HAPPY ME

yes, i am really significantly happier, more carefree and everything the past few days! :D
happy girl is me!
despite me having pms at the same time hahahaha.
went to gardens by the bay for the first time on sat and i will post the pictures up here soon i guess. hehe. just wait okay. i know it's been super long since i last posted pictures hehe.

and i'm just here and wanna talk about my amazement at how people can understand each other so well that they know what the other party is thinking just by looking at their little actions.
it's like how i merely tip-toed a few times discretely and tay knows that i need to pee HAHA.
and when eating i just need to give him a look and he will know that i am full or i dun like the food or i'm having some probs w it - like when it's too spicy or hot.
okay i'm having really random thoughts tonight.

yet again, sometimes i think people should not be defined by what their actions, esp those in the past, because this actually kind of restricts everyone in being who they really wanna be.
it's like people really DO try to live up to others' expectations, even the bad ones.
for example, my parents see me as a bad-tempered kid, which i admit i am hahaha, but it's like when i want to change and try to improve my temper, the way they treat me is like i am bad-tempered so i somehow or rather acted that way too, if you get what i am trying to say haha.
i think there is no absolute as to who you are.
nobody can be defined as everything and everyone is changing all the time.
i once wrote here that i am a being of contradictions.
i am cheerful yet grim, optimistic yet pessimistic, childish yet mature, easily contented yet easily discontented, easy-going yet picky, and the list goes on....
you see, everyone is a mixture of everything, and whoever you are depends on the situations, how you react may even differ in the same situations if it occurs at different times.
so don't define me, because i am going to change, and of course i wanna change to become a better person!
don't be restricted as to who you want to be, because there are endless impossibilities as to who you can be. be anyone you want! from a mermaid to a multi-billionaire!
but the one most important underlying condition is, have faith in yourself :)


having faith seems to be something that is increasingly difficult to achieve.
many people don't really have faith, more so in humanity.
i feel kind of sad, to see that though :/
people always laugh at me for being gullible, or some scolded me for like donating for fear of getting cheated by them.
but what if they really needed our help?
on the other hand, i feel ironic about those people who have no faith in humanity and yet are complaining about it.
well, if you complain, then i guess you are the one who should make some effort and do something about it.
we are all part of what that makes up humanity right? since we are part of that, then we should be able to make a change.
it's a cycle.
you have no faith in humanity, you dun believe in it, you act in a negative way, humanity dwindles in a downward spiral and then you have even less faith in it.
what an evil cycle.
i say, let us all play our part to make this cycle a good and pure one! ^^
hehehe.


okay another big jump from this topic, the sandy hook incident :(
i got really upset about this incident because of the lovely children and school personnel who got involved and victimised.
idk what to say, but can only pray w good wishes for their families.
may their souls rest well.

i'm feeling so much more happier today :)
thank you my beloved and all the people who made me happy this weekend. hehe.
i really truly enjoyed this weekend and now it's time for me to work hard to compensate it for abit hehe.
i'm prepared for a day of sleepiness tml with me probably sleeping minimally tonight, trying to rush out my assignment which i kind of have no idea what i am writing. D:
jiayou jiale! because you can do it when you put all your heart to it.
okay tata my people, cause i'm off to complete my assignment! ^^ lubs.

there is a really really weird feeling inside of me :/
i dun really know how to describe it.
i guess i feel kind of lost now.
i guess i need to now sit down and think thoroughly about what i want in life so i can properly focus on whatever i am supposed to do now.
there are a lot of things which i feel that i can only do in the future, but then again, is that really so?
i kind of wanna build a family now, build a career now.
i wanna have my own room, my own house, my own everything.
that's kind of retarded, right? as people around me would start telling me all the practical and material things that i will need.
but then again, i have me, the most important person in my life, whom i believe can do so many things.
is it okay for me to be irrational? why not? why do people have to make rational decisions all the time?
i don't get it. what if going along with the irrational choice makes me happier?
or maybe now what i am just trying to do is just to try my very best to describe whatever i am feeling now, so i can acknowledge it, and understand myself better, and then let go.
how do i describe this?
it's like i am afraid of the future and yet looking forward to it at the same time.
and i guess i am not the only person who feel or ever felt this way hahaha.
sometimes i feel kind of mundane, living like this, but yet again i am the one who is causing these mundaneness.
i think i want someone to help discipline me. okay probably not 'want' but rather 'need'.
i need someone to follow through my plans together with me so i can really complete it.
procrastination is really getting the worst of me.
it is such an evil thing, eating me/us from inside out.
we need to fight it, even though we are enjoying it at the same time. this is bad.
lee jia le, i remember that day when you told yourself that you are not going to waste any more time of your life.
no, you are not wasting time, you are wasting your life, do you remember that?
or do you need something inspirational to happen to your life again so you can get up and put yourself back together?
get rid of that laziness, that procrastination, that moping around and uselessness.
do you want to be a blob of nothingness?
do you want to be a parasite that is just sucking blood/money/food or whatever and does not contribute?
are you forgetting something?
are you forgetting that once strong desire of yours to do really well and wanting to do something for this family?
please please please remember that in order to support your family, you need that A, you need all the distinctions you can get, and in order to do that, you have to concentrate, you have to focus, you have to stop being a pile of wastes.
okay now can you do it?
be fierce, be strict.
GO AND DO IT AND YOU BETTER DO IT OR ELSE I WILL NEVER FORGIVE YOU AND THIS WILL BE A REGRET WHICH YOU CANNOT COMPENSATE NO MATTER WHAT YOU DO OKAY.

i need to sprinkle some fairy dust all over myself so that my wish to be more disciplined can come true.
but wait, probably it's just me, it's just me that is not taking control enough.
i give myself too many excuses, too much time, and too much allowances.
be strict, stick to the rules you set yourself, and this sickening feeling in the stomach will definitely stay away.

suckertay,

this is the first time in a damn long time since you actually called me on the phone to talk you heartless person.
:') i'm glad you still remember my existence hahahahaha.
good luck and jiayou for your test!!!!
i believe you can do it so you must believe in it too my dearest.

not the first time that i thought of moving away, and it will definitely not be the last either.
i wonder when will our family realise the definition of respect?
i can't say the things i do/say respect anyone in this family, because to be honest, i don't.
don't ask me why i am behaving this way, i was taught to, how else?

