Tuesday, October 05, 2010

who i am.

nope it's not my birthday, nor is it the end of the year. but still i would like to write/note down what kind of person i am or have become. what kind of person i see myself as. how much understanding of myself i have gained. you might disagree or agree. i dunoe. but this is MY perspective of ME. :)

me, a girl. obviously. someone who can't really expresses her thoughts/feelings as well as you think. you may think that i can, cause of my bubbly and talkative nature, but in fact, i tend to bottle up the littlest things subconsciously. and i am trying not to now. in the past i could bottle up things as little as going to the toilet. :/ weird eh? then i would bear with it UNTIL a friend says that she wants to go to the toilet and then i would realised that i want to go to the toilet too and follow her. or if i really really cannot bear with it any longer and i will realise that i really need the toilet. hahaha! i start to bottle up things subconsciously is cause somehow to me, i don't like to trouble others by waiting for me while i go to the toilet or going to the toilet with me. :/ this is also why i don't usually initiate convers. i am afraid that i would be disturbing them? i am weird this way. hahaha.

i like to give myself excuses. :/ cause i don't like to make mistakes. sort of a high ego? i like to be right. who doesn't? i always try to justify my actions. :/ but if i am really at fault, tell me, and i will apologise. :) i am guilty conscious too. too afraid of making mistakes. i dun like or rather i am afraid of making others unhappy. :/ i used to be so afraid that i would do things that make me unhappy in order to make others happy. but then i realised that there is no point if i am not happy myself. :)

friends around me like to laugh at me alot. i dun mind. i know my brain is rather slow at times and my actions are rather retarded too and i always do stupid things as well, so people like to make a joke out of it. :) i dun mind being my friends' entertainment. them happy makes me happy too. different case from wad i said above. but dun be too overboard. there is a limit to everything. i don't like people to doubt my credibility, even if you are saying it as a joke. i am not stupid nor dumb. dun doubt my words even if you are just joking about the doubt-ing part. i DO get angry when i am talking about serious stuffs.

i have a bad temper. alot of my friends dun think so. i dunoe why. i may be easy going, but that doesn't mean i  have a good temper. it may be just that i keep quiet when i am angry. i usually flare up at those that are very close to me only. if i never flared up at you, it's either cause i am not that close to you yet or i am just not really angry, just irritated? my anger goes as quickly as it comes. already trying to keep my temper in check. :) not nice to have a bad temper too. i dun like being angry. i am rather stubborn too. and i am a very go-by-the-book/law-by-law person. totally not flexible at all. don't think out of the box now. learning to be more flexible. :) and that not all things go by our way. we just have to learn to accept it. ^^

hmm mm. to me i am someone who understands human nature very well? i know people hardly think i am mean, but i am not a saint, so of course i have times when i feel selfish and self-centred. i would chide myself, but that doesn't mean those thoughts wouldn't float up every now and then. hahaha. i feel like i can understand how everyone feels very easily, thats why i feel happy when i see strangers smiling, i feel sad and cry when i watch touching shows. not that i am the only one who does that, just that my EQ seems lower as i tend to cry/laugh easier. i tend to try to understand why people do/say the things they do.

and i do think badly of people smtimes. it's hard for me to truly really dislike you. because even if i start to dislike you and think of you badly or think mean stuffs about you, i do feel guilty and hope that there is an explanation for everything and perhaps i'd rather think like i am the mean person who is thinking of mean stuffs about you cause it is easier and simpler rather than thinking of you as the bad person.

but here is the prob. understanding does not equal agreeing. me being able to understand you, doesn't mean that i will agree with what you are doing. for example i understand why you only think of yourself, because everyone does so and it's human nature, but that doesn't mean that i agree with you not thinking of others at all. these actions might make me irritated and unhappy with you.

i am very irritable. little things might irritate me. but small irritations are alright. but if accumulated, i can only tell you it's not a good thing. if you notice hostile behaviors from me, it means that i am already irritated. hahaha! i dun usually tell ppl when i am unhappy with them, cause smtimes even i myself dun notice it until it is accumulated. hahaha. the subconsciously bottling things up again. but accumulated irritations and unhappiness are too obvious, even for people as slow as i am.

