i need somewhere with more privacy. :/
sigh i dunoe what i want. ARGH.
Thursday, June 16, 2011
Reason why i hate him sometimes 2
ME: ehh you know ronnie dun dare to talk to us cause he think we angmoh pai. but where got! i also will speak in chinese.
MRTAY: yar loh. you so cheena where got angmoh pai.
ME: -_-
MRTAY: anyway you are cheese pie ma.
ME: huh why?
MRTAY: you know the cheese plus the meat pie that kind of pie?
ME: yar i know
MRTAY: you are cheese pie minus the 'se'.
ME: i am chee pie? (please read it aloud to get it) OMG WTH WHY YOU MAKE ME SCOLD VULGARITIES!? >:(
MRTAY: ^^
big fat sucker. thanks.
okay i have been meaning to post properly with my photos but i'm gonna USS tml bitches! OHH YEAHHH!!
okay so i will just post EVERYTHING that happened this week like maybe on sunday? since i will be out singing k on saturday HAHA.
okay bye peepos i really not living life like a year 3 need to go back to reality next week D:
MRTAY: yar loh. you so cheena where got angmoh pai.
ME: -_-
MRTAY: anyway you are cheese pie ma.
ME: huh why?
MRTAY: you know the cheese plus the meat pie that kind of pie?
ME: yar i know
MRTAY: you are cheese pie minus the 'se'.
ME: i am chee pie? (please read it aloud to get it) OMG WTH WHY YOU MAKE ME SCOLD VULGARITIES!? >:(
MRTAY: ^^
big fat sucker. thanks.
okay i have been meaning to post properly with my photos but i'm gonna USS tml bitches! OHH YEAHHH!!
okay so i will just post EVERYTHING that happened this week like maybe on sunday? since i will be out singing k on saturday HAHA.
okay bye peepos i really not living life like a year 3 need to go back to reality next week D:
Wednesday, June 15, 2011
Tuesday, June 14, 2011
Reason why i hate him sometimes.
While touching my leg,
MRTAY: why your jiao (legs) so hua (smooth)?
ME: REALLY!? ^^
MRTAY: ohh cause you very jiao hua (cunning/sly)!!
ME: >:(
while talking to clara on msn, he sdnly started typing,
MRTAY: (using my identity) do u think i am pretty?
CLARA: who are you? you are not jiale right?
phone ringing, clara calling
ME: hello THAT'S NOT ME
CLARA: yar i was thinking you also dun type 'u' one. you type 'you' ma.
hangs up the phone, back to the comp,
CLARA: yup i think she is pretty
MRTAY: (immediately turns and stares at my face) REALLY MEH!? (proceeds to type 'you dun lie' or smthing in the conver)
CLARA: i think all my friends are pretty. (I LUB YOU <3)
tay yin ji xian sheng you are such a sucker >:(
MRTAY: why your jiao (legs) so hua (smooth)?
ME: REALLY!? ^^
MRTAY: ohh cause you very jiao hua (cunning/sly)!!
ME: >:(
while talking to clara on msn, he sdnly started typing,
MRTAY: (using my identity) do u think i am pretty?
CLARA: who are you? you are not jiale right?
phone ringing, clara calling
ME: hello THAT'S NOT ME
CLARA: yar i was thinking you also dun type 'u' one. you type 'you' ma.
hangs up the phone, back to the comp,
CLARA: yup i think she is pretty
MRTAY: (immediately turns and stares at my face) REALLY MEH!? (proceeds to type 'you dun lie' or smthing in the conver)
CLARA: i think all my friends are pretty. (I LUB YOU <3)
tay yin ji xian sheng you are such a sucker >:(
i need to remember this.
sometimes when i look past all these things that seem so small and trivial in your eyes, i see something else.
i think i haven't been noticing much but you care in this small little way of yours.
it always doesn't matter to you when i have my meals late. but you do care if i actually don't eat anything at all.
you even care about how i always use my phone on my way home and dug out comics for me to read instead.