/shys

I am thankful that everytime i feel inferior about myself, i have tay who finds me beautiful and skinny w a great figure despite my red nose and fats everywhere on my body. Heh. /shys

negative, no, positive thoughts

everytime something negative enters my mind and bugs me, i try my very best to get rid of it by distracting myself.
i WILL control my mind and thoughts.
i WILL will myself to be the happiest person alive.
i WILL be happy and not let anyone else or anything affect my mood.
NOBODY can do so, not even me.
i will DEFEND my happiness and NO ONE takes it away from me.
OKAY SMILE, and feel that happiness coming from within you.
dk what to think of?
look at how you are alive now, how you are breathing in fresh air, how you are enjoying the wind from the fan, how you are typing these with your own hands and how you are seeing these words on the screen.
that's already more than what you can wish for.
don't you already feel so so so thankful? :)
there, i love that smile on you.
yay! i am happy once again! :D

being happy is easy, you just need to remind yourself the little things around you.

and i saw this video coincidentally while listening to my 'dumb ways to die' vid keke this little boy is so cuteeee look at him shaking his bootie at the end hahaha.

i..

i love new love.
i love seeing people falling in love.
i love seeing people around me being in love.
i love love that matured over time even more.
i love the love that i belong in.
i love the person i'm in love with.
i love everything about us, from the biggest fights to the tiniest squabbles.
i love how i feel when i'm with you.
i love you. ♥

stating this on a random day yet not, for it's our 657th day and counting...

love me? or hate me?

okay i was bathing and you know how ideas just pop out in your head while you are all relaxed while bathing?
yea and i got this idea of asking people to tell me one thing that you love about me, and one thing that you hate about me.
okay i would very much prefer you tell me what's the one thing you hate about me FIRST, before telling me what you love about me, so i can get cheered up almost immediately after feeling sad HAHAHA.
all you need to do is to leave a comment belowwww!!!!
if nobody comments about anything i guess i am just another foreveralone kid lolol.
can leave anonymous if you are planning to write something super hurting to me but is too paiseh to spoil the r/s we have w each other~

basically i do know where my weaknesses are and less so about my strengths, and i just wanna see if there are parts of me which people find it intolerable or lovable.

i'm on a project to create the most beautiful me and i hope you can be a part of it! lolol.
love you all people muaks muaks!

i'm proud to say that after almost two years, you are still able to put that kind of smile on my face.
hehe you are loved. less than 3!

and i only realised it when clara kept scolding me to stop arm-chio-ing the whole day ytd hahahaha.

i'm in control.

i feel so much happier today.

i guess probably cause i tidied up my study table and though it can look better if i decorate it a little but so far i am quite satisfied with it heh.

gonna do some crafts and put around it i guess :) just to beautify things a little more :D

i feel so much in control of my life.

and yes, i am once again the master of my life :D

i stopped feeling 'I am doing this cause I am expected to do so' anymore and i only realised i was feeling this way until i stopped feeling it.

this is a great feeling, really.

i am in control. i am gonna control. i feel so damn good. hohohoho.

i feel more on track, more like i am living life, and not that lost and aimless.

so doing nothing actually gives me more focus in life hahahaha.

okay no focusing on doing one thing at a time is really helping.

i am no longer distracted and i hope this is going to last.

jiayou jiale jiayou you :)

sometimes, just sometimes, i feel that i might still be loving the idea of you.
yes, not you, but the idea of you.
cause the current you is too far for me to understand, and now the idea of you just seem so impossible yet possible at the same time.
i rmb that once, when i thought i saw you walking towards me, i panicked and almost felt guilty cause i was holding someone else's hand.
it was such a knee-jerk reaction that even i shocked myself.
it's stupid i know, esp when that someone is my boyf.
but i can't forget that feeling which makes me wonder a little sometimes.
am i being delusional about how i feel now?
i really hope not.
things aren't as complicated as i often think they are.
i should stop overcomplicating things and concentrate on enjoying the people and things i have now.
probably it's just the emo songs which are getting into my head... or else, i don't know anymore..
probably i never got over that r/s, and i never will.
the memories we shared will just be there to remind me that we are happy once, and that's enough.
don't get me wrong, it's not that i'm wishing that we are back together, but more of us being able to shake hands and smile genuinely at each other.
i guess i need a closure.
and stop feeling that i am somehow being left hanging there by you.

Dumb Ways to Die

Currently my favourite vid and song hehehe.
it's accompanying me all day long as i study hard (L) love it so very much!
it's by the melbourne metro to remind commuters to be careful and safe around trains, i.e. their safety campaign!!
super creative and cute i love it!! even the lyrics are cute! and the melody is so catchy omggg!
lyrics below interpreted by myself hehh.


Lyrics:
Set fire to your hair,
Poke a stick at a grizzly bear,
Eating medicine that's out of date,
Use your private parts as piranha bait~

Dumb ways to die, 
So many dumb ways to die,
Dumb ways to die-ie-ie,
So many dumb ways to die~

Get your toast out with a fork,
Do your own electrical work,
Teach yourself how to fly,
Eat a two week old unrefrigerated pie~


Dumb ways to die, 
So many dumb ways to die,
Dumb ways to die-ie-ie,
So many dumb ways to die~

Invite a psycho killer inside,
Scratch your drug dealer's brand new ride,
Take your helmet off in outer space,
Use a clothes dryer as a hiding place~


Dumb ways to die, 
So many dumb ways to die,
Dumb ways to die-ie-ie,
So many dumb ways to die~

Keep a rattlesnake as a pet,
Sold both your kidneys on the internet,
Eat a tube of superglue,
I wonder, what's this red button do?


Dumb ways to die, 
So many dumb ways to die,
Dumb ways to die-ie-ie-ie,
So many dumb ways to die~

Dress up like a moose during hunting season,
Disturb a nest of wasps for no good reason,
Stand on the edge of a train station platform,
Drive around the boom gates at a level crossing,
Run across the tracks between the platforms,
they may not rhyme but they're quite possibly,

the dumbest ways to die,
the dumbest ways to die,
the dumbest ways to die-ie-ie-ie~
so many dumb,
so many dumb ways to die~

HAPPY 1 3/4 YEAR!!!

WOOOOOHOOOOOOOO!!!

MR TAY YIN JI!!!

HAPPY 1 3/4 YEAR TO YOU AND MEEEE!!!