i am quite predictable. because my thinking span isn't that big. hahaha. i can't think of too many things at any one time. i have to concentrate on doing one thing at a time. i can't hide my feelings either. i used to think that i can hide it very well, but my face shows it all - my irritation, my anger, my happiness, my sadness. people can just guess what i am feeling with my expressions. i am very easy to understand too. because what i want is usually quite straightforward and simple. hahahaha. or so i think. maybe not so straightforward. smtimes i might say the opposite words but you know girls. hahaha!

because i can't hide my feelings, it is usually quite obvious when i am irritated/annoyed or when i dislike smone. hostile behaviors appear like what i have mentioned. i dun like people to try too hard. so when i am unhappy with you, dun apologise too much, you are just making things worse. trying too hard makes you seem fake. REALLY fake. and i hate fake ppl. i hate hypocrites. i hate liars who tell lies. i hate people who break promises. if you can't fulfill what you promised, then dun make it in the first place. makes sense. right? i am gullible and hence i tend to believe your words if you said them. and if you lie to me. you will just make me hate you.

complicated yet simple. simple yet complicated. i am just this kind of person. :) continue again next time.


p.s: this has been in my drafts for quite some time. and i just edited for abit and added in a few stuffs. :) continue this again when i feel like it. hahaha. ok goodbye. and i love my blog background by the way though i changed it for quite some time already hahahahaha. :)

tumblr's 10 days challenge

hello i'm here to post my tumblr's 10 days challenge again yo. somehow i think sometimes i am more truthful at my tumblr hahahaha. so yupyup. :) i like being truthful hehehohohaha. cause i feel more carefree and i dun have to hide myself and thus i am like truthful erm 98% of the time. i can't say 100% cause yes i lied before but i try my best not to lie unless circumstances wun allow it cause i dun like liars and so i dun want to become one myself. hehehoho. but regarding feelings i would never lie~ ^^ i dun like you i wun act like i like you. i like you maybe i will act like i dun like you but it's still rather obvious hehehoho. ok anyway enough for this crapping.

Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.

because i love jonghyun so much,

i must post this here hahahahahahaha shinee's hello mv came out today and omg so freaking cute you will fall in love with them but please rmb that jonghyun is mine HAHAHAHAHA i can sense clara's killing glare already omg hoho today is a happy day i will update again later maybe on wed hehehe cause i promised a friend of mine that i will only blog on wed. kekeke.

ENJOY!! ^^

Sunday, October 03, 2010

tumblr's 10 days challenge

and today is day three! kind of slow and late but hahahaha i kept forgetting hehe.

CLICK: Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.

:) i am alright.

i love my cute friends. hehe. i was feeling damn uncomfortable last night. heart pumping at a weird rate. hands turning cold. maybe i am just thinking too much. then as i tot that it was np results day. i felt weirder and started feeling worried about my friends and sms-ed everyone telling them that despite it being super random that i love them and asking them to jiayou.

argh retarded me but yar hahaha. ahwen called almost immediately and he was worried that i might do smthing stupid. HAHAHA. i din realised that it sounded like some suicide sms hahaha. and ahxiang and many others tot wad happened to me wad cute friends. love clara who sms-ed me right after i tweeted hehe. and ahyi and shaun leong for sms-ing me long after. and surprisingly jervis quak and kevin toh the two guys replied me love you too HAHAHA i am surprised.

wad cute friends i have. many ok like sebas hyrah ade cheryl ahmao keh ahbe so many i cant rmb sorry if your name is listed but you know i love you now. <3 hehehe. ^^

dun worry friends though i still feel like i am waiting for that 'smthing' to happen but ahxiang was telling me that that 'smthing' might be mrs lee kuan yew passing on. omg. maybe.. :( RIP mrs lee kuan yew. you seem like a wonderful woman as wad the news say so. :)

last but not least, i love my cute friends so much. <3

Friday, October 01, 2010

though i am feeling sad over my grandma,

but it was a good day today heh heh. i love todayyyy!

