BAMPGUINS!

stayed over for a night over at clara's for proj and made our handmade products to sell at our ECD bazaar. woohoo! everyone please come down and support us kay!! we will be at ORCHARD SCAPE table number 26 (?) on 22 JAN 2011 and the name of our shop is called fusion de bijoux so MUST come and support okay!

our shop will be selling different handmade accessories, such as necklaces, rings, earrings, and brooches, including those that are made from hama beads and legos and other cute charms! ^^ we will be setting up our fb page/group soon so that you can preorder and we can customise for youuuuuu! only youuuuu~~~ ^^

okay so anywayyyy. i am supposed to be up early tml morning to meet mr tay but ohh well i am kinda in a blogging mood right now hehe soooo this is the post for BAMP! which is clear from the post title hehehe.

FIRST DAY OF BAMP
well this year's BAMP has a theme of 'Heroes VS Villians' and me and benson are leaders of this group called PENGUIN. it may sound like a cute name to you but it is actually a very ugly villian in Batman. :( as you can see from the picture below. ugly man tsk tsk. at first i really tot it was a cute penguin. :(

so anyway my group members consist of (order according to the time they came?) :
ke li, yi hui, zi jian, jin xing, yu xuan, yew wei and alexia.
hahaha. my lovely and sweet groupmates. (L)

anyway had some icebreaking games with them and started the mass games and soon i have to leave for the preparation of nightwalk and left them with benson though i would have loved to stay and bond more with them. :(

prepared the loft rooms for nightwalk to make it scary and creepy for the people but i was super scared myself. :( they wanted to close my room door where i was supposed to be ALONE and i kept saying no cause i was really terrified and my room was the brightest of them all HAHAHA. it had the most candles not counting the lightsticks. im a scaredy cat.

cheryl put on the facepaint for me and drew me to be a scary ghost which in the end i found out was retarded cause they cant really see our faces. -_- and when the nightwalk started all the lights were off and we couldnt see anything at first and when our eyes adapted to it we can actually see quite clearly which is cooooool~

laughed when my penguins AKA bampguins came. first they shined the lightstick at my face and started to all calm down when they realised it's me. even yihui who was screaming and being really scared at first. -_- wad a fail ghost. AND PLUS THEY SDNLY STARTED CHEERING MY SUPER CHUI AND FAILED CHEER.

before the campers came, benson asked me to think of a cheer first. and i just anyhow gave one super lousy one:
PENGUINS AH PENGUINS
PENGUINS AH PENGUINS
PENGUINS AH PENGUINS
SUA!

i have no idea that they knew anything about it and obviously benson was the one who told them cause they edited it to this:
PENGUINS AH PENGUINS
PENGUINS AH PENGUINS
PENGUINS AH PENGUINS
SUA!
JIALE SAY ONE LAH.

and i just started smiling and they shined the lightstick on my face again and was like 'aiya jiale want laugh jiu laugh lah you very unprofessional.' :(:( they were the ones who started cheering out of the middle of nowhere (okay in the room) and the cheer was like a super failed one which i dun even intend to let them know of. T.T but they were super cute hehehe.

was screaming at different people (including zui brave de max who was covering his ears 99.99999% of the time saying 'DUN SCREAM AT ME DUN SCREAM AT ME' though he knows every single one of the 'ghost' -_-)
and got scared by some people. for example GALEN who was wearing the scream mask which looks really scary and he keeps disturbing me by tilting his head and getting closer to my face omg scary and sudden banging intending to scare the campers but ended up i was the only one who jumped in the room. -_- and zhihong who sdnly shouted when he opened the door where i was sitting just outside of it. T.T

pictures time after the whole nightwalk with my dear nightwalk crew as after every group came in we have a few mins break and we would chitchat and lepak for a little while and weiting and roxanne whom i will always talk to while staying in the room when the people are in the living room/kitchen. hehehe.

soon we started walking around the whole apartment while the people are looking around and i started lying on the ground cause i was super tired and yayy heyyy at the end of the nightwalk we din have to clear up but those who are not involved in the nightwalk would have to and we just went to bathe and sleep. lalala~

