so...

HELLOOO!!
okay im not exactly feeling as cheerful as my greeting but doesnt matter.

anywayyyy!! im only happy nowadays cause i have been shopping like a crazy kid on tmall aka taobao and HOHOHO so happy to see my shopping delivered to me likka shiookkkk.
took photos of every single shopping i did and i will upload it (okay fine i need to put them in my comp first) when i feel like it kay. ^^

ANYWAY HINT HINT:
i think this will be a great xmas present!?!?!?

LOOK THAT ABSOLUTELY ADORABLE PUMPKIN CARRIAGE OMGGGG!!
and it's like on offer now!?!?!?
i give you link!! CLICK HERE!! YES THISSSS!!
and you can have my taobao acct id and pwd if you'd like.
then you can buy and obviously key in your own credit card number etc HOHO and rmb you can only buy on taobao using internet explorer!! ^^
and they will deliver the necklace straight to my apartment!! :D:D:D:D:D
and isn't this the most obvious hint everrr!?!? :D:D:D:D:D
i am just a great friend right!!! ^^^^^^^^ (<- my many eyes. yes im a many-eyed monster. okay lame.)





i am a simple person.
i love how i myself can be cheered up by the simplest thing, for eg FOOD or simply just people smiling at me.
but on the other hand, this means that i can be despaired by the most minute matter. this kinda sucks.
is having low EQ bad or good? :/


just now, when i was bathing, i wasn't thinking much.
but then i sdnly saw smthing flying around me and i almost freaked out when i realised it was a really small moth.
you know what people say, moths are the reincarnation of your loved ones aft they have passed away.
thoughts of spraying it with water using my shower head disappeared instantly.
one person came to my mind and i retarded-ly asked the moth, 'are you ahgong? did you come to see if i'm living well in china? or are you reincarnated as a china moth?'
sdnly, memories of ahgong flooded my mind.
i rmb how ahgong used to be half naked and walking around wearing his blue checkered boxers with the white strings hanging outside.
i rmb long ago when he still had his legs, when he dun even need his walking stick.
i rmb buying him sour plums, sugarfree sweets during his birthday/fathers' day.
i rmb him waving us into his room and he will take out his little box with all the changes inside and give us some of them.
and he would always give us the shiny ones and make sure that everyone has the same amount.
i rmb how he used to dote on ortao the most and how we felt jealous over it, but now i come to think of it, ahgong doted on the rest of us alot too.
i rmb how he would cook occasionally for all of us, and how we secretly thought that he cooked much better than ahma.
i rmb how he would joke that i would grow up to marry ortao and i would feel a little shy and yet look at ortao and think that i would absolutely not marry him. HAHA. i was too young to realise that we do have blood relations.
i rmb how we always had endless supply of soft drinks esp sarsi at ahma hse cause of him.
then, ahgong became older.
i rmb him laying more in bed.
i rmb him needing a walking stick.
i rmb running to him with his walking stick and then holding his soft and wrinkled arm to help him walk to the living room.
i rmb how he always scold ahma with his loud voice and yet we all know that he loves her.
i rmb when they said he had diabetes. i told myself i would never drink so much soft drinks ever again.
i rmb when he got a wound on his toe and it turned black. i rmb how he was alr in the wheelchair then.
i rmb how he refused to see the doctor, how two of his toes turned black. i rmb how eventually one of his legs got amputated, and then both.
i rmb how they bought the wheelchair originally for ahpong and no longer needed it anymore.
i rmb how i nv saw him cried till that day.
i rmb how he asked mummy to tabao my fave kou rou bao for me cause i missed going ahma hse that sunday and ahma made some.
i rmb how he smiled.
i rmb how he joked with us while we laughed at jiamin who had difficulties pronouncing f and s properly.
i rmb everything about him.
everything.
then i realised, i miss him so much.
so much so it hurts.
i cried so hard in the bathroom.
so much harder than im crying right now.
it hurts so much.
i never want to have anyone close to me leave me ever again.
however, i know it's impossible.
i will have to face it eventually, no matter how unwilling i am.
i talked to the moth.
i know im weird.
but i feel like it's my ahgong, i feel like im talking to him.
ahgong, i miss you so much.
dun feel afraid, i have never forgotten about you.
this is not the first time i cried for you, and it will definitely not be the last either.
i never told you this, but i love you, i truly do.

