALOT more time.
can i have like 48 hours a day?
so that i can one full day to slack around and one full day to study hahahaha.
but basically i spent most of my weekend sleeping -_-
seriously lee jia le you have been sleeping a little too much eh!?!?

i flipped through the photos taken when me and tay travelled to bkk in aug.
OMGGG i miss bkk.
not that i wanna shop or what. but just being in a different country, the feeling of not having to care about anything, just buying whatever i wanna have/eat. hahaha damn shiok ah!
okay i shall blog about our bkk trip soon soon soon!!

Two After Noon

This is one of Wongfu Productions' videos - Two After Noon.
It may seem random and not make any sense to you.
But after reading the director's commentary by Wes, I am deeply attracted to the idea which gave birth to this video.

ENJOY!




If you don't really get this video, you can read the text in the description box below the video in the Youtube page.

Something that I have taken out of the text below:

"There are no real beginnings and endings; instead, everything is continuous and ongoing. There are so many things in our lives that are indefinite."

This quote really make me feel so hopeful about life.
It's like no matter what happens, it's not the end.
At the same time, it makes me feel so insignificant, it's like, the earth's rotation will not stop, time will not stop, for anyone or anything at all.

Thank you, Wes, for this amazing quote which gives me another whole perspective to life.

I am no longer afraid of what life might bring to me, even death, because it will not be an end, but just another phase/form of life.

posted this in my google+ but just wanna share this w the ppl here too.

this is really my only sanctuary other than my blog, somewhere where i can post stuffs that i feel like sharing but yet annoying people aren't stalking out my stuffs and asking me about it.

it's like yea good that you realise that it's you i'm talking about but that meant that you should stop talking to me cause any clarification you try to do thereafter while trying hard to not show that you have read whatever i have posted anywhere just makes you even more guilty conscious.

you then seem like you are trying to explain and give an excuse to yourself why you are behaving in such a way instead of explaining to me, right? -_-

i wanna lie in a bathtub with a mug of Starbucks toffee nut latte and a good book.

it's okay even if it's a dry bathtub.

and so,

my sprained ankle has not recovered yet -_-
i tot it would recover by tml and i was alr planning to go work but it still hurts. :/
told xueli i might recover tml and she was like 'today still pain you think tml you will sdnly wake up with it feeling okay??' which is like okay true.
walking more normally and up the stairs is fine for me now though i still limp a little and going down the stairs is still a big nono for me.
thank god i see some improvement in the recovery :')

recently i started thinking a lot.
thinking of how i am juggling my work and studies, and both needs a great amt of my commitment, and this is proving to be rather difficult.
i can't concentrate and focus on either.
sometimes i feel so tired i would just sleep in school, and at work, i can barely smile.
it's not that i am unhappy.
it's just that.. ah it's so hard to put these in words.

i really love this job.
i love the people in it.
i love how we play and work hard tgthr at the same time.
but recently, with the lack of being in the office and everything, it's getting hard to catch up.
i can't really commit as much as others do :/ and gradually i just feel lost...
even though i am the one who wanted to work and study at the same time, study is still my priority.
it's a great job, which allows you to develop and learn as much as you want to and you even receive lots of help while doing so, but, and there is always the buts, this job requires you to put in extra time and effort to make it work, which i am unable to.
i have a bad time mgmt, i admit, and i just can't cope.
and i feel like i have not a big enough ambition and desire to continue on.
yes, i want to provide for my family, but what's the point of earning lots of money when i don't have enough time to spend with them?
what's the point of earning so much money and i don't even have the time to spend it?
yes, they say to run hard now so you can enjoy the fruits of your labour in the future, but i can't do that now.
how do i progress in my career when i have my studies to take care of?
i can't run hard at my career and studies at the same time.
they are like two paths taking me to opposite directions.
how do i run towards two different directions at the same time?
it's just this dilemma that i have inside of my head.
it's this struggle that i am dealing with inside of me.
friends who see me struggle are advising me to quit and focus on my studies for the time being, and i know i should focus on that as my priority too.
but somehow it's like i'm kind of reluctant to let go of the job which i enjoy so much though i can no longer commit to it as much as i want to.

i should do things as i want right?
i should do things which make me happy right?
i am not exactly happy now.
where did the stubborn girl who insisted to quit the great eastern admin job two days earlier than agreed upon even though it's just two days go to?
where did the strong-headed girl who asked clara to quit when she complained about not being happy go to?
where did the girl who always insisted on only doing things which make herself happy go to?
it's time to find her back i suppose.

writing my own future.

Suddenly there is this idea which popped up into my head while I was trying to study and I now have an impromptu decision to write my own future every now and then.

Yes, by that I mean literally write my future here, in my blog.

By the end of this year, I will have consistent sales, so consistent that people are gonna come up to me and ask me how I do it. :) and my answer will always be, 'I am not too sure myself too, I just go down field and not think and just whack it.'

Next year in May, when I enter my exam hall in Expo to take my papers, I will come out with a big grin on my face and the thought, 'This is SOOOO much easier than I thought it would be!?' would be floating in my head.