how i always cough you would pat my back and ask if i am alright.
everytime i cry aft we quarrel for abit and you will ignore me for awhile but wipe my tears away aft that.
i should probably focus more on all these and feel more loved.
i guess i WAS comparing previously, but i din really notice. sorry my dear.
thanks love for everything. <3
will try and remember to treat you better okay! ^^
i think i haven't been noticing much but you care in this small little way of yours.
it always doesn't matter to you when i have my meals late. but you do care if i actually don't eat anything at all.
you even care about how i always use my phone on my way home and dug out comics for me to read instead.
how i always cough you would pat my back and ask if i am alright.
everytime i cry aft we quarrel for abit and you will ignore me for awhile but wipe my tears away aft that.
i should probably focus more on all these and feel more loved.
i guess i WAS comparing previously, but i din really notice. sorry my dear.
thanks love for everything. <3
will try and remember to treat you better okay! ^^
Monday, June 13, 2011
HAPPYjiale.blogspot.com right?
jiale, you need to think simpler like how you used to.
jiale, you need to be more cheerful and smile more just like you used to.
jiale, you need to laugh out so loud that it embarrasses yourself just like you used to.
jiale, you need to change those happy used-tos into present tense.
Expectations
Is it wrong to expect? Or am i expecting too much?
I dun really feel happy nowadays. Okay i do feel happy smtimes. But yeah only sometimes.
Who understands? I really dunoe. It's not abt having someone there for you, it's more of having someone who understands.
What do i do when my expectations fall short? Can i scream and yell and shout and throw my tantrums?
What do i do when i feel like i can't hold on for much longer?
What do i do when all that you said no longer stay true?
What do i do when all the tears are cooped up and they aren't falling as freely as they want to?
I have no idea how to do things anymore.
Everything i do is wrong. Everything i say is wrong.
In my world, there is no right left. There is only wrongs, mistakes and errors.
I am so sick of this. I am so sick of me.
I dun feel like caring what i will gain in this life. This is enough. I dun wanna experience anything anymore. I just dun have the willpower to carry on anymore.
I am a liar. I am a hypocrite.
People can hardly change my mind. Once it is set and i believe fully what i do, nothing can change my mind.
Stubborn in a crude way and persistant in a nice way.
Any-oh-how, i am a fucked up person.
Btw, the main reason why tears are formed is cause of one word: hurt
Jiale, perhaps you have been too childish. Perhaps it's time for you to grow up.
I dun really feel happy nowadays. Okay i do feel happy smtimes. But yeah only sometimes.
Who understands? I really dunoe. It's not abt having someone there for you, it's more of having someone who understands.
What do i do when my expectations fall short? Can i scream and yell and shout and throw my tantrums?
What do i do when i feel like i can't hold on for much longer?
What do i do when all that you said no longer stay true?
What do i do when all the tears are cooped up and they aren't falling as freely as they want to?
I have no idea how to do things anymore.
Everything i do is wrong. Everything i say is wrong.
In my world, there is no right left. There is only wrongs, mistakes and errors.
I am so sick of this. I am so sick of me.
I dun feel like caring what i will gain in this life. This is enough. I dun wanna experience anything anymore. I just dun have the willpower to carry on anymore.
I am a liar. I am a hypocrite.
People can hardly change my mind. Once it is set and i believe fully what i do, nothing can change my mind.
Stubborn in a crude way and persistant in a nice way.
Any-oh-how, i am a fucked up person.
Btw, the main reason why tears are formed is cause of one word: hurt
Jiale, perhaps you have been too childish. Perhaps it's time for you to grow up.
Saturday, June 11, 2011
two mes.
"RT @ZodiacFacts: As an #Aries,although others find you irresistible, you are struggling with two different personalities and hate to be contradicted."
i DO have two different personalities. D:
and i hate it when i contradict myself. D:
it's like there are many different parts of me. and sometimes, this certain part of me wants to push away another part of me to emerge and become the 'main' me, if you even get what i am trying to say. :/
it's like who i want to be VS who i really am.
