CURRENTLY WAITING SHINEE'S JAPAN REPLAY MV TO BE OUT OMG I WANNA WATCH IT. *-*

okay i haven been catching up much in my shinee world D:
but okay too caught up with everything else i guess. :(

some free time now but i just wanna slack and not do my work. please pardon me just this once.

everyday is busy school life so what's up with you?
can't wait for this sem to be over but on the other hand i dun want it to be over. :(
sigh i will be over at china for six months after this sem. i will be missing my people. T.T


okay anyway still meeting mrtay despite my busy schedule HAHA i'm so kind right HOHOHO so yup went to watch two movies on wed and thur night ^^

on wed it was


OMG I SIMPLY LOVE HIM:



WHY HE SO CUTE AND HOT AND FUNNY AND EVERYTHING AT THE SAME TIME :')
if only my husband is like him too. remains as hot even until the far future. HEHE.

AND THE MERMAID (cant be bothered to find her name i'm sorry) IS SO DAMN GORGEOUS AND HOT:






EVEN MRTAY WAS MESMERIZED. you need me to bite you to wake you up. :)

okay anywayyy i love pirates of the caribbean so it's awesome no matter what you say cause i love jack sparrow since the very first time i watched this back in secondary 2. kekeke. so go away if you are judging.


movie on thur aka ytd was


KUNGFU PANDA WHY YOU SO CUTEEEE!?!? BOING BOINGGG!

i love him lah okay. cried at the sad part of the show. :'( want to know what sad part?? OWNSELF WATCH OKAY HAHAHAHA.

i can only give one mini spoiler: INNER PEACE.
okay not much of a spoiler that's why i called it a mini spoiler! :D
but it's very important in this movie okayyy. HOHOHO.


had a changi airport field trip this morning and it left me feeling shagged and i slept most of my way home. D: cant take a nap cause i will be out this evening again for my survey taking why oh why :(

happy note: meeting xueli and the rest of my girls for dinner tonight. ^^ i love them (L)



i say/do whatever i feel at that moment of time. i don't know what's your take.
if you got hurt, i am sorry.
if not, then okayyyyy -_-
if you are guilty that you are the one, i have got nothing to say as well.
if you are annoyed/irritated, then you can just quickly finish bitching about me and go away.
it's so right that you should not take into account of others' opinions. cause you are you and what matters are the people around you. if i'm not close to you, then why be bothered about what i say?
sad to say, some of the people who are 'close' to me aren't really close at all.
and that's what makes it worse. cause you can't even really pinpoint what you dislike about them.
you can only hint generally while talking in a big group. that sucks.
if we are all transparent and everything could be seen much clearer, wouldn't that make life easier?
and, if people don't like you, shouldn't you try and improve on yourself?
but i understand, human's like that. if you are disliked by others, the fault is always on others, noone blames themselves.
you can jolly well stay in your childish footsteps while i move on and get ahead of you. :)
no one is perfect. i say if that person doesn't like you and it doesn't work out after trying to improve on yourself, that's just what fate decrees and your lives should just part from then on.
i don't want to go fight anymore. it's pointless. as long as i know that those that i love loves me, it's enough. i don't have to fight with you. be honest.
ppl find ppl annoying sometimes even if that person did not do anything wrong. EVEN mrtay makes me feel annoyed at times but i still love him to bits. but if you are sure/think you are the one ppl is bitching about, then you probably are since you are guilty of committing the same thing.
it's childish, thinking, 'walou she say me so i say back her loh. walou i also nv make her, why she make me?' but many people still do that. p-o-i-n-t-l-e-s-s.
if i don't like you, i ignore you or just don't talk to you or maybe bitch a little and forget about you. that's what i do. but not liking you is just not liking you? it's just a mismatch of personalities. my personality is just not compatible with yours? what do you want me to do? FORCE THEM TO MATCH?
i'm a practical person. if we can't click, we can't. i wun FORCE us to click. i will just let nature takes its flow. if you wanna go the hard way, it will definitely backfire.
i hardly hate anyone. and when i say hardly, i mean it. currently i can only think of one whom i can't stand but i dun even hate her. and if you are reading this, it's probably not you cause i dun think she even knows my blog.
but remember, everyone bitches. REGARDLESS OF GENDER, AGE, RACE, RELIGION, NATIONALITY OR WHATSOEVER. so, you are a bitch too.
honestly, i dun nd alot of people in my life. you know that, i know that, we know that. many of you are kind of one of those that i dun need. sad? yes. but cruel truth.
i just need a few close ones and that's all i really need.
but no matter what, no matter you hate me or not or who you are or whether i kind of dislike you or not, i wish you happiness. if you dislike me, then better get far away from me so i wun disrupt your happy life.