Next August, I will be going on my first ever Taiwan trip WOOHOO and I will be staying in at different hostels every other day because I will be travelling to many parts of Taiwan and really immerse myself in their culture and delicioso food~~

Okay this is how far I have written and I shall go back to my books and come back again~~

till then! tata!

Result of Boredom

i made captain do a dance cover lololol.
i was just being bored over from studying but omg captain is so freaking cuteeeeee.
maybe it's just that 'beauty is in the eyes of the beholder' but i dun careeee.
hehehehehe enjoy my captain's dance though his dance moves dun really make sense cause of his short arms hahahahaha.

wongfu productions!

YAY!

currently one of my favourite youtubers other than the already very popular ryan higa (nigahiga) and kevin wu (kevjumba) hehehe.

love all the three guys, wes ted and phil, who make up wongfu productions!!!



i mean i have been watching their vids and everything and is sad that i din actually go to their event during their tour when they came over to sg but for the past week, i have been really addicted to their vids esp wongfu weekends aka wfw and i kept catching up with their past vids hahahaha.

sigh talented people like them.

and looking at their streets really make me feel super determined to go LA and just stay there~
i even asked my mum what if i migrated to LA and she said it would be cool and she would come over to stay with me for a few months every year. like it would be good for a change but she will still come back since all the rest of our relatives and friends are still here hahahaha.
AHH i really wanna migrate there.
lee jia le, let's save some money yo!!!

and it's like there is no high rise buildings there at all, everywhere is just on the ground. 

there are no shopping malls either. all the shops are like a standalone. O.O which definitely sounds cool when you are staying in singapore~~~

okay this is just like a random blogpost where i just wanna express my love for them lolol but yeaaaa i wanna buy all their clothes and plushies they have in their shop areyouaniceguy and sadly i am not rich. D:

shall slowly save up them! hahaha i must save up alot of money by the end of this year!! i will!! :D:D:D

okay i REALLY need to go back to studying and hope my ankle recovers like ASAP walao cant wait to regain my mobility!!!!!

random thoughts.

it's important to treat your special someone better than you treat anyone else, and it's equally important to treat that special someone better than anyone else does to him/her.

sometimes i wonder, what's the point of loving someone your own way (even though it's really your special own way) when he/she doesn't really get it that it's your way of loving and caring for someone?


too many directions that my thoughts can take but they should really stop branching out if it's going on the negative ways.
going back to the simple.
that's how life should be.
everything is just that simple, stop thinking complicated.
it's your life, so don't let others affect you and your mood.
you decide everything that's in your life.
you decide your thoughts that will eventually form your future.
negative thoughts lead to negative incidents.
positive ones will create positive surprises.

smile, and somehow you will naturally be happier.
even though it's just a fake smile you are putting on at the start, it will become genuine with all the chemical substance your brain releases when you smile hahaha.

sprained ankle

as many of you know, i am currently nursing a sprained ankle..
it's my second time spraining my ankle (first time when i was 15) and i cant even rmb which ankle i sprained before so idk if i hurt an originally bad ankle. D:

even though having a sprained ankle hurts really badly, but it really gives me time to rest and think, and obviously to study for my upcoming test on thur.
and in addition, it provided me with lots of care and concern and pampering from all the people around me teehee.
for instance, tay came to fetch me home despite having to study after knowing i sprained my ankle on my way to work. :')
idk if he couldnt take how slow i walk or if it really hurts him to see me limping, he carried me halfway back home from the bus stop. :') thank you my dearest.
he even had to carry me to the doc (which was in the CC next to my block) and back. :')
here is my newfound love for you hehehe. (L)(L)(L)

and my family members who just have to do everything for me since i became an invalid.
mum is like painting the walls in our house now and i couldn't help much like moving the furnitures around although i insisted on helping on the painting she wasn't very quite willing for me to stand with that bad ankle of mine. D:
and qiqi and jiamin literally had to help me get  everything  a lot of things cause i can't move much. (L)(L)(L)
no mention of my dad here cause he is away at vietnam so he din help me much hahahaha.

and of course, last but not least, the caring texts from my beloved friends and colleagues :*:* for you all hehehe.

it's kind of nice just dawdling around at home and catching up with everything for once. :)
of course i tried to do up my notes as well and now i need to get back to my studiesssss!!
jiayou jiale!
jiayou everyone!
i will see you guys soon! :*

ME AND MY BELOVED CAPTAIN! :D

ps: i bought my captain at mini toons and he iss like the middle-sized penguin they are selling there and leejiaqi's bday was ytd and her friends got her the big-sized penguin and now her penguin is whiter than mine (i haven washed captain for months D: swear i'm gonna do it soon), softer than mine (captain is just a little older so a little rougher esp after its first and only wash), and bigger than mine (which in a sense is more huggable though less portable) >:(

i guess i really need some time to sit down and really think hard about what i want, and how i am planning to achieve them, because somehow or rather, i am gradually realising that i am too tired to even feel much emotions anymore...