SECOND DAY OF BAMP
it's the games day and we played some dry games and yay our last member alexia joined us on this day and after lunch it was the wet games. i was super chui in the first game alr and i slid till my knees got scraped. :(

but my members were super sweet and super nice to me hehehe i love them - asking the game masters to stop calling my number for me to slide to grab the soap on the canvas sheet during the dog and bones game and to try their best to smear the butter on themselves so i dun have to smear too much on myself cause i have to carry my bag. though in the end i still got dirty from head to toe HAHAHA.

after the whole games thing which i am lazy to recount every game and i think you wouldnt want to read, me and benson managed to get lynn to take photos of my group cause we were planning a surprise gift for them. after buying stuffs from cheers which my dear bampguins wanna eat/drink for the night, me and benson gave an excuse of buying things for the MCs and left.

the both of us RAN all the way to BTP cause we only had two hours break in which we were supposed to bathe and eat our dinner as well. omg i swear it's damn tiring. ran till we reach the photo shop and asked the uncle to help us print a group photo which we think is the nicest and went to popular to buy the markers to write on the back of the photos. randomly sat at this shop to write after the photos were printed until we got chased out and randomly sat outside of BTP to write.

ran back to the loft again and couldnt run when we were near the loft cause i was having cramps. first day of honghong and she came just before the wet games. -_- luckily i din play those super wet ones. hahaha.
benson went to take our dinner first and we went up to the room where our group and another group (batman) were discussing our campfire perf and asked our penguins out and gave them the photos with our messages. so glad that they were happy with it. :') gave them two empty photos to write for me and benson too. and PLUS benson was leaving straight after campfire. :(

bathed and had dinner while watching the perf preparation going on and soon it was time for CAMPFIRE!! went for the campfire and WOOHOO got high and played different games and cheered super loudly and went really crazy HAHAHA. went to the bampguins room after campfire and we talked and took photos and yayyy i love them (L)

was super tired after that and started stoning and not engaging in their convers. HAHAHA. in the end left when benson left for his other camp in his sec sch and went straight back to my room and bathed and slept. HAHAHA. all the rest like party-ed for the whole night while i was sleeping like a pig.

THIRD AND LAST DAY OF BAMP
met my bampguins and everyone went to the grand stand for the closing ceremony. had some memento game and corrine started telling me about how it is going to be the last camp for society 1011 and there wouldnt be any staying overs at loft, no more htht at night, no more late suppers at timah market, no more joking around and fooling about, no more watching movies tgthr. then she started singing the graduation song 'as we go on, we remember...' and tears just came to my eyes. :(

then we laughed and i stopped crying. went down and realised that i lost my group's mascot - this penguin which we made from trash bag and it is supposed to be our identity and we are supposed to take care of it at all times. :( i tot they werent going to steal it and so i just left it there with my bag but they did. T.T

caused my group a forfeit and felt super guilty but they all said that it's alright. my sweet bunch of bampguins kekeke. we were required to dance and cheer in front of the whole bamp on this bench on the track and so we did but we were like in our own bampguin world and yayy it's fun hehe.

finished all the forfeits for those groups and had a cheer competition which of course ended with a BAMP cheer which everyone cheered in and all the group leaders were just gathering in front of all the campers when corrine reminded me of the last society camp thing and started singing the song again which the rest of society caught on and started to sing. and so yes it was embarrassing but i cried in front of the whole bamp. T.T

stopped and wanted to have a debrief with my bampguins for like some last words after the campbreak when they lied to me and told me the photo they wanted to give me was destroyed by zijian who accidentally spilled cup noodles on. hahahaha.
but they din and they wrote a super sweet message for me. :') and though i dun think that i showed any of my blur side in front of them they wrote that im super blur. -_- but still they said that im super caring which makes my heart meltzxzxzxzxz. HAHAHAHA. i super love them!

then they threw me at one side and went to the other side to discuss smthing and when they came back they surrounded me and started to cheer super loud and i was deafened by them and they made a jiale OEI~ cheer for me hehehe so cute. then they started discussing about throwing me somewhere and sdnly they lifted me and carried me to this trolley which was at the tracks there. HAHAHA omg i was dying and screaming like siao.
they placed me on the trolley and started pushing and running and when they tried to turn i fell out and they apologised and quickly pulled me up and put me back in the trolley and turned slowly this time and ran one round around the court though halfway through i got out and zijian wanted to try and he sat inside and we pushed him instead. HAHAHAHA. my bampguins are just super cute.