NONONO it should be which personality do i really want to cultivate within me.
have no idea whether anyone understands. :/
okay bye.
i DO have two different personalities. D:
and i hate it when i contradict myself. D:
it's like there are many different parts of me. and sometimes, this certain part of me wants to push away another part of me to emerge and become the 'main' me, if you even get what i am trying to say. :/
it's like who i want to be VS who i really am.
NONONO it should be which personality do i really want to cultivate within me.
have no idea whether anyone understands. :/
okay bye.
NEW BABIES
yes as you can see from my post previously, it was so tiring nowadays. D:
though we only had one CT which was today (friday), we have two assignments due next week. one on monday and one on friday. D:
PT ASSIGNMENT ON MONDAY OMG it kills seriously. D:
had to rush the assignment while studying for CT. it was like half of hell. i presume finals will officially be hell. T^T
okayyy anywayyy. today (friday) it was our first and last day of CT!! WOOTS! the only time when we only had one CT! :D though technically we had quizzes and tests for other modules so technically we have more than one CT but who caresss~~
anywayyy, had pizza hut for lunch after CT WOOHOO it's a reward okay mrtay. STOP CALLING ME A RICH GIRL >:(
went to posb bank with clara and got these HEHE i wanted them since forever and WOOHOO FINALLYYYY!! okay maybe it's nothing much to you. -_-
though we only had one CT which was today (friday), we have two assignments due next week. one on monday and one on friday. D:
PT ASSIGNMENT ON MONDAY OMG it kills seriously. D:
had to rush the assignment while studying for CT. it was like half of hell. i presume finals will officially be hell. T^T
okayyy anywayyy. today (friday) it was our first and last day of CT!! WOOTS! the only time when we only had one CT! :D though technically we had quizzes and tests for other modules so technically we have more than one CT but who caresss~~
anywayyy, had pizza hut for lunch after CT WOOHOO it's a reward okay mrtay. STOP CALLING ME A RICH GIRL >:(
went to posb bank with clara and got these HEHE i wanted them since forever and WOOHOO FINALLYYYY!! okay maybe it's nothing much to you. -_-
WOOHOO ONLINE SHOPPING HERE I COME :D
WAHAHAHAHAHAHA after 10million years. -_- okay no this feb or earlier. D:
though i have no idea how ibanking really works HAHAHAHA. but the gadget like cool what. ^^
after getting back home and ahtay came to find me, OFF WE GO TO IT FAIR :D
camwhores while trying out the different camera apps~
sorry for my chui and tired face but deal with it. ^^
kekeke walked around IT fair and got my favourite baby. <3
HEHEHE got it with mrtay and peiqin's recommendations. ^^
mum kept saying that the blue one is nicer but somehow i think the black one more sleek leh. D: kind of more classy. suits me. atas okay. HAHAHAHAHA.
okay i love my new camera tml must start using it alr (Y) must use it at least twice a week.
okay next week i will go record some vids when we go sing k okay. i wanna make mrtay throw face WOOTS WOOTS! ^^
four years passed.
so now it's four years between you and me eh? ^^ hehe.
but we know it's somehow longer than that. heh.
it's like as time passes i have more and more things that i love about you. :)
even the little fats you have at your tummy when you sit down. kekeke.
but PLEASE you still skinny can. -_-
time passes zoom zoom and leonard is flying off and i would most probably go off to china so please take care of yourself when your two most impt ppl are not with you okay. please 相亲相爱 with arvin and junwen ah!
be more confident baby and you will be fine. :)
i trust and believe in you so do the same thing to yourself!
even if we still have some arguments here and there i am sorry that i am rather emotionally unstable nowadays cause of the pile of work and yeah you know all those things that i told you heh. but we are understanding each other more and more right! ^^ hehe.
a lot of things weird to write here but you know deep in your heart can alr okay!
and no matter what i always love phone calls with you my dear. (L)(L)
as always, LUBCHU!