ANYWAYYY OUT OF THE EMO PART, IS SHINEE'S JAPAN REPLAY OUT!?!? OMG OMG SEE THIS:

i want i want i want.

does it matter what i want when we think differently?

perhaps you dun think as much as i do. but i'm really afraid.
afraid of the unknown and unexpected future.
nobody knows what is going to happen.
maybe i'm the one thinking and worrying too much.
perhaps i should stop.
i need to get a new perspective.
can someone give me one?

i need to shut down my mind. even if just for a minute.
i want to stop thinking stop wanting stop needing.
i want to go to a beach. sit on the rocks with the waves lapping around.
close my eyes and feel the sea breeze caresses my face and plays with my hair.
smile as i breathe in the salty air.
it feels so free, and i wanna do that.



sigh getting emo these days. MUST BE CAUSE HH COMING >:(

you and me.

found out about something that made me ponder.

i guess it was always meant to be like that.
i guessed as much. :)
i don't deny that i felt surprised, or shocked/cheated even, when i first saw that.
but then i thought through again, and i guess this is what they say it's meant to be. :)

i feel happy. like really. for you. and you, despite that there was really alot of unhappiness between us in the past.
i always felt that you are meant to be, honestly.
i told people that as well, that this is how it should have been.

i won't have to worry anymore. :)
i still worry about you sometimes.
you were really someone really close to me, though i guess we could never go back, or could we?
i guess what matters more now is that we are now all happy in our own little world, right? :)
the little things and people that make us feel tremendously fortunate and blissed. ^^

okay anyway this is the new organizer i bought for myself HEHE.

i feel kind of disappointed. okay more than kind of. i am quite disappointed. quite quite disappointed.
maybe you too feel the same way.

'should we give it a rest?' this thought flew past my mind. 'NO,' I told it firmly. 'I will not give up so easily.'

this is a test i guess. a test for us.
would you try? i certainly hope you do.

i'm so touched by your msg that i cried. kind of silly but i feel so happy that i cried.
you did not let me down, even though it's just a msg.

i know i can trust you despite me feeling doubtful and scared sometimes. i force myself to trust you cause there is nothing else i can do. thanks so much for sticking with me though i'm such a screwed up person. <3

i love you. :)

what is going on?
i should probably get moving on.
okay bye.

hi i am bored during TRMK tutorial. D:

bcomm interview in less than one hour.
still not that nervous. okay i dun wanna be nervous but confident. :)
jiayou me.

by the way, 99.9% for overseas internship.
gonna try and apply and see how.

some words in advance to all the people i might leave behind in sg if my application is successful:
i love you guys and take good care of yourselves. ^^ when i come back we will partaye till there is no tml okay! ^^

sometimes i dun get myself,

but i guess everyone is the same.

when i am hurt/angry/frustrated/stressed and feel like crying, somehow i would find someone to talk to and pour out all my thoughts and feelings into that person.

but when i am lost and i feel doubtful with no tinge of confidence, i just want to be left alone.
cause this is when i feel the most vulnerable.

weird eh?
i feel vulnerable even though i'm not hurt or anything, i just feel lost.
and i feel so much more breakable when i am doubtful than when i am hurt.

is it cause when i am doubtful, somehow, it's easier for me to let people into my world?
as much as i want to be simple, i am complicated like all human beings on earth.
in my jiale world, i have a smaller inner world which usually only have me, though i DO let some closer people take a small peek occasionally.

sorry for pushing you away.
though it may not seem like it, but i was feeling really doubtful.
whatever i heard and listened, actually stays with me and though you might know it, i am actually upset.

i am someone with a good memory. but in a negative way.
i tend to remember all the unhappy memories better than the happy memories.
somehow, i guess.
perhaps it's cause i'm happy most of the times so those memories are harder to remember since there are so many of them. like flowers in a garden. too many to count.
and those sad and unhappy memories just left a scar there and caused this bald patch where no flowers can ever grow again. this bald patch just seem so much more obv as compared to the great big patches of flowers which grow around it.

am i making myself clearer?
am i getting to know myself better?
reasons 101 why i love my blog: it helps me clear out my thoughts and i untangle, if not all, most of the knots in my mind. ^^

100th day.

sorry for not remembering in the beginning and sorry for being so irritable last night. D: you suffered. T^T
it's not exactly a big day but it somehow meant something to both of us because of ^^ hehe you know i know.

i am a lucky girl cause i received all these on this day. and when i say lucky, i mean REALLY LUCKY. hehe. (L)

the wallet i really wanted. (L)

THE HANDMADE CARD I ALWAYS WANTED (L) look at the ten kids on the card HAHA.

HE FOLDED 100 STARS O.O totally cannot imagine him doing it. hehe. (L)

i only made him a small card. D: sorry i am too busy to even head out to buy something nice. D:

only half done~

finally completed! :D

it took me one hour plus two hours to finish this small card which he can fit into the card compartment in his wallet okay!!
look at the small holes in the faces. was straining my eyes and neck throughout D:
hope you like it though i dun have a proper present for you my dear. :)

since he said he was cold...

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA

ANDDDD..

TERRORIST TAY.

he started sweating like mad and even took off his own jacket he was originally wearing. there were like a blanket on him plus five more jackets HAHAHAHAHA.



out on SATURDAY and he got me these *-*

colour abit weird in the picture though. BUT IT IS GORGEOUS IN REAL LIFE. AND BOUGHT IT CAUSE IT'S GSS! *-* though he paid for it. guilty alr. D:

and we got the membership card as well.

i feel so guilty for spending so much of your money. D:
i will try and save money to treat you good meals okay!! ^^


society appreciation dinner at night and took hordes of photos. imbas <3 OWNSELF GO MY FB SEE THE PHOTOS OKAY :D

one year has passed yet again. two years in society. there were laughters, joy and of course tears as well. though i always complain about going back for events, they usually make it worthwhile. <3 you people rock. let's stay as close okay. OUTINGS OUTINGS!! (L)(L)

OHH TOOK A PHOTO WITH MERV'S HUGE PHONE!! SORRY FOR BEING A SUAKU LAH BUT I DIN KNOW ITS EXISTENCE. HERE GOES:

PARDON MY RETARDED FACE I WAS GOING CRAZY HAHAHAHA.