after everything, went back to the loft to do some check ups on the loft apartments to make sure that they were left cleaned and tidied with mad and talked to her hehehe. lunched with my SCOs and chatted and yayy i love them all~

all in all, i love bamp and my bampguins and society 1011 which are full of wonderful people yayyheyyy woohooo! ^^ i need some free time to plan a dinner with my bampguins! T.T

A PICTURE OF MY WONDERFUL BAMPGUINS!!

LEFT TO RIGHT STARTING FROM THE TOP ROW:

alexia, ME, zijian, yihui

benson

jinxing, yuxuan, keli

okay im done with my bamp posts and sorry for the lack of photos i had yet to put photos from my camera into my comp yet and i just realised that i have yet to edit my thailand post with photos but im kinda lazy so maybe i will just post them up on facebook only hahahaha so sorry for the wordy posts it's my style heh heh. 

okay time to sleep i am supposed to wake up at like 6plus 7plus tml to meet mr tay yin ji okay goodnight everyone! :D

love makes you blind? ^^

okayyyyy it's hbm tutorial now and im totally not listening. i din do the tutorial too hahahaha. was dead tired when i got home last night.
think i will be doing projs almost EVERYDAY after school like wad i did for the past two days but argh that's our lives. :( we cant do anything about it except wonder why we din start earlier. HAHAHA.

feels like ages since i last blogged. :/:/ been so busy. even clara and ahyi have been complaining that i practically disappeared in the two weeks hols. :(
being caught up with the thai trip and bamp and christmas and countdown and practically did work with them for only like two days. :( i feel super bad alr i will try my best to do more.

okay tutor just asked a volunteer to go up to the board to answer the qns and he asked me to in the end even though he said VOLUNTEER. hahahaha. ok not that i mind. cause luckily that qns wasnt hard HAHAHA and at least i could fill in the blanks and he is nice to point out that i made a small mistake kekeke.

had been rather happy today though i looked tired and even clara asked why i was pulling a long face for almost the whole day. :( but i was tired. but my heart is smiling all along HAHAHA ohmy so cheesy.

just wanna say i thoroughly enjoyed dinner with ahyi and clara last night. hahahaha. laughed like crazy and ahyi laughed till she cried listening to clara and my conver though we found it normal. we are far too lame. HAHAHAHA.

okayyyyy i shall blog soon about BAMP and then countdown and then society 0910 outing~
i just wanna note down impt memories here. heh heh.



sometimes i feel like i want time to stop now. like seriously now. i dun wanna grow older i dun want anything to change i just want everyday in the future to be like now, the present. now somehow feels like the best time i have for quite some time and i dun wanna lose it. i feel more independent than ever. i feel more sure of myself. i feel more confident (despite growing fat HAHAHA) and i feel like i can handle stuffs more and im more certain of my future and where i wanna go somehow. i also feel the happiest now. with every single person in my life now which i want to treasure dearly.
maybe now is the transition of me becoming more of a woman and less of a girl (though i still kinda behave like a child HAHA) but i feel like i can do this. is it cause im reaching the age of 19? noooooo i dun wanna REALLY grow old. and i dun wanna REALLY become a woman. just refusing to leave the comforts of being young and thus always forgiven for the mistakes made and brave through the real cruel society and thus taking responsibility for every single thing that you do. kinda being selfish here. but if i want to, i think that i will be able to. able to take up responsibilities and do work well. i just need to jiayou somemore. :)
and chatting with von during the society outing about our future and the age we wanna get married at. we need to find a partner soon in order to date for like a few years before getting married HAHAHA.
and mr tayyinji is right somehow. the present is the most impt. the past has already passed and there is nothing we can do to alter it. and we shouldnt dwell about the things that we did in the past and let it bring us down or make us feel inferior. the future is unknown and uncertain and there is nothing we can do about it too. even though they always say what you do in the present would alter the future, but you can't exactly predict what chances or opportunities would be presented to you, or what kind of people would come or leave your life then, right?
ahhh i love writing this kind of stuffs. make me feel like i understand life better. and it's like im being more real to myself and people around me. and i will feel a little deeper about stuffs. or maybe im actually a really shallow kid who just thinks too much? but every single trivial thing that people says to me somehow matters. and i do spend time thinking about it. be it compliments or criticism. we should always try and improve ourselves and become the best person in the world. and by the best person i don't mean like the most successful person or wad. though that is somehow impt as well. but more imptly, we should become the nicest, kindest and the most real person. everyone has faults, such as being selfish, conceited, greedy, short tempered etc. but we should try and minimise these faults as much as possible so as to become the best person. at least thats what i think. which is certainly not what everyone thinks. and thats why there are people who crave for power, authority and money and would do any kind of underhand means in order to achieve them.