Miss lj <3 mr mao mi
but we know it's somehow longer than that. heh.
it's like as time passes i have more and more things that i love about you. :)
even the little fats you have at your tummy when you sit down. kekeke.
but PLEASE you still skinny can. -_-
time passes zoom zoom and leonard is flying off and i would most probably go off to china so please take care of yourself when your two most impt ppl are not with you okay. please 相亲相爱 with arvin and junwen ah!
be more confident baby and you will be fine. :)
i trust and believe in you so do the same thing to yourself!
even if we still have some arguments here and there i am sorry that i am rather emotionally unstable nowadays cause of the pile of work and yeah you know all those things that i told you heh. but we are understanding each other more and more right! ^^ hehe.
a lot of things weird to write here but you know deep in your heart can alr okay!
and no matter what i always love phone calls with you my dear. (L)(L)
as always, LUBCHU!
Miss lj <3 mr mao mi
Thursday, June 09, 2011
Monday, June 06, 2011
i am this screwed up person
who listens to everything that everyone says. and i would only believe once.
this means that if i am told the same story twice with different versions, i would usually believe the first version of it.
why did i say i am a screwed up person?
because i hate it that i would restrict myself to others' opinions.
for example, if people tells me that they realised that i don't have a favourite colour, i would go around telling people that i love all colours when they ask me what colour do i like the most. or i would just say rainbows, which basically covers all the colours.
HAHA retarded but i DO have favourite colours. certain colours that i REALLY do like.
specific colours would be based on my mood then. but the colours that usually appeal to me are coral and pastel colours. those that gives you the meadow-y feel. heh.
i have no idea why i let others define me. i should be THE ONE defining myself.
i am easily affected by the 'facts' i see around me.
for example i read this quote which says 'infatuation lasts for only 4 months, so if you love someone beyond that period, you are truly in love.' and this is something i have always believed, despite not checking or researching on it. dumb eh?
there is another quote that says something along the line as 'hormones released in your body would only allow you to 'love' someone as long as 3 years, so if you love someone beyond that period, you really love him/her.'
however, why do we let these quotes decide whether we love someone or not? let yourself decide that. you yourself should know, right?
i don't deny that sometimes i have doubts, even about my own relationship.
i cannot be sure that you are the one. how do i be sure?
i read all those 'love stories' about people online and they always can feel that who is 'the one' and who is their 'destiny' but honestly if so, i think i already had a million 'the one' -_-
so basically i dun dare to think/feel anymore. just gonna leave it alone.
all i know is that i really like it now and i wanna remain status quo for as long as possible.
i hope that i am not deceiving myself. there is just so many things which i can't say for certain anymore.
i don't wanna waver. i just wanna remain.
when it boils down to the end, i still wanna go back to you.
please let me know that all will be well and i would still have everyone to laugh with.
this means that if i am told the same story twice with different versions, i would usually believe the first version of it.
why did i say i am a screwed up person?
because i hate it that i would restrict myself to others' opinions.
for example, if people tells me that they realised that i don't have a favourite colour, i would go around telling people that i love all colours when they ask me what colour do i like the most. or i would just say rainbows, which basically covers all the colours.
HAHA retarded but i DO have favourite colours. certain colours that i REALLY do like.
specific colours would be based on my mood then. but the colours that usually appeal to me are coral and pastel colours. those that gives you the meadow-y feel. heh.
i have no idea why i let others define me. i should be THE ONE defining myself.
i am easily affected by the 'facts' i see around me.
for example i read this quote which says 'infatuation lasts for only 4 months, so if you love someone beyond that period, you are truly in love.' and this is something i have always believed, despite not checking or researching on it. dumb eh?
there is another quote that says something along the line as 'hormones released in your body would only allow you to 'love' someone as long as 3 years, so if you love someone beyond that period, you really love him/her.'
however, why do we let these quotes decide whether we love someone or not? let yourself decide that. you yourself should know, right?
i don't deny that sometimes i have doubts, even about my own relationship.
i cannot be sure that you are the one. how do i be sure?
i read all those 'love stories' about people online and they always can feel that who is 'the one' and who is their 'destiny' but honestly if so, i think i already had a million 'the one' -_-
so basically i dun dare to think/feel anymore. just gonna leave it alone.
all i know is that i really like it now and i wanna remain status quo for as long as possible.
i hope that i am not deceiving myself. there is just so many things which i can't say for certain anymore.
i don't wanna waver. i just wanna remain.
when it boils down to the end, i still wanna go back to you.
please let me know that all will be well and i would still have everyone to laugh with.