WE ARE 8 YEARS AWAY FROM HARRY POTTER'S PLATFORM 9 3/4!!!! (okay lame -_-)

i dun have any pictures of us cause they are all inside my laptop which is currently with you :(

so i can only post a picture of me and captain later which signifies how happy we both are and thanks for tolerating my bad habits and constant bullying and teasing and forever loving me all the same.

thanks for being worried that i will feel unloved and preempting me that you will be busy and reassuring me anyhow and tell me about how you won't have time to accompany me much but still come over to find me all the same.

thanks for all your time for me and all your love and all your understanding and how you will always be cool with no matter what i do and how ridiculous me and my ideas get and still go along with it.

thanks for being the one who will hold me down if i get too wild, remind me of the things i should do and should not do and even if i insisted on going on the wrong way and come back crying to you you will still be there to hug me and pat my head to let me know everything is still alright.

thank you for being my boyfriend, my girlfriend, my best friend, my parent, my brother, my everything.

thank you for all the roles you have to play to deal with me.

thank you for being everything that i want and need and yet you are everything more.

i love you.

MAJOR CRAVING

NOW I HAVE THIS MAJOR CRAVING FOR THIS:

OMG it's really the best best best ice cream/gelato (or whatever you call it) i have ever eaten.

this is like their first outlet which is located at star vista at buona vista and it's really sad to see their shop quite empty because the traffic there isn't really alot in the first place.

i first and last went there a few weeks back and i'm definitely returning in the near future due to this major craving of mine hahahahaha.

it's simply the best. no other ice cream or gelato can ever beat it. there are still SO MUCH flavours of theirs i wanna try.

:')

as you can probably see from the cup, the name of the shop includes the word 'pinocchio'!

i tried looking up for the original name and here it is:

GELATERIA PINOCCHIO

the unit number is #01-47/48!!!!

you will have to go down one storey if you take the escalator up to Star Vista from the MRT station!

you can see the star vista from the mrt platform so dun worry about losing your way!!

if you scared ah, here is the mall's website complete with it's picture: The Star Vista

i know everybody now got smartphone can access 3g or even LTE so you can check okay!

HEHEHE please show it as much love as i do!!!

though i know location might be far for most of us but i scared their business cannot make it then they close down :(

i will not be able to take it cause i think this is their first venture into asia... their other shops are like in spain and france omg i cant fly there anytime i want as compared to flying to buona vista.

but dun have to intro to too many people okay. i dun want too long a queue either hahahahaha.

TAY YIN JI IF YOU SEE THIS LET'S GO BACK THERE ASAPPPP!!

omg

just blocked this colleague from twitter because he is being far too weird and i dun want him to stalk my twitter anymore and making me feel so awkward to post it knowing that he is stalking it -_-

he needs to stop asking me weird qns like 'i will still be seeing you right? :)'
THAT SMILEY EMOTICON MAKES IT SOOOOOOO CREEPY OKAY. LIKE TIMES A MILLION TIMES.
and i am not the only girl he treats this way to.
he may think it's gentlemanly or whatever, but to us it's just plain disgusting hahahahaha.

okay GOOD JOB FOR ME FOR BLOCKING HIM!! (Y)
WAY TO GO JIALE!

TIME

i really need ALOT ALOT ALOT more time.
can i have like 48 hours a day?
so that i can one full day to slack around and one full day to study hahahaha.
but basically i spent most of my weekend sleeping -_-
seriously lee jia le you have been sleeping a little too much eh!?!?

i flipped through the photos taken when me and tay travelled to bkk in aug.
OMGGG i miss bkk.
not that i wanna shop or what. but just being in a different country, the feeling of not having to care about anything, just buying whatever i wanna have/eat. hahaha damn shiok ah!
okay i shall blog about our bkk trip soon soon soon!!

Two After Noon

This is one of Wongfu Productions' videos - Two After Noon.
It may seem random and not make any sense to you.
But after reading the director's commentary by Wes, I am deeply attracted to the idea which gave birth to this video.

ENJOY!




If you don't really get this video, you can read the text in the description box below the video in the Youtube page.

Something that I have taken out of the text below:

"There are no real beginnings and endings; instead, everything is continuous and ongoing. There are so many things in our lives that are indefinite."

This quote really make me feel so hopeful about life.
It's like no matter what happens, it's not the end.
At the same time, it makes me feel so insignificant, it's like, the earth's rotation will not stop, time will not stop, for anyone or anything at all.

Thank you, Wes, for this amazing quote which gives me another whole perspective to life.

I am no longer afraid of what life might bring to me, even death, because it will not be an end, but just another phase/form of life.

posted this in my google+ but just wanna share this w the ppl here too.

this is really my only sanctuary other than my blog, somewhere where i can post stuffs that i feel like sharing but yet annoying people aren't stalking out my stuffs and asking me about it.

it's like yea good that you realise that it's you i'm talking about but that meant that you should stop talking to me cause any clarification you try to do thereafter while trying hard to not show that you have read whatever i have posted anywhere just makes you even more guilty conscious.

you then seem like you are trying to explain and give an excuse to yourself why you are behaving in such a way instead of explaining to me, right? -_-

i wanna lie in a bathtub with a mug of Starbucks toffee nut latte and a good book.

it's okay even if it's a dry bathtub.

and so,

my sprained ankle has not recovered yet -_-
i tot it would recover by tml and i was alr planning to go work but it still hurts. :/
told xueli i might recover tml and she was like 'today still pain you think tml you will sdnly wake up with it feeling okay??' which is like okay true.
walking more normally and up the stairs is fine for me now though i still limp a little and going down the stairs is still a big nono for me.
thank god i see some improvement in the recovery :')

recently i started thinking a lot.
thinking of how i am juggling my work and studies, and both needs a great amt of my commitment, and this is proving to be rather difficult.
i can't concentrate and focus on either.
sometimes i feel so tired i would just sleep in school, and at work, i can barely smile.
it's not that i am unhappy.
it's just that.. ah it's so hard to put these in words.