HEHE anyway wanna dedicate the last photo to the people who added SO MUCH RAINBOWS in my poly life.

my poly clique, imBAS 0910 and imBAS 1011. i love you guys <3

last night before i slept

qiqi and jiamin kept asking me if i'm really going over to china for SIX WHOLE MONTHS. D:

qiqi even said how could i abandon mrtay in sg. D: she had the same thoughts as me. but to him, i'm not abandoning him ma. not like i'm not coming back forever. hahahaha.

aiya i dunoe i dunoe. D: they kept asking me qns and i just replied them. OHMYOHMY.


okay i think i should list out the advantages of staying local and going china.

STAYING LOCAL:

• i will be able to extend my internship and perhaps start working in the company as my first job.
• i will earn ALOT more money.
• there will not be extra high costs such as airfares etc.
• i can save money on food cause can go home for dinner and don't have to pay for accommodations.
• wun get homesick.
• have too many people around me and i will never feel lonely~~
• don't have to rack my brains to think of how to get a sim card there and what to do with my current phone number.

GOING CHINA:

• better experiences.
• GO OVERSEAS COOL WHAT!!!
• nobody to control you and you are free to do whatever you want WOOHOO!
• can explore the place and go on an adventure~~~
• good portfoliooooo!
• cheap food cheap everything!
• it's like a DAMN LONG holiday!

SIGH SO HOW!? okay though i think i am 95% for overseas internship liao. preparing myself mentally..

90% for overseas internship

had our overseas internship briefing today.
and i feel like i'm really interested in going. even though it's china. but it still looks kind of fun.

i have always been afraid that if i go, i wouldn't be able to get a proper job. cause i wouldn't want to do housekeeping like alot of my coursemates are doing now.


now, 90% for overseas internship, and i am alr starting to miss the people around me. D:

teared when i talked to mrtay, thinking how i would miss him and my family and my friends and everyone here.
thought about how we would most probably contact once a week for six months, or technically 22 weeks, which means 22 times for the whole internship program. a chance to test our r/s since he wun have much time for me during that time with the start of his course in sept.

he said he will come visit me before the start of his course though, meaning the start of my internship, and the end of his course in jan. but he would have to help with his family business D:
hope that he can come visit me during his bday though, so that i wun miss it. but it's not like he cares abt birthdays anyway, and it clashes with cny so forget it. CHEH!

internship will end on our first year anni 11th feb. and i wonder if it is the day that my work ends or the day that i am coming back to singapore.
sigh he also hopes that i'm overseas so wun distract him cause of his busy course which has only a passing rate of 33%. poor boy. who ask you so mean want chase me away!? KARMA HAHAHAHAHAHA /laughs wickedly


asked qiqi if she will miss me if i go overseas for six months and she said most probably.
OMG can i survive out there without my mum to help me do stuffs and my sisters to beat and bully!? D:

never did survive without them for so long. at most one week. never stayed away for even a month. now i'm supposed to leave them for six months!? D:
and how do i get a sim card there? how do i contact my family back at home!?!?

what about my friends? will they miss me while working and we can't meet up for meals cause there are like huge seas and lands in between us!? D:

i'm such a worrywart that i am truly and really afraid that something will happen when i am away. i know CHOYYYYY!! but i want to be here when anything happens.
IF ANYTHING SERIOUS HAPPENS WILL I BE ABLE TO COME BACK TO SINGAPORE!? D:


so many thoughts going through my head right now. :/
on the other hand, SOOOO MANY PEOPLE are encouraging me to go. mrtay, my parents, friends. what more can i say?

a little voice in me tells me to go and check out those places that i have never been to before. yet another voice keeps asking me those what ifs which is really irritating. AND THERE IS THIS ADVENTUROUS PART IN ME WHICH SAYS TO BE CURIOUS AND EXPLORE!! D:

i should probably consult ong may leng.

tr01 (L)

stupid adeline made me miss those times with her blog post. :'(

the original tr01. the crazy us. the younger us. OMG we really rocked big time then. we rock yo! ^^

you guys know i love you so so so much. <3

STRESSED

nothing much about school ytd except that there was this frog in the LT in the morning HAHA.

it looked so small and it jumped up the stairs and finally when it reached the last one i guess it felt tired and it din know if there were anymore steps cause it kept staring at the last step and not jumping. :( poor froggie.

can you see the little froggie there? ^^

so in the end i tried to catch the frog out of the LT to save it and haqim came to help me and weeee we got it out. ^^ hehe.

went to bpp after school and walked around and studied a lil of STMO before meeting mrtay to pass him his passport photo. WE HAD SPICY MCNUGGETS AND SEAWEED FRIES KEKE.

whenever i eat shaker fries i will insist on shaking the fries retardedly cause to me thats the best way to shake the fries but this time round he insisted on taking photos so here goes:

and of course i wouldn't let him go without him taking photos as well HAHAHA.

happy happy us with our full tummies walked around plaza and i saw things that i wanna buy. T^T

there is this chio chio wallet siaa. with a little bit of blingbling reminding me of jonghyun. but i like it leh. with the denim feel. DAMN CHIO. *-* AND THE WOODEN IPHONE COVER TOOOOO! *-*

wanted to buy a new organiser too. :/ with both monthly and weekly planner in it. sighhh. my current daily planner organizer isn't really working out for me. SHOULD I BUY A NEW ONE!? SHOULD I SHOULD I!? :/

btw sorry for not remembering what day saturday is HAHA. i feel happy that you rmb okay. (L)

okay time to go eat my lunch and go back to STMO. :( need to start on WISP soon too. 