growing up =/= losing yourself

突然有个领悟：

每个人都有自己的优缺点。
如果有人不喜欢你，那可能是因为对方无法包容你某些缺点。
这世上，谁没有问题呢？没有谁是完美的。
就算大多数的人不喜欢你的缺点，那又如何？
但若那些人对你来说很重要，改变一点又如何？或许你能够因此而找到真正的自己，更好的自己。
有些事不必想的那么极端，退一步真的能够海阔天空也说不定。
包容一点也很好啊，对不对？
人，难道就是那么自作孽吗？
凡事看开一点，想少一点，自然而然就会开朗多，快乐多。




people change, and i'm not spared as well.
i may have changed for the better or worse, depending on your point of view.
but i feel that i became better, and i'm glad about that.

sometimes, when people tell you that you've changed, it might not necessarily means that they don't know or don't understand you.
because most of the times, people outside of the situation sees everything in a clearer light, so they may actually know more than you thought so.
seeing from different people's perspectives gave me more understanding towards human nature and mankind.
to be honest, i felt really happy as to them trusting me enough to tell me about it.
yes i'm a silly kid, but i truly truly want everyone to be happy.
i tried to explain for them, but all is naught but i know at least i tried.
human beings are definitely complicated.
people who change, i am trying to adapt to the new you.
give me some time.
i cannot ensure that i will like you as much as before your change, but i will definitely still accept you as a friend.
tbh, i got really hurt, but i'm slowly putting it behind me.
let's just keep our fingers crossed and hope for the better from now on.

miss you hong bi zi xiao jieeeeee

hiahia i miss you tooooo my dearrrr!! <3 cant wait to go back i will scream ADELINE TOH YING YING when i see you next HAHAHAHA

hello! what do you want to say?

just wanna say,

i love my sucker tay and retarded toh. <3


sorry for no pics and if you are complaining go and die cause i have no time and my internet sucks too much for me to upload any pics okay. WANT PICS? wait until i get back to singapore kay HAHAHA.

hi babes and hunks HAHAHA

once again, i am back.

i miss everyone in singapore but i am doing well here now.
i have great colleagues and we are rather close. (with the exception of some of course)
there are definitely bitches no matter which profession you are in and the bitch that i met here is not only a hypocrite, but also an arrogant and vain and slutty bitch.
contact me if you want to listen to interesting stories, cause i am sure i will be able to fill you in and entertain you with my apt and drama description HAHAHAHAHA.

tay ah tay. i hope you can come overrr! but if you do i kind of dun want you to come during the same time as my family. if not very sian one leh. :( though if you guys come separately i will most probably have to play the same things twice HAHA so aiya i dunoe what to do D: sian maxxxxx.
and tay ah tay!! buy more vitamin c to eat!! dun always catch a cold! :( take good care of yourself!!!!an

anywayy, went to this place called Holland Village on 111111 which is a little way off from here and it's a really pretty place. picturesque and poetic scenary. and in just a few hours there, we met three couples taking wedding photos there. O.O
but it's REALLY pretty and of course i took photos hiahiahia. shall post them up soon okay!! ^^ but you should know the internet connection here in shanghai.......
so you can slooooowwwwlyyyyyyyy wait for it kay. ^^



to be independent and strong, that's so scary.
scary in the sense that there is noone to help you, noone to support you, noone to depend on, and the loneliness which comes thereafter. :(
i am a coward who is so damn afraid of being alone. i am trying to get used to it.
to have noone to depend on is terrifying.
imagine you are fighting by yourself, with noone as your backup. T^T
i want to be an independent and strong woman, really.
but i definitely hope that it doesn't mean that there is no one there with you.
growing up is such a tough path.
but i will brave through it.
i do know who will support me.
but i just need you to remind me occasionally that you will be there for me.
i am a teeny insecure.
please forgive me for that.
being here made me realised a lot of things.
i will be a better person and i AM becoming a better person.
i will be brave and grow up and not keep thinking of becoming a child once again.
i will.