THAILAND BANGKOK TRIP

i shall try my best to write as much as i can rmb. hahaha. pics will be up the next time? hahaha shall edit this post again with pics. hehe.

FIRST DAY:
okay woke up in the morning and dad's friend drove us to the airport. was freaking excited okay. my first flight. kekeke. super tired though.

checked in and when we went inside the plane omg it was like what i watched on tv. when the plane started to move OMG OMG OMG i was like whispering fuck like crazy cause i was super excited and i kept grabbing jiamin HAHAHA.

the feeling of flying is so cool. like free fall. looking outside of the window looking at everything becoming smaller. having ear blocks which i din knew or realise until my ears were cleared. had chicken noodles which wasnt as bad as i expected. though the tv resolution was rather bad HAHAHA.

had to wait awhile at the airport for the van to drive us to the hotel and checked in and we went to shop and had dinner at this scammer seafood restaurant cause the meal ended up to be really expensive. :( but sat tuktuk for the first time and woohoo i felt like i was in some drama HAHAHA.

SECOND DAY:
had this half day tour which we went to lots of places which i shall edit with pictures cause im kinda lazy to rmb and write down etc. hahaha.

went to the chinatown there afterwards. which is also known as yaowarat. had lunch at this roadside stall place and walked until we were tired and went back to the hotel to rest. went for a massage in the evening and dinner after that~~

THIRD DAY:
had breakfast and went for some shopping and walked all the way to this siam centre place for lunch. went to MBK for some shopping and the stuffs there are more expensive as compared to platinum mall which is near our hotel and also where we shop the most.

OHHH AND ONLY MY MUM AND ME WENT TO TAKE THE TRAIN THERE WHICH IS ALSO KNOWN AS BTS which i assume as Bangkok Train Station. hahahaha. cause we stayed to shop at MBK and my dad two sis and ahma went back first and they took taxi. the ppl there were really orderly as compared to singaporeans taking MRT. hahaha. back to hotel and went out for dinner~

FOURTH AND LAST DAY:
had breakfast and quickly went to platinum mall for some shopping and back to the hotel to check out :( time passes really quickly. went for some massage again and had some last minute shopping before going to the airport and flew back here to singapore. hahaha. time passes quickly~

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

yes it's the second day of 2011 ALREADY. omg. i cant even believe that 2011 is here and now. :/:/ it is just so weird. AND EVEN MORE WEIRD to say that HELLO I AM 19 YEARS OLD THIS YEAR. okay i feel so old now :/

AND NOW I HAVE AN IMPOSSIBLE NEW YEAR RESOLUTION: to never grow old.
ohh and our LEE family has a common new year resolution now: save money everyday to pay for own overseas trip in year end.
kekeke jiayou ba.

ohh and i still have my thai trip and bamp posts to work on. :/ and also countdown and society 0910 outing. omgggg no timeeee.

BUT ANYWAYYY HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONEEEE!!! ^^

SHALL UPDATE AGAIN SOON!!
I WISH EVERYONE WELL IN THIS NEW YEAR AND MAY EVERYONE EARN LOTS OF MONEY AND GET GREAT RESULTS KAY! LOVE YOU FOREVER!! ^^



you are sweet in your own way which brings a smile to my face.

lele, I will see you on the first day of 2011 ((:

YESSSSS!! hehehehe. omg this is kind of meaningful hehehe. ^^

hello! what do you want to say?