LUCKILY today is a PH and this thur is elearning week for aerospace. only two hours of class on thursday WOOTS WOOTS!

p/s: the moment i switched on my tv to watch while eating, it reminded me of my PT proj by playing SAF's ad. -_- what is this!?

what is this fuckery!?

getting more and more pissed by the day. i need to rein in my temper.

FAST FIVE

IS AN AWESOME MOVIEEEE!!

okay not that much hunks but there are gorgeous babes yo! :')
i lub hot hunks as well as gorgeous babes. dun judge tyvm. :D

go watch it if you have the time!!!!





no gorgeous babes in these posters BOOHOO!
i shall go google another one with the babes.


TADA!! CAN SEE!?

ANOTHER ONEE!!


okay there are three gorgeous babes in total. okay one super gorgeous. one kind of hot. the other one not so much cause she covered up her assets but last scene *-* kind of. KEKE.

i love the motorcycle babe. OKAY anywayy watch it if you wanna see babes :D:D

Mundane school life

basically we are just doing work everyday. neverending work.

after submitting an assignment, the next assignment is due. and after that, there is another assignment for you to rush.
not to mention all the tutorials we have to finish in between. and my, the tutorials are seriously heavy. research research research. read read read. every tutorial seems like a mini assignment to us. :(

after handing up my PT proposal ytd, i have a test on this coming wed and another assignment due nxt sunday. and after that, i have my bcomm interview on the tue after. i have like two or three assignments due on the friday after. and one more due on the tue after. thank god this coming tue is a public holiday where i have some time to rest finish some of my work. but i fear for the makeup lessons. T^T

i feel stressful just by looking at these that i just wrote down. and these are just the ones that are in for these two weeks. not to mention the weeks after. :( ohmylife.




some extra frills that happened over the past week which have nothing to do with school. :D okay not entirely nothing to do with school but yeaaa i will just go on.

well, on wed we went to the opening ceremony of singapore arts fest. WOOHOO! pastamania before that for dinner kekeke.
okay we got the tix to it cause our PT proj is on singapore arts fest but yea. i think the whole design is kind of cool.

there was a performance on the opening ceremony and we were supposed to walk on this wooden planks which raised up till the top where the audience seats were. it was a little scary cause you can feel vibrations on the planks as ppl walk. T.T i dun have any pics HAHA wait for adeline to post on her blog okay!!

the arts performance started after everyone settled down. the subtitles kind of suck and they could have improved on it but i think the performance is really cool.
you can see the passion in the performers as you watch every action they make and how they actually remember all the lyrics and all the little actions which they synchronised so perfectly. :')
i salute them for their spirit.



on thur, it is my fave school day weeeeeee~

aerospace was kind of retarded. told us that there is a graded game quiz but it turned out to be a group quiz which the whole class was separated into two big groups to compete with one another.

but our group just pawned the other group, answering every of our qns, as well as the questions which the other group answered wrongly, correctly. we just rock okay. \m/
though me and ahyi studied hard for nothing. -_-

WISP ROCKS LIKE HELL WOOTS!!!
i think i have a crush on my tutor lawrence lai.

HAHAHA he is as funny as ever esp the kungfu story he shared with us. shared it with mrtay and he laughed though i dunoe if it's cause of me or the story but he said it seems fake. but hahaha i think the problem is with the guy who is sooo obsessed with kungfu HAHAHA.
if you are curious to know whats the story like, you can come and find me. but it's best described face to face. :D



went to play bball on friday night~~
okay not with guowei they all since they are not playing and i din know beforehand and feels kind of paiseh to gordon who came down and in the end left after eating dinner with us. heh heh. OHH it was drizzling too btw. :(

had my yumyum meatball pasta at cute chicken (可爱鸡) at kim san leng. I LOVE THEIR MEATBALLS <3!!
ade you should go try it someday since you stay near hahahaha.

in the end mrtay still wanted to play some BASKETBALL so he went home to take his and we went down to the CC to play until the silat ppl took over the court and we walked around to a fitness corner and did some exercise with a cute girl toddler running about and settled at some void deck to play monopoly deal. ^^



sorry for a pictureless post yet once again. :( i need a new camera. :( it's not that my current one is spoiled. just that its pictures are always blur which irritates me. :( any recommendations? :)




anywayyy, i'm curious on whats gonna happen on next saturday. O.O

insecurity

i hate it when it starts chewing my insides.
how i wish i can point my middle finger at it and scream GTFO FO FO FO FO FO FO FO.

okay becoming vulgar. but at least only in words. shall not scold fuck out of my mouth that often.
hate it when this feeling gets me. i wanna build a barrier.

Happy 3rd Month <3

Like you said we are celebrating our 3rd year now woooo! Hahahahahaha!

Time has never passed so quickly with you around. It always felt like we just met when we have to part.

I love your hugs, your texts, your smiles, your teases, this look you always give when you are looking at me, how i can smile and laugh so much with you, the aftereffects of our arguments though we dun argue much these days, how we can just be tgthr without having to fill those silence gaps with words, okay basically everything okay. Hehe. ^^

I love how i can do absolutely everything (okay almost) with you and i can tell you everything and you will just listen without judging and how i talk to you about life and world matters and you can give me your opinions in ways that i nv thought before.