长长九九

hi my dearest boy,

happy 9th! ^^
you know that recently i have been feeling rather down, and thank you for just being there to listen to me talk and cry and rant. you have always been the greatest support.
sdnly recalling how you would always try your best to help me in your own little ways.
like last sem when i rant to you about proj teammates, i never thought that you would text ade to ask her to tell the teachers cause you know i would never dare to do so. hahahaha.
you are always the best!! dun ever forget you are supposed to bring me go eat good food when i get back okay! :D:D:D:D
i miss you so much but i will stand up straight on my own here.
i will do my best and not let you down. :)
jiayou for your course okay! ^^

love,
me.

hypocrisy

currently working in the chinese restaurant in our hotel.
and in our chinese restaurant, there are private rooms which can be booked by our customers.
one night, i was one of the waitresses in the private room.
and in that one night, my horizon widen so much.

in just one night, i see how hypocritical can mankind be.
the level of hypocrisy gave me shivers down my spine.
i see how much bootlicking people can do. and how fast their faces change.
it's so scary that i grew so afraid. so afraid that i will be the same as them.
i see how they call each other brothers, just so to pull strings and climb up the social ladder.
i see how they pour each other drinks, just to toast and act like they have been the best of friends since they were born.
the feelings that overwhelmed me as i watch how they snatch the wine bottles from me to "serve" those of higher authorities.
the amount of disgust that washed over me is as much as the vacuum which fills this universe - immense.
tay, nv forget that you are supposed to pull me back if i ever fall into the pits of such hypocrisy.

i hope i will never forget this:
i swear that i will never be a hypocrite and will stay true to myself for as long as i live.


i believe, life's greatest success is not how much money you earn or how much fame you gain, but how much you stay true to yourself till the end.

One's life is like a piece of white and pure paper.
For every mistake one make, it's like a streak of black marker across the paper.
To cover it up, one has to do many more good deeds, which is in colourful streaks. As it is difficult to cover up a black streak drawn from a black marker.
Philosophical? Yes.
Acting like I am philosophical? Whatever, I no care what YOU think.
It's just some understanding I've got from shows that I've watched.
I really like shows which let me feel that I've learnt something about it. Such that I can re-watch it without feeling bored.



:/ Sometimes I really don't get it.
It's like, people know what is wrong. But nobody actually takes action to change it.
It's like a problem that has existed for very long. But nobody is actually willing to make the effort to change it.

As a management trainee, I am really sad to say, my capabilities and authority is somewhat limited.
You say, I should take charge and take the lead as I am training and learning how to manage a restaurant.
I say, do you really think if I said something, the staff will take me seriously?

To them, I am just a new staff, a young girl kid of only 19 years old.
With the way I talk, oh nonono. They simply think I am a cute little girl.

I try my best.
I try my best to tell them what I think is right.
But the way they joke around with me, I know they don't take me seriously.
And to be honest, I wonder who take me seriously.

I have suggestions to make. I have comments to give. But to them, I am still a new staff and therefore, I am not familiar enough to give suggestions and comments.
What I wish to say is, you are wrong.
In merely one month's time, or even lesser, I have found so many problems which should be dealt with seriously and properly.

I wish for a platform to voice out how I truly feel. I really feel like going straight to the Director and tell him. Tell him what's wrong. Tell him what should be corrected.
I know, our hotel places a lot of emphasis on the welfare of our employees. Regarding whether they are happy working in our hotel or not.
But sad to say, only the management level emphasizes this importance. Those who have positions closer to our employees don't.

Wrote a suggestion on a paper and passed it to Daniel. I wonder what he will think. :/
I hope he will pass it to Louisa HAHAHAHAHA.
I gave a suggestion of making a flipchart, a small one. Something like what Marche has. kekeke.
Cause I truly think that they should have one, with all the comments given to me by my colleagues. HAHAHA. and they think it's a great idea too.
it now boils down to whether the management thinks it's a good idea as well.