You want a new camera? YOU CHOSE YOUR OWN CAMERA! JIA MIN ZAI CI

i want a new oneeeeeeeeee you buy me one ah hahahahaha

hello! what do you want to say?

Why is your temper so short?

because im born like that? hahahahahahahaha. i think my temper already improved compared to last time. and my anger comes and go quickly whatttttttttttt. so it's alright wahahahaha

hello! what do you want to say?

you were wrong.

it din do me any good in the long term. it just made me feel so much harder to trust another. i climbed up on my own with some help from friends. but the scars never thoroughly healed. it needs more time. and i have no idea how long.

on a side note, i am glad that i am not forgotten and you are still an important friend to me who feels like a big brother. :) and thank you for supporting me. ^^ heh heh.

i am holding back so much.

i am supposed to rush my report nowww which is due like TOMORROW. -_- so going to be late for bamp later but argh i can't help it. :/ and i need to bring my laptop there for projects ohmytian wad is life. hope i wun be too awkward later carrying loads of stuffs up the bus and down the bus. :/

it's going to be end of the year soon. this whole year has been REALLY happy/sad for me. had wonderful memories as well as unhappy ones. laughed till i cried and i cried till i laughed. it's always a cycle isnt it. life is a weird cycle which operates in the most magical way.

i dun deny that i have changed. people grow and change as life goes on and time passes. not that i dislike the change? but i suppose i just have to deal with it and get adapted and stop wanting to go back to the past. cause it's quite quite impossible.

feel like i have not been sharing about my innermost feelings with my closest darlings for the longest time. i dunoe wad to say. i cant exactly express how i feel. it just bottles up and i guess i have about a million bottles filled with emotions and thoughts now.

people usually think that i am a good speaker? just cause i am such a talkative chatterbox. but that's not quite true? i am someone who cant really express how i feel. you have to observe and if you are lucky, you might be able to guess it correctly.

i do try and say how i feel sometimes. but it's just like no matter how you try and phrase it, it's not the exact words in your heart and you just get stuck and stop there like you haven say anything at all.

it's also scary how the way people view you. esp your friends. people says that those who mind dun matter but those who matter dun mind. this isn't really true? cause sometimes those who matter do mind. so much more than those who dun matter. it hurts to see the way they view you isnt quite the real you. or perhaps you are the one confused with who is the real you?
who knows better about yourself? you or others? certainly you. you are the one who have all the memories of yourself and keeps all those tiny and huge secrets in your heart and have those indecent and shameful thoughts in your mind that noone knows of, or fully knows of.
since you know yourself best, then why care about people who judge you and everything? because they matter. they matter cause you never know when they are going to join in your life and when they are going to leave. so you are just trying to treasure every single person the best way you can, no matter whether you know them or not.

and sometimes, the people closest to you judge the most, more than you can even imagine.
no one would be 100% satisfied with another, as everyone has different faults and weaknesses.
but let it go, let people make their own mistakes, even if you know they will get hurt. you can't be there for them forever. it's just a little life lesson they have to learn from, or else they might get even more hurt in the future. they need to struggle before being able to be independent. it doesn't mean that you dun care or you are nonchalant. it just means that you care and love them enough to let them go and have their own life. you may give advices, but never try and control anyone's life the way you want them to lead with the reason of caring.

i know how to make the right decisions and choices. and even if i do make wrong ones, i learn from them and not commit those mistakes again in the future. i am not a little girl anymore. i am already 18. everyone might think that i am still a child and is naive and blur and gets conned easily but im really not one anymore. let me be independent and grow and not keep me behind your shield. i need no protection. i can protect myself so much more better. if not now, in the future, i am sure i can.




to a certain someone: you make me smile more than i thought i could. thank you so much. :)


to another certain someone: you told me to trust that you would stay and that i never trusted the wrong person. but how do i maintain this trust? i really dunoe. teach me.


on a random note, i miss my girls so much.

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!