Please faster earn your money and rmb what you are supposed to do 27/28 years later. Keke. You know i love you. ^^(L)

Okay it's alr my bedtime i need to slp now. Baby the best alr yo! Okay bye and nights.

conceited/confident

i think i have erred many times today.
i hate to make mistakes, esp when the consequences affect not only me but people around me. :(
i hate to cause trouble to others.

i find it so hard to draw a line between conceited and confident.
i have no idea whether it's conceit or confidence but i just hate it.
i should stop thinking that i know the right answers and how things are supposed to be done, cause more than often, i am wrong.

am i being kind of negative now? okay yes.
jiale ah jiale.
i wanna tell you that it's okay to make mistakes.
but yet i understand the sucky guilty feeling you get which starts to eat you inside out.
i just feel like i am too conceited.
i need to bring my head from space back down to earth.

thank you for your kind attention

i just want to bring to your attention for a few matters, about the world, about its people who are, sadly, less fortunate than us or having their human rights deprived from them.



first up,
read a post and a video from adeline's blog here.

no one should treat another human this way. i couldn't understand the mentality of the bullies either. yes, you are just kids, but shouldn't kids be innocent and pure and full of kindness? shouldn't them be naive and treat everyone as their friends regardless of anything?

the parents of these kids ought to be educated as well. if this is what your kids become to be, i believe that a big part of the responsibilities lie in the parents.
you educate your kids into how you want them to become. and they learn by following you. if you are a big meanie to your friends and even strangers, this is what your kids will grow up to be. if you are kind and helpful to even an old lady whom you dunoe, your kids will grow up to be a compassionate person. it is how you teach your kids and how you reflect on your kids about how they should behave and act.

these kids ought to be taught a lesson as well. to learn about the wrongdoings of their actions.

next, it's about LGBT rights.

for those who dunoe what it stands for, it means Lesbians, Gays, Bisexuals, and Transexuals. okay hopefully if i din make a mistake. if i did, just search urbandictionary.com okay.

there is this country which might just pass this bill to become a law whereby being gay is a crime. not only a crime, but of death sentence nature. meaning if you are a gay, you committed a crime which will cost your life.

i mean, how ridiculous is this? just cause of your sexuality you are condemned to death. this is too ridiculous for words.

i hope everyone spreads this by signing this petition here.

please do not be afraid to help. no one will judge you. your particulars will be confidential as mentioned on the website. and the particulars they require isn't THAT personal so you don't have to worry okay. :)

lastly, i just want you to watch the video below.

it's about this disabled korean boy who is born without any arms and deficiency in his legs where he has only four toes. look how this little boy survived with strong will using just his two legs and eight toes to survive everyday life.

he has such an optimistic outlook on life which makes me smile with teary eyes. :)

hope you will feel more motivated to get on with your everyday after this video.

Life of a Year 3

it's studying everyday and resisting the urge to open the window and jump out cause you feel like the pile of work on your shoulder just keeps increasing. :(

okay not so serious HAHA i exaggerated a lil~
but i'm definitely not kidding about the pile of work. :D

CURRENTLY I HAVE 8 MODULES, INCLUDING 2 IS MODULES. AND EACH MODULE, THERE IS AT LEAST 2 ASSIGNMENTS/PROJS TO DO WHICH ADD UP TO A TOTAL OF AT LEAST 16 ASSIGNMENTS/PROJS JUST THIS ONE SEM.

life is so good right now. :D

when our RMTR tutor announced that we are going to have to finish this report assignment project for our elearning week which integrates FOUR MODULES - RMTR, TRMK, STMO, and SQTR, i swear my heart started beating damn fast, my blood pressure decreasing until it reaches the new low, my head started spinning faster than a spinning top and i had to hold my head to keep myself from fainting. tears were even forming in my eyes.
and in this paragraph that i just typed, i am not exaggerating. i can LITERALLY feel the stress. :(
you may think 'aiya four modules into one, so easy, since there is only ONE assignment to do.' but HELLO!?!?!? do you even realise the intensity of this assignment?
i'd so much rather do four small assignments then one big one which integrates four modules such that if i screw this up, i pretty much screwed everything else up.



something happy today would be that mrtay came to find me after coming back from batam weeeeeee~

but after listening to his trip over there (BANANA BOAT, JET SKI, PARACHUTE, ALCOHOL PARTY, ETC) I WANNA GO TOO!!! :( but for now, not quite possible. sigh.

kept wailing, yelling, screaming, whining that i wanted to go and why someone who is SOOOOOOO afraid of water is willing to go down to the waters with his friends and not me.. :(
hahahaha okay i'm not that depressed over this, just exaggerating, and i know you will go with me one day okay. rmb what you said cause i will not forget. :D


time for bed soon. goodnight da jia. :)

HAHAHAA. I was thinking since you brick wall got colour, makke it transparent la k, acrylic, even if you drop it, your toe also wont hurt that much HAHAHAHA

HAHAHA then okay lah. not brick wall okay. just a wall full of anything that you use to build. and you ask me at 1111 worrr. hehe.

hello! what do you want to say?

ronnie says if you build a brick wall you cant see each other -_-

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. as in you can walk around the brick wall one ma. aiya erm transparent brick wall that you can walk through okay? HAHAHAHAHA with a door in between HAHAHA.

hello! what do you want to say?

“@ZodiacFacts: With an #Aries,There is no beating around the bush, because to them a spade will always be a spade.”