sigh wanted to like type proper english but found out that jiale suits her own style moreee. kekeke.
like that more comfortable for me. :')
there are many other problems which is not suitable to be voiced out here. But I will voice out to you, my friend. HAHAHAHA. you know i will. :')

anywayyy, there is this newcomer bitch who just started working in my restaurant. I think i can mention this. HAHAHAHA. unless she sees it and sues me for slander. but oh no she can't read english HAHAHA okay im a bitch but she's really a bitch okay.
with sucky attitude and im not the only one who feels that way.
you should really reflect on yourself okay. >:(
and stop por-ing me you have found the wrong target cause i will not be por-ed by you. >:(
you really think im a gullible little girl? think again, bitch.

i am back!

and i'm still alive and kicking here in shanghai WAHAHAHAHA no worries~~

i know i should have blogged about my hangzhou trip since like noooooong noooooooong ago but aiya you know working people very busy one. even when got free time also feel like nua-ing around and watch some vids or smthing. HAHAHAHA.

anywayyy, i kind of love my job now. if i ever mentioned before what it is. heh.
i'm actually a management trainee and i will be going to all the f&b areas as an intern. and this is the privilege that only overseas interns (aka me and ahyi) have.
in addition, we learn alot more things as we are management trainees and we are currently being trained to manage people and a restaurant.
for the local interns, they can only stay in one f&b area and therefore, what they learn will be somehow limited.
for me, i am now in Windows Cafe, the western restaurant which is the main restaurant in the whole hotel. hiahia.
afterwhich i will be going to the chinese restaurant (New Tang Palace) > jap-kor restaurant (Red Hot) > banquet > room service > their bar (Plaza Bar)

sigh and my last day of work at Windows is on sunday and i will be starting work at a brand new environment on monday.
it kind of sucks in the way that once you got used to a place and how it operates, you have to leave. but i guess this is good as you can meet all kinds of people and learn alot more new things just that you will miss those times when you work with all the lovely people you once did.
i can say that the day i leave here, i will definitely be filled with all kinds of emotions. :')
but i will return one day to visit!!! if only.... the people in the hotel dun change. HAHA.


hi blog. i missed you.
there is so much i want to say.
and i dunoe where to start. :/
nvm.
i will be good. :)

anywayy, just wanna to take this chance to thank sebastian loo merlion mr liu yu wei for being the messenger between me and tay HAHAHAHA.
dun be a petty guy alr okay.
bffaeaeaeaeaeaeaeaaeae (best friend forever and ever and ever and ever... ...) HAHAHAHAHA.
creative horh me! :D:D:D:D

okay enough of this bullshit. i have finished doing paperwork for my manager before leaving windows :') and i shall now go watch my tvb show that i half watched at tay's before i came here and hoho goodbye!! dun miss me!! :D:D and ahyi!! :D:D

a picture of us :')

PROSPEROUS 8TH!!

FA FA FA!! cause it's our 8th month HAHAHAHA.

hope your course which is starting tml really fa and become very prosperous and all your grades will be floating around the rainbows (flying colours) yes i know i very lame but hiahiahia you must be more confident of yourself and believe that you can do it!!!

dun give too much stress to yourself and if you feel like taking a break go buy starbucks and think of me hehehehehehe!!

rmb what i always told you. you cant think straight if you are too stressed so give yourself some time to relax okay. or you can try MYYYY stressfree method if you rmb HAHAHAHA.

good luck okay tay!!

18 and a half weeks till i get back! see you soon!! ^^

<3<3

call me laoshi!

did anyone miss meeeeee?? :D:D i miss rice more HAHAHAHAHA.
okay i shall stop being lame HAHA.



btw i went to hangzhou and suzhou with ahyi last weekend HIAHIA and hangzhou was super fun but not suzhou. :(
cause we were left with only one day to tour there (which is supposedly enough >:( ) and we spent like 2hours plus on the public bus cause of the dreadful jam. :( got down to walk all the way to some garden cause it's very famous but aft standing for so long and walking for so long with the gravity pulling our heavy bags, we stared at the map of the big garden and decided not to enter HAHAHA.
so in the end we went to this restaurant called "grandma's" and it's damn nice okayyy! i think it's one of the most famous restaurant in china HAHAHA you must come here to eat okay!!
yea will blog more about our trip there soon cause i am still too lazy to put the photos into my comp. HEHHH!! soon kay soon!!!!



anywayy, let me explain my blog title. CALL ME LAOSHI cause i am gonna become a laoshi soon!!!! WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!