i really love this job.
i love the people in it.
i love how we play and work hard tgthr at the same time.
but recently, with the lack of being in the office and everything, it's getting hard to catch up.
i can't really commit as much as others do :/ and gradually i just feel lost...
even though i am the one who wanted to work and study at the same time, study is still my priority.
it's a great job, which allows you to develop and learn as much as you want to and you even receive lots of help while doing so, but, and there is always the buts, this job requires you to put in extra time and effort to make it work, which i am unable to.
i have a bad time mgmt, i admit, and i just can't cope.
and i feel like i have not a big enough ambition and desire to continue on.
yes, i want to provide for my family, but what's the point of earning lots of money when i don't have enough time to spend with them?
what's the point of earning so much money and i don't even have the time to spend it?
yes, they say to run hard now so you can enjoy the fruits of your labour in the future, but i can't do that now.
how do i progress in my career when i have my studies to take care of?
i can't run hard at my career and studies at the same time.
they are like two paths taking me to opposite directions.
how do i run towards two different directions at the same time?
it's just this dilemma that i have inside of my head.
it's this struggle that i am dealing with inside of me.
friends who see me struggle are advising me to quit and focus on my studies for the time being, and i know i should focus on that as my priority too.
but somehow it's like i'm kind of reluctant to let go of the job which i enjoy so much though i can no longer commit to it as much as i want to.

i should do things as i want right?
i should do things which make me happy right?
i am not exactly happy now.
where did the stubborn girl who insisted to quit the great eastern admin job two days earlier than agreed upon even though it's just two days go to?
where did the strong-headed girl who asked clara to quit when she complained about not being happy go to?
where did the girl who always insisted on only doing things which make herself happy go to?
it's time to find her back i suppose.

writing my own future.

Suddenly there is this idea which popped up into my head while I was trying to study and I now have an impromptu decision to write my own future every now and then.

Yes, by that I mean literally write my future here, in my blog.

By the end of this year, I will have consistent sales, so consistent that people are gonna come up to me and ask me how I do it. :) and my answer will always be, 'I am not too sure myself too, I just go down field and not think and just whack it.'

Next year in May, when I enter my exam hall in Expo to take my papers, I will come out with a big grin on my face and the thought, 'This is SOOOO much easier than I thought it would be!?' would be floating in my head.

Next August, I will be going on my first ever Taiwan trip WOOHOO and I will be staying in at different hostels every other day because I will be travelling to many parts of Taiwan and really immerse myself in their culture and delicioso food~~

Okay this is how far I have written and I shall go back to my books and come back again~~

till then! tata!

Result of Boredom

i made captain do a dance cover lololol.
i was just being bored over from studying but omg captain is so freaking cuteeeeee.
maybe it's just that 'beauty is in the eyes of the beholder' but i dun careeee.
hehehehehe enjoy my captain's dance though his dance moves dun really make sense cause of his short arms hahahahaha.

wongfu productions!

YAY!

currently one of my favourite youtubers other than the already very popular ryan higa (nigahiga) and kevin wu (kevjumba) hehehe.

love all the three guys, wes ted and phil, who make up wongfu productions!!!



i mean i have been watching their vids and everything and is sad that i din actually go to their event during their tour when they came over to sg but for the past week, i have been really addicted to their vids esp wongfu weekends aka wfw and i kept catching up with their past vids hahahaha.

sigh talented people like them.

and looking at their streets really make me feel super determined to go LA and just stay there~
i even asked my mum what if i migrated to LA and she said it would be cool and she would come over to stay with me for a few months every year. like it would be good for a change but she will still come back since all the rest of our relatives and friends are still here hahahaha.
AHH i really wanna migrate there.
lee jia le, let's save some money yo!!!

and it's like there is no high rise buildings there at all, everywhere is just on the ground. 

there are no shopping malls either. all the shops are like a standalone. O.O which definitely sounds cool when you are staying in singapore~~~

okay this is just like a random blogpost where i just wanna express my love for them lolol but yeaaaa i wanna buy all their clothes and plushies they have in their shop areyouaniceguy and sadly i am not rich. D:

shall slowly save up them! hahaha i must save up alot of money by the end of this year!! i will!! :D:D:D

okay i REALLY need to go back to studying and hope my ankle recovers like ASAP walao cant wait to regain my mobility!!!!!

random thoughts.

it's important to treat your special someone better than you treat anyone else, and it's equally important to treat that special someone better than anyone else does to him/her.

sometimes i wonder, what's the point of loving someone your own way (even though it's really your special own way) when he/she doesn't really get it that it's your way of loving and caring for someone?


too many directions that my thoughts can take but they should really stop branching out if it's going on the negative ways.
going back to the simple.
that's how life should be.
everything is just that simple, stop thinking complicated.
it's your life, so don't let others affect you and your mood.
you decide everything that's in your life.
you decide your thoughts that will eventually form your future.
negative thoughts lead to negative incidents.
positive ones will create positive surprises.

smile, and somehow you will naturally be happier.
even though it's just a fake smile you are putting on at the start, it will become genuine with all the chemical substance your brain releases when you smile hahaha.

sprained ankle

as many of you know, i am currently nursing a sprained ankle..
it's my second time spraining my ankle (first time when i was 15) and i cant even rmb which ankle i sprained before so idk if i hurt an originally bad ankle. D:

even though having a sprained ankle hurts really badly, but it really gives me time to rest and think, and obviously to study for my upcoming test on thur.
and in addition, it provided me with lots of care and concern and pampering from all the people around me teehee.
for instance, tay came to fetch me home despite having to study after knowing i sprained my ankle on my way to work. :')
idk if he couldnt take how slow i walk or if it really hurts him to see me limping, he carried me halfway back home from the bus stop. :') thank you my dearest.
he even had to carry me to the doc (which was in the CC next to my block) and back. :')
here is my newfound love for you hehehe. (L)(L)(L)

and my family members who just have to do everything for me since i became an invalid.
mum is like painting the walls in our house now and i couldn't help much like moving the furnitures around although i insisted on helping on the painting she wasn't very quite willing for me to stand with that bad ankle of mine. D:
and qiqi and jiamin literally had to help me get  everything  a lot of things cause i can't move much. (L)(L)(L)
no mention of my dad here cause he is away at vietnam so he din help me much hahahaha.

and of course, last but not least, the caring texts from my beloved friends and colleagues :*:* for you all hehehe.

it's kind of nice just dawdling around at home and catching up with everything for once. :)
of course i tried to do up my notes as well and now i need to get back to my studiesssss!!
jiayou jiale!
jiayou everyone!
i will see you guys soon! :*

ME AND MY BELOVED CAPTAIN! :D

ps: i bought my captain at mini toons and he iss like the middle-sized penguin they are selling there and leejiaqi's bday was ytd and her friends got her the big-sized penguin and now her penguin is whiter than mine (i haven washed captain for months D: swear i'm gonna do it soon), softer than mine (captain is just a little older so a little rougher esp after its first and only wash), and bigger than mine (which in a sense is more huggable though less portable) >:(

i guess i really need some time to sit down and really think hard about what i want, and how i am planning to achieve them, because somehow or rather, i am gradually realising that i am too tired to even feel much emotions anymore...

i probably just need a good long cry to wash away all the tiredness, both physically and mentally..

quote

“Ji Min-ah, you’re 16, right? When I was that age, I stayed alone in Japan without my family. I hated the fact that people kept telling me that I could do it and do it well simply because “you’re BoA”. There would often be times when I’d just start crying in my room, thinking about other groups. This song (‘You Raise Me Up’) helped me. There will be a time that you don’t like yourself, but you have to persevere.”