HMM. i dunoe how true this is for an aries but i know this is true for me, at the very least.

that is why when you talk to me, don't beat around the bush. cause i will never understand.
and this is the reason why people think i am retarded for not being able to get sarcasm and hints etc.

dun draw a spade and expect me to guess that it is wheelbarrow that you are hinting. i will never know/understand. :) thanks. HAHA.

ELECTIONS

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HELLO I AM WATCHING ELECTIONS NOW AS I TYPE HERE HEHEHE.

super active on twitter now cause it's making me so damn high HEHE. i think i can just giggle and laugh with no reasons kekeke.

okay back to the topic.

accompanied clara to Khoo Teck Phuat hospital yesterday (friday) and it's really prettayeee. ade says it looks like a condo but i always felt like it is like a nursing home hahahaha.

while waiting for clara to do her check up, me and ade bought mrbean's icecream and did sculptures of each other HAHAHAHA.

ade's sculpture of me.

and my sculpture of her.

HAHAHA both damn ugly pleaseeee.

walkwalk around northpoint weeee. realised that i have A LOT of things to buyyyy. :( and dinner at pastamania wooooo! ^^ i lub it! forever eating the same thing with our ahleng HAHA.

kind mrtay came to find me after his PARTAYEEE at leonard's hse hahahahaha.

listening to his dinner over at his house makes me jealous. T^T so sumptuous...... :(

anyway since it is mother's day this sunday, i went out with mrtay to buy mother's day gift~~

felt good today about how i look i dunoe why but yipee i feel goooood! ^^

walked around and felt hungry soon since the whole day i only ate one mrbean pancake and the choc balls i bought for mrtayyy~~

and YAYY we dined at,

onomnom it's great kekeke. at least we weren't too disappointed ^^

look at the happy us~~

hehehehe.

din take any pictures of the food cause we were busy eating onomnom. ^^

walked around somemore and shopped WOOHOO!!

finally sat down somewhere cause my legs were breaking wearing heels.

firs''''t i climbed five storeys of stairs up cause i forgot to bring stuffs and had to go back home.

then i climbed the overhead bridge to get to the mrt stn.

then i stood/walked the whole time except for sitting down to eat.

mrtay who knows me well asked me to take pictures of all my loots. HEHE ^^

was trying so hard to make him smile with teeth and YAYYY i succeeded! ^^

and in his hands is a bottle of men's bottle which we both think is nice. ^^ and i bought it for him as 3rd month's present hehe. feel so proud of myself.

retarded kid felt guilty cause he din buy me anything but he always treat me meals incl the sushi tei dinner so it's alright!! ^^

bottles of orange shower gel (technically satsuma) going at 5bucks each (original price: $12.90) since i spent more than $15 there. keke. we each got one weeee!

i feel like some advertiser HEHE.

my seaweed toner and moisturiser~~

yes adeline and clara i bought the seaweed one instead of the aloe vera one heh heh.

hehehe the free bag of goodies i got from body shop ^^

kekeke the perfume i bought from bodyshop for my mum~~

i like the smell!! might secretly use smtimes HAHA.

HAHAHA model of the day got forced to do retarded poses with my body shop membercard!! ^^ membership is free now hehe.

keke my hand looks so smoothhhh. i like. ^^

the girl who served us at bodyshop was really cute and cause i was wearing my heels she looks really short but okay even if i dun wear it she is still shorter so she looks like a kid to me and really cute HAHA but mrtay dun think so. :(
but we kid around with her while we were looking around and asking for her opinions but hehe it's really cute somehow. SHE WORKS IN TAKA BODYSHOP BTW *-*

went to his house and watched abit of elections before his dad sent me home. hehe thanks uncle~~

and we were talking about going overseas since he is going batam and i said that i haven been to citysq before  he asked his dad to bring me there someday and his dad said we can just go this coming wkend. O.O so sudden HAHA.

and his dad even said to bring my sisters along but i doubt they wanna tag along HAHA okay let's see how things go weeeeeeeee~ ^^

totally sian now cause my twitter is over its tweet capacity and i have to wait for a few hours before i can tweet. :(:( sian sian.

TO THE BOY WHO IS GOING TO BATAM EARLY IN THE MORNING SO I GUESS YOU WUN SEE THIS BUT STILL:

please be careful over there you know how worried i am and sorry for thinking too much but you better message me before you leave singapore and tell me immediately when you come back cause i dun wanna worry about you getting robbed there. :( it sounds really dangerous there somehow. BE CAREFUL OKAY. EVEN THOUGH ITS A GROUP OF GUYS. I WILL RMB NOT TO BE SO PARANOID FOR THESE TWO DAYS. LOVE YOU. (L)

Dialogue in the Dark

this is a really interesting experience i had during WISP lesson today.

at the start, i was really afraid. like seriously.

when i told mrtay that i went for DiD, he immediately said that i confirm screamed inside.

okay yes i did HAHA and i was so afraid that i started shivering all over and my knees were all wobbly and i teared for a bit.

tried my best to close my eyes and my eyelids kept shivering omgggg.

okay shall not say what happened cause you are supposed to experience yourself but all i can say that it's quite cool. :D

was talking to mrtay about my experience and his experience.

agreed that we both felt much much fortunate about how we are now, that we can see, have a roof over heads, and have food to eat.

and he said something that made me think.

humans are forever greedy. no matter how fortunate you think you are, there are always people who are more fortunate than you, just like how there are always people who are less fortunate than you.

true true.

this is just human nature i guess.

it takes a million years to convince you to trust in something positive, and yet a second for you to change your mind and believe in something negative.

sigh i have still much to learn about life. too much to learn.

relationships are like brick walls.