it was results day. 3.1~ woohoo~ though it's still lousy yar i know sorry but it's like my highest gpa since i got into poly woohoo finally above 3 woohooooooo~ i was like slping the whole morning until clara called and asked me about my results saying that everyone already replied her msg except for me. hahahahahaha! and she helped me check my gpa yay heyy i love you!! though cumulative is like 2.9 but i dun careeeeeee~ shall work harder nxt sem thennn! ^^

then i watched gumiho last ep! woohoooo! i shall not spoil the show for clara and ahyi cause i know they read here and i still want them to watch the showwwww! hahaha. i was seriously crying throughout the whole ep. it was crazy. i started crying right from the start. hahahaha!

then after that it was like shinee's comeback!?!? they were so freaking gorgeous and i was spazzing like crazy. hahahaha. and it was beast's comebackkkkk!! woohooo~ shinee's comeback is freaking cute melting my heart and beast's comeback is like freaking hot making me high. hahahaha. i love them both weehee. :D

todayy is a happy dayyyyy!! :) ok i think i shld start updating my blog properly it's like been so long since i last did it. hoho.

23rd september 2010
went out with ahyi~ dating dating! hehehe. went to shop around and walk around. it was a leisure shopping trip. but no longer our taitai trip. :( cause we were quite thrifty during the trip. hahaha! she brought me to wisma food republic for nice nice teppanyaki hehehe. my very first teppanyaki woohoo~ and the two taitais had their high tea at mac. atas okkkk! HAHAHA! walked ALL around orchard. seriously. from ion to plaza sing. ok fine we took the bus. hahahaha! ate at longjohn at plaza sing and went back to taka to buy stuffs and i took 171 with her! such a nice friend huh. took 1hour plus to go home though. T.T

24th september 2010
nua-ed at home for the afternoon and ate dinner at home and went off to meet incans at dhoby ghaut and then sat there for awhile before we headed to swirl art near great world city to meet keh and eat yogurt. keh gave me a presenttttt!! :D:D hehehe i love her so much. wanted to go to haien's hse but it was like freaking far away while walking so in the end we just went to tiong bahru plaza. i think we are like crazy hahaha. sat at the burger king there to chitchat and aaron took 851 with me and he dropped off at little india stn to take train hahaha.

25th september 2010
it was saturdayyyyyy~ went to clara's hse and we wanted to make cream pasta and because we added the egg white in it and cream clumped up and it's like not nice anymore. :( at the start when we started eating we tot it was nice but in the end both of us gave up each eating only like one quarter of our plate cause we got sick of it. it was crazy. hahaha.

went to her study room and we started using our com and i was watching gumiho while she was watching personal taste and somehow i kept watching with her. -_- so now i know the ending of personal taste without even starting to watch it. hahahaha. retarded much. but i was like crying and crying while watching gumiho and she kept laughing at me. retarded clara owyong mei leng. HAHAHA! din have dinner cause we ate the failed cream pasta at like 3plus so we werent hungry and went to mac and ate some stuffs and we sat there chitchatting till it was late and we went home~

26th september 2010
hello sunday! ahyi came to my house and we slacked around and did some stuffs. mel was free between running her errands and she came to join us hehehe. she got a new cool backpack which is like specially designed for ppl with laptops. cool cool! i also feel like buying a new backpack hehe anyone? :D:D mel was like totally obssessed with the enid blyton books in my house and she borrowed quite a few home HAHAHA funny mel.

27th september 2010
went running in the morning and ade and ahyi came over and we slacked around and did some stuffs and hoho. cant really rmb wad happened on this day hahaha. ohh i forgot it's on this day or the prev day my dad actually patted ahyi's head. HAHAHA! the both of us were like shocked. ahyi is the first friend whose head my dad patted. no matter if it is my friend or jiamin's friend or qiqi's friend. hahahahaha!!

but after the 'ahleng' thing with clara, the 'thank you only ah' thing with hyrah and the supper thing with clara and ahyi i guess i shldnt be surprised anymore. HAHAHA! he is making friends with my friends. this has never happened before. i think my friends before were too scared of him hahaha. but now my friends are like his chingu yo. HAHAHA! damn funny.

28th september 2010
went over to clara house to chill as well as cooking doubuki (spicy rice cakes) hehehe. and i realised i like to type hehehe nowadays. hehehe. add all kinds of things and we would never add ketchup in it anymore. tomato taste too strong. but the doubuki is nice! computer again and watching our shows again. clara felt sick and so i went home early. :( she went to the doc in the end and it's stomach flu omg. dear ahleng ah get well soon it's just the tummy now so ask your tummy to be a good tummy! hahaha!