-Boa

omg. the last line that Boa said really gets to me.
it is like currently this IS the time when i don't like myself. but i guess i just have to persevere and find the me whom i like.

think of the kind of person you wanna become, and start behaving like how you think the person you wanna be will behave.
reminders reminders reminders. i need more reminders.

seriousness

i need to start facing life seriously.
i should probably stop running away from all the problems and keep thinking that it's okay to fail i can still try i am still young.
if i continue thinking like this, i would never progress.
lee jia le, do you really wanna live on being like this?
if you keep thinking everything's gonna happen in the future it will happen in the future then it will forever remain being in the future and will not ever be in the present.
you have to make this clear.
you need to start making actions and not giving yourself excuses anymore.
if you want a better life, you better do something about it.
improve yourself by hook or by crook.
don't say try.
try is no longer in your dictionary.
it's either do it or not.
be firm with yourself.
this is the only way for you to progress and not keep dwelling on the same old spot.
DO IT.

D: stupid stomach

well, i was suffering from this excruciating abdomen pain last night and even headed to ktp hosp for a checkup though we left before i actually saw the doc cause i was alr feeling better and we alr waited for one hour plus and the time was alr nearing midnight.

just through this simple matter, i see how much the people around me cared.
adeline called me twice to talk to me and tell me about her own experience hahaha and she could tell that i was dying from the pain by the way i sounded in our first phone call hahahaha and felt relieved after listening me at least be able to joke in the second phone call. (L)
clara and sebas and friends who tweeted me or even texted me to keep themselves updated about my condition and even continued to ask me about my poor old stomach today. (L)
tay who did not call nor text nor tweeted me and it made me feel unloved and uncared for but when it was nearing midnight he texted me if there are any updates if not he would just head to bed when i realised that the boy who would always sleep before 11pm and usually much earlier actually waited until such a late timing (to him it's very late lah hahaha) for me to contact him. (L)
colleagues who kept texting/whatsapping me to see if i'm alright etc etc. (L)
my parents who were there with me and kept seeing if i can be made better and kept touching my forehead though it's my stomach which is hurting and not my head and i'm not having a fever either hahahaha. (L)
i love everyone deep deep deeper than the seaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. :')

shoo shoo shooooo~

and it's already october. omg i really can't believe this hahahaha.

life is really passing real fast now and so fulfilling and i just don't have the time and energy to record everything down as much as i want to.

work has been great. school too.
though it's getting tough juggling both, it made me feel that i am trying my best to do/learn as much as i can.

from today onwards, i am gonna be a much confident person.
i am gonna believe more in myself and my capabilities.
i know i can do it. and i shall not be afraid anymore.
i shall not whine and complain anymore and just do it.
i am gonna excel in this and stand out more than anyone else.
i will.
i can.

being curious.

i realised that questioning about everything (even asking those really weird qns) isn't really wrong.
even if the questions seem like those that only kids ask (like the other time when i asked weijie where did the ice which dropped down through the tube, seemingly from the ceiling at the drinks stall at bpp's kopitiam, come from) aren't that silly.
it's okay to question about everything.
and i sometimes question myself as well, about why are there feelings.
we are made up of atoms and particles as well, so what gave us the ability and energy to think?
why are men men and women women?
and what if the colour pink that you see is the colour blue that i see just that i thought it was pink all along because of the way my brain perceives it.
and i wonder why the colour white usually represents purity and girl girly and blue calming?
isn't this all just in our mind?
we don't see things, we only perceive them in our mind?
okay this is becoming like mindfucking hahahaha.
i wonder about too many things and am curious about too many things too.
tralalalala i should probably get to sleep soooon.

just kind of sad that i didn't manage to do my socio homework as i planned to do so tonight.
on a happier note, i managed to finish writing my promotion script for work and complete the online registration for UOL, except the paying part.
I SO DID NOT KNOW THAT WE HAVE TO PAY AGAIN TO UOL!? DIN WE ALR PAID SIM!? D:
need to tell my parents this dejecting news :(

to my one and only.

hi my dearest (L)
i am sorry that i cried and i could feel that you were worried and feeling helpless.
i almost laughed despite my tears when i heard how worried you sounded when you asked me what's wrong.
i didn't cry because i felt exhausted or hurt or anything else.
like what i told you, i cried cause i was afraid that we wouldn't have much time together in the near future and drift apart.
but what you don't know is that a big part of the reason for my tears was that i feel that i couldn't be there for you as much as i want to. :/
i feel like i have been neglecting you, though you did not complain or whatsoever.
you probably wouldn't mind as well, hahaha i am probably the only person who minds.
whenever i think of you, i think of how lucky and fortunate i am to have you.
HAHA you are probably thinking 'you this lying bitch who always bullies me' but aiya, no matter how much i bully/tease/laugh at you i love you all the same okayyyy.
captain loves you too though he kind of represents my dark and evil side WAHAHAHAHAHA.
i would be quite busy in the future but i would still try my best to fork out time for you i promise.
time always flies whenever we are together and everytime after we part, i feel like we did not even meet at all.
the longings and everything sucks though it was just a few hours ago since we last met.
kind of stupid i know and i guess recently i just felt like i had too little time to do anything else.
there are a lot of things that i am currently coping with but i know these will pass, and we have all the time in the future to spend together. (L)
i love you you this silly boy. (L)

"@ZodiacFacts: #Aries have to learn how to be true to their own hearts while still being considerate of their loved ones."