At least to me that is.

Building up a r/s is like building brick walls. It takes both parties to make sure that the brick wall dun fall from either side as you keep building.

Not just talking abt romantic r/s but all kinds of r/s, even kinship.


A r/s brick wall has two colours. One colour represents the bricks placed by one party.

I'm the kind of person who both gets close to someone and moves on really quickly. And i have no idea whether it is good or bad.

So when building a r/s with someone, you can see the bricks forming the foundations are mostly mine. Usually thats the case.

But as we grew apart, and you stop putting in bricks, i stopped as well. Selfish? Maybe. Afraid? Most probably.
I guess i am afraid that the brick wall will fall and hurt me just when i'm trying to put more bricks.

And instead of putting more bricks, i tend to take away the bricks and throw them away, one by one, slowly and quietly. Just to see if you will notice.

And if you noticed and start to put in the bricks to replace the ones i threw, you will realise that i would start putting as much bricks as i can carry.

If you don't notice, there will still be a few bricks left.
Just a few that i couldnt bear to take away.
A few that represents all the bits and pieces of memories that are faded and rough.


I am sorry that the cowardly me don't dare to put in any bricks when you are not doing so.
I am sorry that i don't dare to take the initiative of asking you to put some bricks to keep our r/s strong.

I only hope that you can see that even when i'm not putting any bricks that i will forever try and not let the bricks be unattended and someday hurt you.

I hope that you can see the daisies and roses and pretty plants that i am trying to plant on or around the wall to make it pretty and make you happy.

I hope that you know that i love you, as long as we have a brick wall tgthr, even if there is only a few of the bricks left, because to me, that few is still a brick wall, it still is.

why do i get the feeling that i am slowly losing myself?
it's like i'm afraid to walk a path of my own, that i often choose to walk the path of another.
why are my choices so easily influenced by others? regardless of consciously or subconsciously.

as i grow up, i become more and more afraid, instead of becoming braver.
i need strength, within me. yes, i need my own strength to stand up.
i see myself standing up to people, even strangers, when i used to be so afraid of speaking up.
is that strength in me awakening?

jiale ah jiale.
why are you like that?
i really dislike you being like that.
be braver to walk the path that you wanna walk in.
stop feeling awkward when you make a mistake.
just tell yourself, you are only human and this is alright.
take it with a pinch of salt and smile and move on.
do whatever you want.
i trust that you will make the right decisions and choices.
i trust that you are not going to let people down.
you know what you want.
you just have to go out there and try and achieve it.
you are slowly becoming the way you want to be right?
yes, good girl, be more confident.
smile more and you will look prettier.
you have always believed that looks dun come from the outside but inside right? :)
you are right.
have faith in yourself and believe in what you believe. :)
think of all the adorable people who love you and whom you love.
it's okay feeling awkward sometimes and don't know what to do.
it's just a passing feeling.
you will be a capable person in no time.
you are an adult now.
take responsibility of your actions and thinking.
worse comes to worst, you have me, yourself, to depend on.
i will not betray you even if the whole world lets you down.
i will stand by you even if the whole world opposes you.
you have me to count on, for the rest of your life.
you can do it.
what's more you are not alone.
look at mrtay, your family, your friends.
you are an awesome person.
you are gorgeous.
you are beautiful.
stay happy and optimistic.
i love you no matter how ugly you look or how much fats you gain. <3

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO SHAUN!!

WELCOME TO THE CLUB YO!
and it is not an awkward club. -_-
BUT HEHE STAY OPTIMISTIC AND KIND LIKE YOU ARE.
AND DUN BULLY ME ALR :D


btw today lee jia le is in an irritable mood. and i guess it's cause of the bad start in my morning. :(
sighhh but okay all is well all is well.


surprise plan fail. :( nvm i shall make sure it succeeds the next time! ^^


activated my fb again cause my itchy hands wanna stalk ppl HAHAHA.
and yayyy cause fb has always been the main medium between me and mrtay's chats HAHA.
i hope i can help you in any way i can. JIAYOU AH.
and i knew you will be jealous of jonghyun HEHEHE. i dun care you are jealous~~ ^^

HELLO LOVE

i know you are reading this and it's your last exams like just this thursday!

the last theory tests!! i know you can do it! ^^

JIAYOU JIAYOU OKAY (L)!!

you know i love you ^^ and just chiong for the last time okayy!!

must study hard horh and stop playing your DS or DOTA or whatever for just these few days okay! :D

if you pass, i treat you icecream okay! or buffet HAHA up to you to choose.

don't choose too expensive horh. you know i no money T^T

but i try my best okay. HAHAHA.

JIAYOU STUDYING HARD!! (L) YOU KNOW I LOVE YOU.....

just by a little bit. NAHH you know i mean the outside of the tiny bit. HEHE. ^^

I'M ALWAYS WITH YOU HOHO!! :D:D <33333

current favourite gif

this gif is of exploding cuteness that i need someone to hold me while i shake looking at him omgomgomgomg.

OMGOMGOMG CAN YOU SEE THE PERFECTION IN THIS GIF!? OMGOMGOMG WHY SO CUTE HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.