29th september 2010
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO GENGTAO BEDMATE! ^^
went to orchard and met cheryl. went up to wisma food republic to eat and she intro-ed me this famous hokkien mee stall so of course i ate there hohoho. famous lehhh! ^^ went to walk around and hyrah came to join us. walked around somemore and we went to ion food opera to sit sit while hyrah finished her currypuff and ahyi came and we sat there to talk and choose a souvenir each from new york that cheryl bot for us. :)

then went to walk around and hyrah and ahyi shopped. stopped at this jap shop where hyrah started playing with hair extensions while we were laughing and there is this security guard who kept staring at us. -_- he kept staring and staring like he was suspecting we were going to steal stuffs or wad. of course we wouldnt we are good kids we were just playing around with their products hahahaha!

went over to bugis to see g.na's autograph session and met hyrah's sis. g.na cried when the fans sang two birthday songs for her in the english and korean version. :') she is pretty in real life though i din really like her face hahaha. she performed supersolo and sang two lines of 'i will back off so you can live better' without the music and hyrah and my goosebumps came up ok. omg. i love her voice.

ahyi went to buy jy4's birthday present after that and hyrah and her sis left after that while me and ahyi and cheryl went to eat. me and cheryl shared a dinner cause we didn't feel like eating and after dinner we went around. wanted to buy koi but the queue was like crazy and so we went to subway to sit and chitchat and headed home after that hoho.

30th september 2010
stayed at home and nua-ed abit and cheryl came and we did stuffs including retarded ones but i love wad we did. hehe. ahyi came over after her driving and me and cheryl went down to meet her and bought our dinner. cheryl and me shared a popiah and ahyi went to buy macs and we went up to my hse nua-ed abit and did some work and watched tv and they left. :)

01st october 2010
omg it's october already it's like so fast O.O woohoo one more month till i get my iphone 4 hehe i am a happy girl and it's a happy day. first up i would like to wish everyone no matter you are young or old, female or male, chubby or slim, tall or short,

HAPPY CHILDREN'S DAYYYYYYYYYYY!!
WITH LOTS OF BALLOONS AND BUBBLES AND RAINBOWS AND BUTTERFLIES AND ALL KINDS OF PRETTY THINGS!! ^^
aren't you happy hohoho! and yayy since i am having a holiday on this special day i shall declare that i am actually a cute little girl with ribbons in her hair wearing a pretty polka dotted dress with a adorable pair of shoes with cartoons on top. :)

ok ignore me hahaha i am going crazy cause it's such a happy dayyyyy~ as stated above hehehe. i love everyone todayyyyyy~ and i hope everyone would be happy too kkkkkkkkkkkk. my love is going around everywhere kekeke!

i love my grandma. :'(

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Monday, September 27, 2010

Saturday, September 25, 2010

random.

i am feeling bored and decided that this blog has too little pictures so here you go. drew this super adorable ghost thingy while msn-ing junhao. was supposedly drawing his speed demon and i found this incredibly cute so i saved it. heh heh heh. not easy using mouse to draw okies. plus i have no drawing talent. hahahahax!

the day when me and clara went to new york new york to eat. i think i mentioned it before. we ate it on 5th sept after studying at her house. sitting in a special booth. just the two of us. <3 HAHAX!

my girlfriend is a gumiho! a show i have been watching. it is a comedy-cum-tragedy-cum-romance drama. hahahax. it's funny yet sweet yet sad all at the same time. you have to watch it to find out. the actors and actresses in this show are super and i simply love the main leads. super cute. both the male and female leads' cheeks are super squishy. HAHAHAX! last two eps before it ends. :'( i need to get ready a few tissue boxes!

and lastly, a photo of my cute bb. hahahax! i dreamt of meeting him and chitchatting with him and hugging him last night. hehehe. must be cause clara told me about her dream of hugging dongjun and holding his hand. HAHAHAX! the lives of fangirls. HAHAHAX! being delusional.