This is so true. Learning how to be patient and tolerant towards their flaws so that i can master this line.

just out of the blue i decided to update my relationship status on fb with tay hahahaha.
and it kind of saddens me to see that our relationship is still pending.... HAHAHA

reminders.

once again, i am reminded that i should stop myself from getting annoyed by people.
the real problem probably lies in me.
i need to remember to be more grateful towards the people around me.
i need to remember that no matter how good/bad they are to me, they are at the very least teaching me something.
i need to remember what tay once told me, that i should not just blurt out my unhappiness just like that, and remember to tolerate.
being able to tolerate and be patient is a virtue.
not every ounce of unhappiness needs to be voiced out.
this is to show respect to everyone out there.
i hate to admit this but complaining about others really just means that i am talking bad things behind their backs, a.k.a backstabbing.. okay maybe not so serious but okay about there lah.

everyone needs a reminder every now and then, to get reminded of what they already knew but forgotten.
i am no exception.
i am no saint.
i have faults and not everything i say is right, even though i might arrogantly think that way but i do know that i make mistakes sometimes no matter how unwilling i am to admit them.
i can't just mature and grow overnight, but i will try my best.
i need to remember. i need to get reminded.
if you love me, remind me occasionally, would you?
as long as you realise that i am straying from my path, as long as you realise that i am not focusing and working towards my goals.
stop me, and ask me, what do i really really want?
i do know what i want, i do know what are my goals, i guess it's time to clearly define them and make them specific enough for me to run harder to reach them.

annoying people.

i miss this little white space lots and i have been dying to share my bangkok trip which happened a month ago here too but well, time has been on the lacking side recently and today, once again, is my off day! woohoo!
but no i still am not gonna blog too much because i'm heading out later~

just had this thought as you can see from the blog post title.
some people just annoy the hell out of me but they don't even know it themselves.
how do i even put it across to them without sounding rude?
i mean, i can't help being a little rude or frigid when responding to them.
it's like 'HELLOOOO i don't even want to talk to you, you bitch/asshole.'
then sometimes i think of the Secret and feel that i should probably add more love to make it work out but how do i do so when i don't even want any forms of relationship between us to work out in any way!?!?!?
and then again, i try using the Secret to ask for what i want and fully believe in it so much that it is as if i have already received it.
okay that's difficult.
but i guess i will continue to work that out.
and people who annoy me always talk or ask about stupid things?
and well, i guess it's pretty easy to find out whether you are annoying me anot.
if i am just responding to you in one or two words replies then yes, you are annoying.
isn't that obvious?
i guess people around me (even those who don't know me that well) can sense that i am annoyed with you.
i don't want to bluntly say that 'yes, i am annoyed' but just think before you speak.
and don't act blur/cute. i can tell whether it's real or fake just like how i can tell if you are truly sincere or not.
and another you, stop shooting my words with rubbish okay. -_-
it's not funny at all?
and please be more mature and stop being so childish. i don't even feel like entertaining you anymore...

work is tiring, but fun!!!

HEYYYYY!!

it's been some time since i updated about my life and yes i know i have tons of photos waiting for me to upload here but i guess i will just first update about what i am currently doing~~ :D:D

so i am working at an outsourced sales and marketing company and right now the product that i am promoting is Singtel Internet, both fibre and broadband, as well as MioTV!!!

so if anyone who is interested in them can come and ask me about it okay! yayyy!

no i am not selling stuffs i dun get money from you i am just doing quick registrations for Singtel customers who are interested. :D

okay so anywayyy work is great fun despite being tiring cause of the rather long hours and the effort that we have to put in but the results are awesome so why not!?

it helps me develop myself, strengthen my mentality by giving myself confidence and removing my self-doubt and also, teach me about not stressing myself out.

yes, i learnt that all these abilities are given to you by you yourself and no one else.

people can only give you advice, but whether to take it or not, it's entirely up to yourself.

remember that no one is perfect, and you do make mistakes, so don't be too hard on yourself, so long as you learnt something from them and not commit them over and over again, it's alright.

forgive yourself. :)

thanks to all the very awesome people who have made my working life happy.

and i have no idea why they are putting words on me such as cute, little kid, etc etc. -_-

am i really like a little kid!? they even think the way i chew on my rabbit sweet is like a kid!? hahahaha.

it's just normal chewing whattt. at least to me it is.

but it's just weird that people who are not that much older than me treating me like a kid.

but i take it that they find me endearing and wanna take care of me hehehe. /shys

HAHA okay i shall quit being disgusting and here are some pics that we have to take before the start of the day to show the leaders that we are at our respective booths and ready to go!

familiar anot? hahahaha yes is adeline toh ying ying.

idk why i have this picture hahaha ade and meiyun!

hi i am a loner hahahaha cass is taking this pic

hongsen, kk, me and alexia!~

okay this wasn't taken at the start of the booth. just during my break and see my red eye. thankfully it recovered despite me putting on my contact lens no matter what. :D

woohoo at bangkit market and we din have a booth YET and had to do street pitching!

hi we are at raffles place's arcade~

hi i am a pretty flower HAHAHAHA

i love my job cause we are half running around and half being in the office and meeting awesome people everyday minus the nasty customers and also teeko peks which make me dk how to deal with them but thankfully for ade and my colleagues i am still able to fend them off with their constant 'ehh your skirt ah' or when once a customer asked to add me on my fb and their 'DUN REPLY' hahahaha

safely back from bkk!

and i have to say it was a great trip of shopping and eating for me!!
it's a great trip for tay too! though alot of the times he was repelling toxic from his body a.k.a. shitting HAHAHA. he's so gonna kill me for posting this hereeeee.
dk why he shitted so much when i did not shit even once D: me and my constipation.
okay but i shitted last night kay. coaxed my body to do so. okay i have no idea why i am blabbering about this shitting thing but yea i'm cool like this.

got inspired to do up this bkk travel guide thing though yea dun think i am actually gonna travel much and am certainly not gonna turn this into a travel blog but cause we were having some difficulties about researching on places to go and good food to eat.
though okay we did enjoy alot throughout this trip and we ate very very VERY full for every meal HAHAHA.
i just wanna do this guide for people feeling kind of blur and lost and cause tay planned his tw trip according to this taiwan trip blog post and we couldnt find any such blog posts (okay we merely googled) soooo yup!
shall do it up sooooooon.

anywayyy, it's my first day of work tml at ascentia group marketing! WEEPEE!
feeling all excited.
haven read the notes that i took down for the product and sales skills training though i kept saying i would D:
shall wake up earlier tml to do so!!!!
hope everything goes well!
and i aim to break my personal best (by doing my first sales hehe) tml!!! kekeke.