(mrtay dun be jealous i still love you the most ^^)




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look which direction he wanna kiss. HEHE.

i have no idea why but my stomach really hurts so badly that even my hipbone is hurting. and i'm not even exaggerating. :(

today is such a tiring day i dunoe why.


i suppose i finished my resume during trmk tutorial just now so all i need to do now is to print.
yes i din listen in tutorial sigh i suck.

i'm not listening to bcomm right now too.
OKAY I LOVE BCOMM CAUSE OUR WED'S LESSON VENUE WILL BE CHANGED TO 730207 YAYYYY!!
why am i happy? because 73 is a new block WOOHOO TAKE THAT!! ^^

okay back to lessons. bye.

Hi i am a cute pikachu

i can't stop smiling. :')

TODAY IS PROJ DAY!

so basically a stay-at-home choing proj with groupmates day. HAHA.

was totally proud that my study room was able to fit all of us. ^^

though it was rather stuffy in the room. T^T

went over to bukit panjang for dinner with mrtay. ^^

gordon came to find him awhile and he got a white iphone 4 wahh totally prettyyyy!!

though its functions are basically the same but still chio ah chio. *-*

kind me accompanied him for a haircut and HAHAHA he looks like a little boy sitting there.

i always feel afraid when i see the auntie using the shaver cause it seems like it will cut him anytime, though it never did. heh.

anyway HAHA i have a joke to share.

we were walking to the bus stop when we passed by a neighbourhood police post and there is this sign:

HIM: i wanna be a policeman

ME: why?

HIM: because policemen have two girlfriends.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA CAN YOU UNDERSTAND? HAHAHAHA IT'S DAMN FUNNY HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.


and you have no idea how long i took to look for that logo. hahahaha. and btw it is a civil defence logo HOHO. ^^

nowadays i feel like i am strong enough to overcome everything, as long as i have the people i love and who love me with me. which is like all my friends and my family and my bf.
dun have to be physically with me. just mentally will do. and occasionally remind me that you love me? :)

i guess this is good. :)


and i feel like i'm losing weight in a healthy way. ^^
mrtay was pinching my fats and said it became lesser HAHA. okay good i'm becoming a healthy me!
need to exercise more though. keke.

okay time for bed. nights (L)

^^

okay take a look at the post below.

after i answered the qns, tay yin ji was like 'bangkok being the furthest place you have been to isn't smthing you should be proud of.'

-_- YAH!! WANNA DIE!?

okay back to friday night where i met my pri sch dears for dinner. ^^

jer excused himself to go and buy slippers while we head to yishun safra first for some pool.

and so, we waited for jer at the place and he appeared with a cake and they sang me a birthday song and made me open my mouth SUPER WIDE to eat the cake HAHA thank god the cake was small. hehe.

made mryna lam and shaun leong ate the cake too HEHE while jervis quak the idiot cameraman captured lots of unglam pics of us HAHAHA.

hehehe thanks for the belated birthday surprise people. <3<3

the friendship band that shaun made for all of us :')

and mine is so colourful since i like rainbows hehe. ^^

the birthday gift they gave me keke.

they each wrote a page of birthday wishes and i love myrna's the most. with us both on the top of the world and the other two being the emo kids HAHA. so cuteeee! ^^

the last page where they signed off but look at shaun writing '牙' instead of '乐' for the '生日快乐' AHAHA FAILLLLL!!

for yesterday, i wanted to surprise mrtay at bp before he woke up since he was feeling sick!!

but in the end he woke up before i stepped out of my house :( and he wanted to go out so i just met him at bp before heading to plaza sing for a movie. weehee.

WATCHED THOR WAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

bought auntie anne's and beef chili cheese fries and popcorns before heading into the theatre hehe im a happy girl~~

the guy who acted as Thor, Chris Hemsworth was unbelievably hot. *-* HAHAHA.

kept grabbing mrtay to make him look at him. and at the part where he was half-naked, totally *****-***** HAHAHAHAHA!!

natalie portman as chio as always *-* and woohoo i like the action parts which make me tensed up hehe and the graphics were great.

was kind of a little disappointed at the ending since we waited until after the credits thinking that there will be like something where thor and jane finally meets again but there wasnt.

but since there is a sequel, it is quite understandable. hahahahaha. awaiting for the Avengers!!!!! ^^

got back home for awhile as he went for his friend's mac birthday party at my hse downstairs.

HAHA this mac party was the 'reason' why i told clara that i wanted a mac birthday party jokingly and i got my wish. HAHA.

he came up after his party and we headed to his godmum aka his second aunt's hse for her granddaughter's one month old celebration. hahahaha.

since i was kind of an outsider, and though i was afraid at first, i attempted to play with a kid and though she listens to me talk, she refuses to reply me. :(

gave up in the end and just chatted with him and his dad. retarded kid can even mixed up his aunties and dun even know his cousins' names, let alone his nephews and nieces. HAHAHA.

okay maybe he DOES know a few of their names. just like a few.

at least he knows the parents of his cousins HAHAHA.

the catered food was quite nice. ^^ though i din eat much.

thanks to his parents for sending me home. :D

today some pig slept for like 14hours!?!? HAHAHAHA.

went to the new western stall at the coffeeshop near NTUC for lunch to try out their food. hmm mm.

i think astons is more worth it since their food is rather expensive for coffeeshop standards.

and look at poor me being scratched by qiqi. :(

hahaha okay we were just playing around.

today's weather is so hot argh :(:( feel like switching on the aircon.. :/

okay i should go back to do my schoolwork!!! bye people (L)