SHINee's Life


this is a song from SHINee's latest album Lucifer, Life. incredibly beautiful lyrics are leaving me speechless. their wonderful vocals makes you want for more. if my bf sings this to me, i think i will die blissfully. but he has to mean what the lyrics is saying of course. ^^ if jonghyun sings it to me, die with no regrets kaes.

Friday, September 24, 2010

some updates since i think i wun be updating for the next few days hehehe.

21st september 2010
well got pulled out of the house my clara owyong mei leng and her craving for seoul garden tgthr with ahyi, hyrah and ade. hahahax. was reeking of the seoul garden smell after that okies. smelly like crazy. me and ade wore our new heels and we are freaking tall ppl heh heh. ahyi and ahleng refused to stand beside us. hyrah left after eating for her 'debate'. after eating and walking around and buying stuffs, we went to ahleng's hse for mahjong~ ahleng and ade learnt how to play, proudly taught by me and ahyi. wahahahahahax.

22nd september 2010
went to causeway and had lunch with clara, ahyi, hyrah and ade. clara's new cool iphone 4 apps wahh wahh. i took a photo with jonghyun okies. HAHAHAX! went to buy ingredients for our baking stuffs! i played with the trolley too much and it hit my heel and now i have a wound there. :(

headed over to hyrah's to bake. bake and bake. watched kim takgu for the first time. it wasnt the first eps but it was sad and i cried like crazy omg embarrassing okies. esp cause i only watched that show for like one eps!? but now i know why hyrah said she was curling on the chair and crying while she watched that eps on her mac. hahahax!

had pastamania delivery and gwy came and we went to hyrah's hse downstairs to play with sparklers weehee! had fun until one of hyrah's bro lost his wallet. :/ we followed the thieves and when i started running after them cause they were going out of sight, they ran too. chased them and eventually clara and hyrah they all found the thieves. hyrah's dad came down to interrogate the guys if they really did steal the wallet. okies ask is a more suitable word. we even called the police.

my dad who originally came down just to fetch me home ended up watching too. but he din interfere and him offering hyrah's dad a cigarette was cute hehe. my dad reached at the same time as one of the thieves' dad. they were teenage boys. hyrah explained the whole situation to the dad. (Y) the dad pulled the guys home and gwy's dad joined us, complaining that we shouldn't let the thieves off.

the police arrived and hyrah's dad explained to them while hyrah brought us to her house to get our belongings and head home as it was quite late already. my dad sent my friends home. (Y) after sending ade, me him clara and ahyi went to have supper. HAHAX! it was cool okies. a totally random supper. but actually only my dad ate while the three of us just drank. hahahax. he sent ahyi and clara and me home after that. :D love my dad wahahahax.

for a more detailed story, you can read here or ade's blog which is linked on your left. hahahax.



btw i did a 10 days challenge thingy on tumblr and here is the first day one. :) you might be one of those i mentioned! HAHAHAX!!
Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.

Tuesday, September 21, 2010

severe lack of slp. :(

hello it's been one thousand years since i last properly updated. HAHAHAX! i need to start from like 7th september!? and it's like 20th september today!? omg. okies let me recount ah.


7th september 2010
went to clara's to study again. it was like studying everyday during that period omg. (i am checking the msn conver history between me and clara to rmb wad happened hahahax. arent you honoured!?) went home to eat the dinner that jiamin and friends cooked. we were still mum-less at that time. T.T


8th september 2010
woke up early to study CEM and went for CEM test. cant rmb how i felt then. but most probably flunked it hahahahahax. almost wanted to send the CEM notes to prooflabel after the paper to teach them more about events management hahahax! but in the end i just threw the notes away. went home after that since after CEM it was so late already T.T and we still had pmkt the next day omg dying.