and you might notice that my formspring box is gone.... okay nobody actually comments on my blog soooo often i'm just talking to myself but okay i really am but i love talking to myself so it doesn't matter butttttt if you would like to leave me a lovely comment to tell me how much you love me you can continue to do so by clicking the '0 LOVEs' below
ahahaha yes it's 0 cause i know confirm no one will comment one lah. i also seldom comment one.
people just like to stalk others secretly cause paiseh ma. yes i understand you <3 br="br"> okay i should probably clear all my bkk shopping off my bag and go to bed nowwww.
lovelove to everyone! <3>

okay after typing about that long post on life, it's time for me to plan my bangkok trip with tay which is starting tml!! hahahaha and i haven't even packed my bags and he already did so days before.
feeling so lazy to start but our flight is tml!!! OMGGG.
and yes i have been whining about how poor i am and it's true hahahaha and tay is probably gonna pay for our expenses during the trip T^T
gonna start work next monday at dear adeline's company and lovelove to her for introducing me in there and i can't wait to start looking at those lovely and friendly people who tried to make me and apple, the other new girl, feel at ease!! <3
and after i start work and earn my pay it's time to payback!!
gonna work very hard to earn lots of money and i wanna give my mum some money, give tay some money cause he have been paying for my stuffs and also treat my family and friends to all kinds of lovely things!! hehehehehe.

currently, i love life! <3

just a little something about life.

quarreled with tay a few days back and well, it wasn't exactly pleasant hahahaha.
he is always saying that i'm picking a fight but to me, well, i was just being honest and straightforward and possibly tactlessly blunt. :/
i'm always ready to blurt out all kinds of unhappiness and irritation in me, with no intentions to hold them in at all.
he is always comparing about our levels of tolerance and i have to admit, i am not a patient person as compared to him. and.... he will only rage if i'm raging in the first place. although most of the times he just bottles those feelings within himself.

i always felt that i was right, i mean right in the sense that i just shout and scream when i feel angry. i think it's important to vent out whatever i am feeling to make myself feel better.
but then again, is this really right?

i have never considered the fact that the people around me would feel hurt or upset by the sharp words i spoke when i'm angry.
some people say that truthful words are only spoken when one is angry, but i beg to differ.
okay it's not that i'm saying that i'm lying when i spoke those words i did because i truly meant them, but only at that point in time when my brain and thoughts were covered by the red veil of anger.
other people say 'don't make decisions when you are angry', and well, i agree with this to a certain extent.
an explanation to this line is that you shouldn't make decisions when you are angry because they will be made based on the conclusions you tend to set which are probably wrong.
there is a next line to this saying but yea it has nothing to do with the topic of anger management i'm touching on today soooooooo... hahahahahaha.

anger really does blind you, it denies you the fact that there are hundreds or thousands or millions of other possibilities instead of the one conclusion that you jumped into and couldn't escape before the red fiery sea consumed you.

and many of the times, i thought exposing him (as in knowing which unpleasant feelings he has without him telling me such as embarrassment, anger, unhappiness and exposing them) was a way to show or even prove how much i understand him to perhaps selfishly reassure myself.
okay maybe sometimes it's alright to say them out, when i just want to tease him.
but sometimes, it's not understanding to voice them out blatantly like that. perhaps it's more understanding to just know that i know and realising that he doesn't have to know that i know and just do things to make him feel better or even more comfortable.

sometimes he really knows how to deal with me.
and i only hate it when i said that i would do something out of anger but somehow he knows that i wouldn't and just spill that fact right at my face and i could just feel this shame wash over me and would be adamant to prove him wrong by doing just that but then again like what he already knew, i couldn't do it.

i will work harder and try and train myself to be a better person.
thank you for always being able to point out my weaknesses and yet accept them the way they are and staying with me despite being at the losing end of all the arguments, no matter big or small, all the time.
thank you for loving and hating me all at one go. hahahahahaha.
i love/hate you tooooo.




okay, i love you a lot more. <3

Diablo 3

/Tay plays diablo 3...

Me: why the monsters only got spiders one so sian..
Tay: got alot what. Later you see.
/Tay goes to the next level.
Tay: you seeeee
/spiders sprouting from everywhere
Me: -_- also spidersssss
Tay: ermmm.. Got alot of different kinds of spiders what. Poisonous spiders, fire spiders


And so i conclude that diablo is a fighting spider game hahahaha

HI

this is an entry in an attempt to cheer myself up hahahahaha.


and you know how i have been obsessing myself with yoochun?
okay in case you dk i have been going gaga over yoochun for quite some time (tay fully experienced the impact hahahaha) and here is our yoochun:

AND THEN!!
it seems like jjong can feel that one of his sg fans a.k.a. me is falling head over heels over someone else
........
...........
..............
and he did all these in the recent concert to attract my attention:

yes he cried!!


yes my dear jjong dun cry you've still got most of my heart <3

AND HE FREAKING STRIPPED:






OKAY YES BB YOU GOT MY ATTENTION BACK OMGGGG.
was showing tay his body and kept saying 'YOU SEE NICE HORH NICE HORH' tay merely replied 'okay loh normal loh' i suspect he is jealous hahahahahaha.

OMGGGG that boobs of his omg it's like a cushion i wanna lie on them HAHAHAHAHAHA. okay too over but let me fantasize and fangirl abit lah. also wun come true anywayyyyyy.
hahahaha and all these photos and vids are what clara showed me. aiya for now i no time to go find or go tumblrrrrr.

HAHAHA why he train his body until so perfectttt.
AND THE BEST PART IS SHINEE WORLD II IS COMING TO SG WOOHOOOOOO I AM SO HAPPY HAHAHAHAHAHA and though i am broke now i will make sure i earn enough money to go okay HAHAAHAHAHA I CANNOT MISS SEEING NAKED JJONGGGGG!!!!!






okay anyway a retarded conversation between me and tay:
ME: why guys always watch porn? got so nice meh? dun see cannot!?
TAY: same as to why you like to see your gor hyung (how he calls jonghyun.... -_-) or whoever naked ma.

Retarded insecurities.

I am fully aware that this is extremely retarded but sometimes i just feel insecure. Towards friends. Yes friends.