due to some incidents in our hotel, my manager asked me if it's possible to do up some english training lesson and i agreed HAHAHA. she asked me to sought the help of ahyi so we can both teach them tgthr but ahyi has been working so i haven asked her but i alr agreed to help myself HAHAHA.
so i would be like teaching them the basic words and english's phrasing HAHA and si ahtay doubted my capability!!! >:( HAHAHAHA okay kidding but im quite excitedddd! HAHAHA.

and our manager quite nice leh she says she will make all the local interns attend since their hostel is very near the hotel too HAHA. smmore interns ma. should learn more things!!
BUT i have to do up a schedule and like the lesson plan. SAVE MEEEEEEEE!! T^T okay i will try my best. need to plan out what exactly i need to teach them. :(

and im working at the western restaurant now and aft that i will be moving to the chinese restaurant to teach and since the shift is split into two there with a break in between (11.30am - 2.30pm, 5.30pm - 10.30pm) she said i can still go down to teach them english during my break. OMGGGGXZXZXZXZ.
laoshi will be very busy okay!! ^^ but the lesson will probably be only 30-40mins hehe so i will still have a life somehow!! HAHAHAHA i thinkkkkkk!!

okay i shall start doing up my lesson schedule and plan aft i finish bathing and i still have my periodic report to do!! T^T
JIAYOU JIALE!!




sigh really miss my girls aft talking about our picnics with ahyi this morning. T^T
how i wish i can fly back immediately to have a picnic with them and do all the retarded things we do while dipping biscuits in the tuna cans and spreading all the tuna on our bread and fighting over that one spoon HAHAHA.
<3 my girls so much. :( recalling those times and us taking 'wedding photos' HAHA we are lovable cause of our retarded ways. <3 <3 I LOVE YOUUUU!

miss my ahtay too aft talking about all the simplest things that we will do when we see each other next.
it's not even like going out on a date or what. it's only the simplest things like hugging and smelling him HAHA. i DO like to smell people you all know one right! HAHAHA.

sigh. 19 more weeks now guys. :)
i know i will miss it here as well though. sighh. all my lovable colleagues who treat me ever so well. :) i will miss them dearly though we will have QQ (it's china's msn and i dun really sign in to that.. sadly.. but i should soon hahahahaha!) and they kept saying that if they go to singapore i must bring them around and that i must come back to china to visit them. :')
i guess within this six months i will be damn familiar with china alr. HAHAHA.
sigh. i love singapore and my peepos there and my colleagues <3

CROWNE PLAZA SHANGHAI PUDONG FOR THE WINNNN!! HAHAHAHAHAHA!!
(maybe if i miss here enough i will work in crowne plaza singapore HAHA!)

No particular reason... stalker <-> victim. Lol I NOE YOU MISS ME MOST! hehe take care kay <3

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA okayyyyyy. YESSS MISS YOUUU!! you miss me too right!?!? hehehe. yes i will!! love youuu! <3 you can whatsapp meeee! HAHAHAHA

hello! what do you want to say?

HEY VICTIM! i see ur having fun!:D love, stalker no. 1

O.O why victim? hahahahaha i forgot alr. yesssss but i kind of miss singaporeeeee!! 20more weeks till i return okay my loveeee!!

hello! what do you want to say?

THE swimming competition

as a lot of you might know, ben xiao jie actually went to a swimming competition last thur 22sep and i got first in place HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

at first i thought it was a inter-departmental competition when i agreed to join but afterwards i found out it was a inter-hotel competition and the participating hotels are all under IHG (Intercontinental Hotel Group)!?!?!? T^T

my swimming skills are really not good and it's actually more of water games than a swimming competition? anyway there are two games and in each game there is like three prizes for the top three winners and i'm in the first game which goes like this:

In the first game, each team would need to send out two participants, one male and one female.

1. The female would have to go through the float (it's like really small -_- i could barely fit in and most people couldnt and they could only put in their head and one arm -_-) and the male would have to pull/push her across while swimming of course.