9th september 2010
barely had enough slp due to slping late and waking up early to study pmkt. we all went crazy at night and started talking nonsensical stuffs being too tired studying and slping late hahahax. had pmkt test and i never want to face it anymore. byebye pmkt i will never miss you. hahahax.


after the paper we weren't spazzing about the new invention of pmkt terms and how we are going to flunk the test but instead me hyrah and clara were spazzing about ze:a showcase. cause both clara's sis and adeline won the sms contest thingy for ze:a showcase which means there are FOUR tickets and me clara hyrah and hyrah's sis are all going. HAHAHAX.


refused to head home after exams cause HEYYY IT'S THE LAST PAPER WE ARE SUPPOSED TO PARTAYEEE AFTER THAT! so went over MBS the noah's ark woohoo. had to cross the helix bridge first of course and we went to one of the four platforms there to take jumpshots. it was scary you dun even know. cause everytime we jumped, the platform will be shaking. carol showed us the few glass holes which means that you can actually see the sea below. O.O WAHH. and it was only then that i find out that the helix bridge is actually designed according to the DNA thingy. hahahax.


walked around and we went to see the casino. O.O wow. the scene just wowed us. we din go into the casino but went to the level where we can look at the inside of the casino. the security cameras on the ceiling are like little kaka/bugs/insects okies. freaking scary. and there are like alot. we saw only a small area and there were like 50 security cameras!? imagine the number of security cameras in the WHOLE casino. no wonder they charge singaporeans each 100bucks to go into the casino once. they need to breakeven the security camera cost. HAHAHAX!


went to the big whirlpool thingy too. i threw a coin in it as well. everyone saw my coin except for me. :( i cant seem to find it after throwing it. and i also forgot to make a wish. T.T bused home after everything. and it was short outing since our paper ended late. :( no pictures cause i dun like my camera cause the pictures i take using it kind of suck. :/ new camera please. hahahax.


10th september 2010
went over to sunset way to meet cheryl, leon, leon jordan and darren and went over to leon jordan's godmum's hse to chill and slack. supposed to be celebrating darren's bday though no cake or wad. hahahax. weifeng and bertrand joined us after that. lunch and chitchats. :):) until evening and we left the house. weifeng left to meet her friends while i left to be a mum to my two sisters while the rest of them went to orchard for movies.. :( cause the floor wasn't sweeped/mopped and the clothes aren't washed. T.T sad life ah. couldnt rest properly. :(


11th september 2010
woke up early (okies still late. din wake up until clara called me hahahahax!) and went to causeway to meet clara. went to buy the ze:a albums which we need to go for the showcase cum handshake session. hyrah and hyrah's sis came to look for us (they were later HAHAX!) and after they bought their albums, we went off to suntec where the showcase is held!


ade came to meet us too. just in case. and luckily she did cause we need the ICs to verify our identities as the winners of the showcase tickets. apparently there are not only two winners (we tot we were so lucky that the two winners are ade and clara's sis) as so we tot and as written on u-weekly. there were like 29873492364 winners but still there weren't much people who actually BOUGHT the tix and the winners actually made up like half or more than half of the number of people there. there were like less than 1000ppl there for the showcase okies.


went in for the showcase and handshake session and i have to say they all look gorgeous. esp minwoo and junyoung. HAHAHAX. minwoo has such squishy cheeks lahh omg. was stunned by junyoung's gorgeousness when we went up the stage for the handshake session. i have to say he looks quite different upclose. hahahax. the boys were really cute and their fanservice was good like crazy. :):) din regret going though before that i barely knew their names. hahahahax!


12th september 2010
went to bpp to meet my girls to buy materials and print photos for xueli and carol's scrapbooks aka farewell presents. left after buying all the things and printing all the photos and went home while the rest went to ade's. then headed to the airport with papa and my two sis to go fetch mummy back from taiwan! ^^ met all the families there since alot of them went to fetch my uncle/aunties too. hahahax! like a family gathering but for a short while as we all headed home after the fetching thing.


13th september 2010
jogged in the morning. then went to sch to meet leon, weifeng, bertrand and cheryl to do EP and sylvia's farewell video as they go for their internship. then went over to ade's hse to do the scrapbook. they did the cover until very nicely! ^^ went to eat the farewell dinner with carol and took lots of photos. after the dinner we went back to ade's hse (without carol of course) and did the scrapbook until like in the wee hours in the morning. crazy okies. but papa came to fetch us. yayy. i love my dad. he sent ahyi and hyrah and clara home first. and he waited until they were out of sight before he left. :D:D my papa the best weehee! ^^


14th september 2010
went to sbw shopping centre to have our farewell meal with xueli. after the lunch went to clara's (without xueli!) to continue doing the scrapbook thingy and everyone was filling in their personal msges for xueli and carol. feel sad. :( did the photos and everything too. :( tried to fill up the blank spaces with the stickers and random drawings. hahahahx!