Btw that (L)(L) was from me you b*tch (just in case fs flagged this as inappropriate xb) and just now that one was me too, typing from my bb yo
but these two got your name leh. PREVIOUSLY NO YOU SO I DUNOE MA D: YOU BITCH HMPHHHH.
plop plop plop.
plopping myself here typing these words i feel kind of happy. :)
i missed my blog. <3
everyday my life is boring.
if i am not in school, i am at home.
if i am not doing project, i am doing assignments or tutorials. :/
luckily i have my most adorable friends with me. hehe.
we went out on thursday after school to town! weeeeeeeeee~
why did we go there!? for our assignments BOOOOOOO!!
headed to DFS for our RMTR mystery shopper assignment where i paired with ahyi. ^^
had to keep browsing the items and acting like we were shoppers. should have worn prettier clothes and perhaps the people wouldn't look down on us so much like we couldn't afford their stuffs. D:
OKAY FINE WE CAN'T AFFORD I ADMIT :( EVERYTHING BRANDED LIKE CRAZYY.
walked around and of course saw so many gorgeous items which are so expensive i wanna cry.
this pen holder from mont blanc costs $120!?!?!? why i wanna buy a pen holder which costs so much more than my lousy $1.90 pen bought from popular!? D:
okay i am not a rich person. can't comprehend.
saw gorgeous bags and i told myself not to check the price. CHEH make myself heart pain nia.
OHH and i saw this REEEEAAAAALLLLLYYYYY chio watch with ahyi and i was even thinking of buying for mr tay and we wanted to pretend to 'buy' it to check the staff's attitude who has been ignoring us when i sdnly saw the price tag.
GUESS HOW MUCH WAS IT!?
$1029 OMG FML WHY WATCH YOU SO EXPENSIVE!? i think you more expensive than me D:
okay anywayyyy, after our mystery shopping experience which sadly ended with me having leg cramps D: we met xueli YAYYY and went to wendy's for dinner kekeke. enjoyed ourselves lots. ^^
we had a out-of-the-norm thing on friday.
had a super long break from 1 to 5pm cause of local internship briefing. and guess what did we do during the break!?
WE DID NOT DO ANY WORK YAYYYY!
we all napped on the table HAHA. or used the comp. and watched PCK the movie HAHA.
finally yooooo! :D:D
survey at night again D: tonight as well. D: sigh i hate doing surveys.
yesterday was a freeeeeeeeee day for me HAHA. out with mrtay to watch xmen: first of the class WOOHOOO!
the cute guy is super cuteee. I GOOGLED/WIKI-ED HIM HE IS LUCAS TILL HEHE WHO ACTS AS HAVOK AKA ALEXANDER SUMMERS IN THE MOVIEEEE!! ^^
AND OHH TAYYINJI I KNOW WHY HE LOOKS SO FAMILIAR ALRRR!
he is in taylor swift's you belong with me mv!!! unless you saw him from elsewhere HAHA.
walked around after the movies and bought a new sandals cause my current one was spoiling hehe happy me is happy~
went for yongsheng's bday celebration where we ate, talked, laughed, sang song~
^^ nua-ed there till it's time for home and mrtay sent me home which is something he hasn't done for a loooooooooonnnggg time. D: okay most of the time he just stays over so yeahhh HAHA.
gonna sleep soon and wake up early tml morning to do serious work. NO MORE SLACKING ME! >:(
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