As my life slowly becomes stagnant and nothing much seems to be happening to me and as im as close to all my closest friends as i am right now, all of a sudden i just feel that i dun have anything interesting to say.
I have become someone rather quiet? O.O
Idk what to say.
And sometimes im afraid of being forgotten by them.
Even if i become uninteresting as less dramas happen to my life, you all will still stand by me right? D: 

There are so many friends that i miss but im just afraid to ask them out and when they do, im not free. As im gonna embark on a life of working and studying at the same time, i need to start sorting out my time and life and spend them with those precious ones. :(

I miss ahyi clara and ade particularly.
The ones closest to me in poly ohmy am i gonna cry? Hahahaha.
 It always feel like we dun spend enough time tgthr. D:
I spent too much time with you guys in poly that i dun feel comfortable without seeing you guys for so long i guess. D:

 Okay abrupt ending but i reached khatib. Bye.

life at GE

anywayyy, i have worked at Great Eastern during the period of mid march to mid june and here are some random pics i took during work~~

there will be tons of selcas cause im forever feeling bored during work hahahahaha.

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wahahaha my desk and the corner of tibits and powder for drinks but you dun see much there cause at the time of taking this pic i have yet to stock up hahaha.

TADAAA my milo packet which i put at my tibits corner thereafter.

kekeke my desk.

and the only entrance beside my then desk. enables me to take note when the supervisor is coming over hahahaha.

:D

yummy jiji wanton meeee!! i'm always having them hahahaha.

and this lormee is pretty nice tooo!! it's just a stall or two beside my jiji wanton mee hehehe. and the bandung soya milk from keke is nice toooo! the stalls are all along the same stretch. hahaha.

MOI AGAIN~

and look at the stack and number of staplers i removed. and this is not all okay. i alr threw away a bigger pile and i was just taking a rest and took this pic.

the day i couldnt be bothered to put on my contacts hahaha.

TADAAAAAAAA!!!

the stuffs i bring to work to eat/drink hahaha.

ikea style hahahahaha.

THIS HOT CHOCOLATE IS SUPERB!!!! introduced by caspar hahahah.

i moved and this was my view at the new position before i pulled up the blinds hahaha. at least i got a windows seat though the view outside might as well be a picture since there are almost no movements at all.

sometimes when i'm REALLLLYYYY bored i try staring into the windows of the buildings opp and watch the people walk around in their offices. -_- yes i'm that bored.

this is the day the sole of my wedge came off. :( and auntie constance gave me a rubber band to tie it tgthr. D:

the little dolls which accompanied as i worked hahaha. not mine~ left by the person who was originally sitting at this seat.

OMFG at the stacks of papers i had to complete and it was increasing as i am i trying to decrease it. hahahaha. a race against my typing skills and auntie constance's scanning skills.

you think scan one paper faster or type finish the info of one paper faster? :(

paper cut D: ouch.

TADA told you i got lots of selcas alr hehehe. and tay got this pic of mine in his phone and i edited it until it looked like a monster with huge innocent eyes and thick succulent sexy lips HAHAHA.

wanted to change the pic on the left to something else but it kept saying that i have reached my photo upload quota cause my picasa web album is full so cannot upload any photos but why i can upload to my blog entries lehhh???? :/ sian.
and then, i started looking through all those photos.
and i started reading all those posts i did more than two years back.
omg. why i so twit.
omg. why i so act cute.
hahahahahahha.
maybe two years later when i see this post i would find the past (as in now) me disgusting again.
and i was reallllllyyyy mushy then. HAHAHA.
buay tahan the younger me.
though it was great and happy times i have to admit.

i enjoyed then quite alot as i can tell by the photos myself.
we loved and parted.
often, there is this feeling which bothers me.
sometimes i wonder about the what ifs. but mostly i would think of the friendship/relationship we shared.
this is cheesy and cliche but to me it was magical? the way you knew me and the way i knew you.
sometimes when i think back i felt that it was a pity we din get to keep what we shared till now.
you knew and understood me so well to the point that when we were talking about one topic, you knew how my brain would link to which irrelevant topic and bring it up to me.
it's almost as if you could literally read my mind hahahaha.
you were one of my very best friends. but yea the point is 'were'.
there are certain places which reminds me of only you. but i smile when i think of them instead of feeling sad.
i very often wonder how you are now, and i want to personally tell you that i'm doing real fine. and i love someone who loves me as much as i love him.
and even though he disturbs me i disturb him even more. and despite him hating me doing so, he still loves me all the same.
he is really the one for me i guess :)
i really want to tell you that i am happy now.
and somehow, i want us to be like before. though i'm not sure if this will come true.
everything was short, but beautiful.
the wonderful memories left behind was great for reminiscing. :) thank you.

ONE CONQUERED.

I AM DONE WITH ECONS!! WEEPEE!!

okay in case you dk, i am currently taking part-time bridging courses in maths and econs in SIM-UOL so i can exempted for one year.

IM SURE YOU KNOW ONE hahahahaha.

anywayyy, ytd aftnn was my econs paper and thanks to my super awesome econs teacher i think i am able to score pass pretty well since this is a pass or fail module anywayy hehehe dun nd to get flying rainbows wahahahaha.

maths is gonna be on tml aftnn!!!!

and sigh my 'exam habit' since poly did not fade, and that is to start slacking straight aft the first paper ended. :( (though i actually started slacking before the first paper even started HAHAHA)

i even finished rooftop prince hahahaha.

rooftop prince is such a great show omggggg i teared so much at the ending cause it was so touching and i made myself go to bed cause it was alr 1plus and i planned to wake up early to study for abit and while i was lying in bed thinking of the ending i felt so touched and happy again i teared HAHA okay retarded much.

IT IS SUCH A NICE SHOW AND I HAVE NOT FALLEN IN LOVE SO DEEP EVER SINCE GUMIHO. :')

please go watch both they are high up on my favourite dramas list. <3

GUMIHOOOOOO!! oh how i miss themmmm. shall rewatch soon!!

and now im currently in love withhhhhh.....

OHMY YOOCHUN

i absolutely ADOREEEE him in specs omfgggg. <3 <3

HAHAHA my current obsession. keeping jonghyun in mind though. 

seriously omgggg and choi woo sik IS SO CUTE TOOOO.

yes he is the one in the yellow training suit HAHAHA.

sighhhhh oh my i'm supposed to study maths now okay bye hahahaha i will come back sooooon!!!

Forever (?)

ME: you think we will be tgthr for the rest of our lives?
TAY: /nods
ME: wahh you can tahan me being like this ah? :D
TAY: /nods
ME: you like me being like this right!? :D:D
TAY: /shakeshead
ME: :(

My Man.

"@ Nikki_Eyezax: I have a man that loves me as I am, but somehow still inspires me to be a better person"

I certainly do :)