15th september 2010
woke up early in the morning to go send off xueli and carol. gave them our presents and they were looking through before they went into the departure gate. took photos and polaroids too. :( me and ahyi sat on the other side abit further away from the rest cause we were scared that we will be too sad. mel came to join us in case we really cried.


then slowly, i started crying then ahyi too. then carol who is reading the scrapbook on the other side started crying too. hyrah started crying then they were scolding carol and hyrah for crying when hyrah pointed at me and ahyi who were crying un-noticeably. hahahax! then in the end everyone started crying except for a few? hugs were exchanged and it made me cry even more. eventually they left. :(


hyrah and ade came to my hse to slack awhile while i packed my bamazing camp bag. went off to raffles to meet gwy and her friend amanda and hyrah's friend ain came to join us and we went for the job interview. it was more like a job briefing actually. went to sch for bamazing after that.


16th to 17th september
had bamazing. bonded like crazy with society peeps. :D love them so very much okies. was very tiring throughout the whole thing but yay it was all over. SCOs were more bonded and we even bonded with the MCs too! ^^ and the birthday celebration our 'S.H.E' did for weifeng, yeekhang and darren was super good! HAHAHAX! a fan of 'S.H.E' now! their dance is super cute!


ohhh and weifeng helped me to take out my earrings already. haven took it out since i pierced it. yes super dirty i know but i couldnt pull it out. :( not on purpose.. i din feel any pain when she took it out and i went to wash it immediately. yayy love wo men jia weifeng! :D


18th to 19th september
work and work. almost lost my way when i first went there. HAHAX! luckily the bus stops weren't too far and i could still walk back. :D work was fun in a way. tiring yes. but fun cause of the ppl there. we all kept trying the shoes secretly behind our counters. and laughing at one another. i really like the ppl there. all of them are so friendly and we talk like we are close friends since forever. hahahax. laughed like crazy with them too! ^^


met new cute friends like nellie and chelsea and made friends with gwy and hyrah's friends amanda and ain too! ^^ they are all lovely ppl. though i din get their contacts and everything but still very happy to know them and chit chat with them. me and amanda were in charge of the same counter and the both of us do the craziest things. hahahax! and we took turns to hide under the table with the cloth covering us to slp. HAHAHX. damn funny.


we took the price tags to write each other's names and the prices too. i got a price tag which says i cost only 2 cents. :( hahahax! was really happy about this job other than the time where the stack of shoeboxes fell on me and the customer who was standing behind felt sorry for me. T.T our shoeboxes have to be stacked up really high. too bad this job only lasted for two days. :(


today is a boring day since i stayed at home the whole day but i finally got some rest and some slp since i had like severe lack of slp with the slping late and waking up early for the past two weeks!? :( damn kelian. okies no pics cause they are either with other ppl or i din take or i am just lazy to upload. okies i DO have pics but maybe tml? this update took me hours to type. HAHAHAX! okies byebye ppl i am going back to tumbling! ^^

Monday, September 20, 2010

UPDATE NOW THEN :D:D

okies going to update alreadyyy. hahahax. you are my loyal reader huh!? HAHAHAHAX!

hello! what do you want to say?

Friday, September 17, 2010

UPDATE D:

:/ i am having a camp now.. no time ah. :/

hello! what do you want to say?

Thursday, September 09, 2010

Wednesday, September 08, 2010

hey friends.

i feel so disappointed i feel so sad. argh. so many stuffs inside me you dun even know. what have you become, my bestest friends? do you even know me anymore? do i even know you anymore? why is this happening? the future we talked of, the future where we will still be in each other's lives. i can slowly feel that everything is changing. is it cause of me? we were happier in the past. right? when we were all generally happier. we hung out so much tgthr. but slowly, as we have our own things to do and be busy with, are we slowly forgetting about each other? i miss you so much. i feel like so much stuff is stuffed within me. i feel like crying. okies fine i am already crying. perhaps you will think/feel that jiale is such a crybaby and since she cries so much, her tears aren't worth anything. but.. i dunoe. argh. freak all these. as i am growing up, the world i am in is changing so often  and becoming more and more complicated. i dun want to be involved in all these complications. if you want me to stay in your life, can you say hi to me more often? because i am such a coward that i dun dare to say hi. just a simple hi will do. and i will try my best to help you continue the conversation. :/ because you dunoe how much you mean to me.