2. After reaching the other side, they would have to swop places.

So, as you can see, i DO play an important role okayyy!! though the guy would have to swim really fast too. T^T and i did my best okay. i swam the fastest i ever did in my entire life and i kicked like nobody's business okay. :( originally we were like the third or fourth then i told myself just concentrate on kicking and i kick my hardest until i lifted my head up and VOILA~ we are number one HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

when we reached i could barely hold on to the edge of the pool (ehh when my head is above the water and i raise my arms up straight the edge is like at my elbow area okay it's damn high up. D:)

and furthermore that side was 1.8m deep and i couldn't even stand on anything. T^T so my partner had to literally pull me out of the pool cause i was out of energy.

i had to sit at the edge for awhile before standing up. :( and when i did, i had instant muscle ache okay!! (proof that i really tried my best to kick hard!!)

anywayyyy, here are the pictures we took after the swimming competition and after the prize ceremonyyy!! we won ourselves an award certificate and two huge plush dolphins and a prize money of 1500RMB!!

so supposedly me and the guy gets a plush dolphin each as shown below and each team member got 300RMB!! (we only have 5 team members and the other two are our supporters!! ^^)

pardon my very chui face please we had to wake up at like 5 or 5.30am!?!?!? D: tired max okay! plus i kicked so hard for the first prize!!

hi this is nicole, my partner's gf so she got the dolphin HAHAHA.

lieke my holland roommate! ^^

our team HAHAHAHAHA. and i gave my plush dolphin to the uncle beside me cause he wants to give it to his kid. so sweet right!!! and also cause i dun wanna take it home because i alr have captain and how am i supposed to bring such a huge plushie back to singapore!?!? D:

tay scolded me though. said it could have been a companion to captain. tsktsk. and what stitch (ahyi's plushie) can't swim so the dolphin can swim with captain why you so lame!?!? D:

and btw yes the 1st and 2nd runner-up received smaller dolphins accordingly HAHAHAHAHA.

okay that's all!! i'm kind of lazy to blog nowadays as you can see HAHAHAHA. and i think i should start blogging about our trip to the oriental pearl tower??

okay fine i will. i shall upload the photos now and continue this post.

sighh i am such a sweet girl. :') 

(okay i am this weird person who is typing on the computer screen and talking to herself. i can almost hear people say "glad that you know" D:)

on sat 24sep we went to downtown!!

had our usual breakfast (it was alr lunch i think HAHA) at windows!! the western restaurant that i'm working at :')

before we embarked on our journeyyyy~~

on the way to the subway station!!

TADA!

and we saw cheryl by the roadside. HI CHERYL!

our hotel which is the greyish one at the back! the tall one. with this red oval logo if you can see :D

ahyi who is taking vids HAHA i took some vids too but most vids are with ahyi. WAIT for us to upload kay. it might take a super long time HAHAHA.

the subway quite similar to our mrt ah.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA

THIS SHOPPING MALL ROCKS OKAY THE SUPER BRAND MALL!!

GOT MY C&K, SEPHORA, WATSONS, ZARA, MUJI, and also many other brands that singapore dun have but it totally makes us feel like we are back in sg. :')

plus got cinema next time can go there watch movies HIAHIAHIA.

our ultimate destination of the day - the oriental pearl tower!

the dbs which reminds me of cheryl HAHA.

rabbit year HAHA.

THE SUPER LONG QUEUE D:

going up to the highest point O_O

many many flags but no sg flag. :(

nearest we can find HAHAHA.

you spot me? HAHAHA.

SOUTH KOREAAAAA. :')

YES THIS IS A GLASS FLOORING CLARA.

we only stood on the glass when we took photos HAHAHAHA yes we are cowards T^T

TADA on the glass now HAHA.

what a brave man T^T

made her do this and of course she made me do the same thing as well. T^T

except that i crawled back T^T damn scary clara you will die here HAHAHAHA.

GOT ARCADE SIA!

we caught this couple kissing at different points of the tower. and it's like that kind of DEEEEEP kiss where they closed their eyes and seem to be in their own world HAHAHAHAHA.

ROLLER COASTER RIDE which lasted really short but still quite fun HAHAHAHA.

and this is the neoprint we took in the arcade~~ HAHAHAHA.

okay yes thats about itttt~~

and we are going to hangzhou and suzhou tml!! tell you guys all about it when i get back kay! :D