Tuesday, September 07, 2010

How come late! Haha I wMt iPhone 4 too

how come late? O.O wad you mean? hahahax. i getting my iphone 4 on nov heh heh heh. who are you btw? HAHAHAX!

hhahaaha yay (L)(L) :D

:D:D:D!!

hello! what do you want to say?

idk, YOURS? HAHHAHA. YOU NEVER ANSWER MY PMKT QN LEH. I forgot what I ask you alr ._.

OHHH! i tml ans youuu. i lazy go check. heh heh. very tired and going to bed already. T.T you slp early. i will msg you in the morning kaes. (L)

hello! what do you want to say?

some things are meant to end.

hello all. :) :( having a mix of emotions now. heh heh. so :) :(


so like i said on saturday we went to jiejie's birthday celebration and we went late hahahax. FREAKING LATE. we were supposed to reach at 6pm but in the end we reached at 8pm. -_- retardedness. papa and mummy lahh. :/ but in the end it just felt like a family gathering just that we were sitting at a different place. hahahax. jiejie was busy hosting us and her friends and running about trying to settle everything. after the dinner, singing of birthday song, eating of birthday cake, and some chitchats about my dad's iphone 4 and other random stuffs, we went home~ :)


went to clara's to study on sunday and lalala we did all sorts of things. okies firstly, i was slping. hahahahahax. before starting on CEM while clara was using my PMKT textbook. then we used clara's com and we downloaded the shinee desktop buddy which was freaking cool. hahahax. but her jonghyun and onew desktop buddies couldnt work. :/


went to sbw shopping centre new york new york to eat the meat platter. MMMM ALL MEAT DAMN NICE hahahahahahax. okies there was coleslaw too but yar i am refusing to touch any veggie. :{ have been craving for meat all the time ever since i started watching 'My Girlfriend Is A Gumiho'. it is a freaking nice kdrama. ^^ went home and tried the shinee desktop buddies and yayy figured out how to do onew and jonghyun desktop buddies and told clara and hers worked too! :D:D they are freaking cute.


today woke up and printed CEM notes while studying. did hsework like watering the plants, mopping and sweeping the floor. it was freaking tiring and i was sweating like a pig okies. left to meet myrna lam at my hse downstairs and went to mrt stn to meet shaun and jervis and we went to plaza sing to watch Grown Ups. kinda nice. funny and sweet at the same time. i like. :D the family part is sweet. got a meaning behind the show. at first i still tot that there is no meaning in this show. hahahax.


went back to khatib and ate and chitchat. :D:D love how our friendships last so very long. was thinking of organising a pri sch outing as in REALLY meet up with all pri sch friends but they were saying like abit no point. :/ i suppose too. since all of us actually stay quite near to each other but yet we are not meeting. :/ sian sian. okies on a happier note i actually downloaded the junseob desktop buddies too OMG OMG they are freaking cute. some screenshots taken today and ytd. heh heh heh.


see shinee crawling around my screen HAHAHAX!

omg you see jonghyuns grabbing clara's conver window HAHAHAX!

ahh you see onew crawling! super cute!

okies those above are taken ytd and these below are taken just now! :D:D
ahh you see junhyung piggybacking yoseob climbing up clara's conver!!

i was blogging halfway when jonghyun started crawling cutely OMG i cant take this cuteness. he is so freaking cute even in fanarts seriously jonghyun. wahahahahahax.

and junseob started crawling too. LOOK AT THAT BLONDE PINK BOW. i dun even know who is that seriously. and i can only say. clara and me are crazy over these desktop buddies. :D



there is an end to everything. okies maybe it will continue to live in my heart, but it wun exist anymore in this real world. but at least i know i can still proudly say you were my friend. :) really PROUDLY. i will start to stop. :( i just dun want to act anymore. i dun want to pretend to be okies anymore. i am sorry for this selfishness. it's just me. just my fault. i never felt belonged. maybe a few times. but perhaps i was never meant to belong anyhow.