(EDITED)
I WANTED TO WISH EVERYONE MERRY CHRISTMAS on christmas day itself but it's past 12mn now. :(:( but anywayyy. I AM BACK FROM MY THAILAND TRIP KEKE will update asap about the trip but i am kinda busy this holiday.. :/

okkkk so anywayyyyy let me blog about wad happened these two days yayyyy. was back on 23rd but past midnight so technically i reached sg on like 24th hahaha.

woke up super early on 24th morning and mr tay yin ji was booking out early so we went out to town. that idiot was late. ok nvm i understand he was rushing alr i am a nice friend wahahahaha.

walked from plaza sing to cathay and back to plaza sing to check on the movie timings. :( super hot and tired okkkkk. eventually bought tix at plaza sing for Meet the Parents: The Little Fockers it's so cute and funny kekeke i lub the show heh heh. they are such a cute familyyyyy!!

ohhohhh ate at ajisen before the movies. hoho finally curbed my cravings for my hokkaido scallops ramen which was started by clara owyong HAHAHA. happy happyyyy!!

anyway walked around and chitchatted and went to my ahma house after that. hoho it's christmas eve and my grandma's lunar birthday! ^^ had buffet dinner and celebrated her birthday kekeke. SHE IS 82 YEARS OLD ALR!! AH MA MAY YOU LIVE SUPER SUPER LONGGGGG!!

it was super crowded but hahaha chithchatted and caught up with cousins. ^^ happy happy i like kekeke.

AND TODAY (or technically ytd..) MORNING went to dhoby ghaut with yinji AGAIN. HAHAHA. retarded max. was like too early? nowhere was open and just settled down at some random stall to eat.

walked around and went to play pool hahaha. i won one round out of the three (?) rounds we played yayyy. he is not that good waddd. but ok fine better than me. and i won one round cause we switched the striped and solid balls halfway through cause i was left with 5 striped and him 2 solid nearing the end. -_- nvm if you dun understand HAHAHA.
and he has been paying for alot of the stuffs. T.T feel super guilty but he says that i am weird for wanting to return him the money. -_- he is the weird one.

slacked around and played spot the difference game and went off to orchard to meet hyrah and ahyi! had gogo cause we were all hungry and started to walk around town and shopped around heh heh. had burger king at cine and went to 313 to shop and went back home before the crowd starts to gather at the bus stop. hahaha.

ohhh and met yeekhang on the way home and chatted with him while i was shivering and my teeth was chattering all the way cause the bus was freaking cold HAHAHA.



so do you actually mind that much?

SAW THIS AT MY SIS BLOG.

YES HERE THIS BLOG POST HERE. READ IT.

btw even though she has two sis the sis that she is talking about in her blog post is ME.
CAUSE OUR FREAKING YOUNGEST SIS ACTUALLY BOARDED THE PLANE TWICE ALR.
YES TWICE WHEN BOTH HER OLDER SISTERS (US) HAVE YET TO BOARD A PLANE BEFORE.

ok and yes now i finally find out the reason behind the sudden trip to thailand. FML ok.
no more overseas trip till 271263871263921847219746129847739461297836123 years.
i shall earn my own keep and go overseas myself. kamsahamida.

AND I GUESS IT MEANS NO MORE OVERSEAS INTERNSHIP HAHAHAHAHAHA.
no i am not laughing. it's sarcasm if you haven detect it yet. -_-
ohh heyyyy jobs in airport and RWS and MBS. please kindly take in the pitiful me. HAH.

and to think that i found so much excuses for you. i think YOU are the biggest spendthrift in the family.
QUIT SMOKING IF WE ARE REALLY SO POOR.
YOUR CIGARETTES COST SO MUCH MORE THAN THE SUM OF THE TOTAL COSTS OF ALL MY CLOTHES TYVM.

in a kinda grumpy and pissy mood now. ignore me if you may. doesnt concern anyone anyway. it's just my problem and my family problem. not like anyone could help. not like it ever got better. not like i ever felt better.
i so wanna earn my own money. i shall be so independent and not depend on anyone. not even my future boyfriend/husband. i will earn lots of money and not let my children/parents/family worry about anything. i need to work so much harder right now.

flying off tomorrow!!

darlings and dearies,
i am going to fly off to khun's home country thailand tml! hahahaha. shall be away for like four days. earliest day that i would probably blog is on friday and i have a family christmas cum grandma's birthday celebration that day. heh heh.

i would miss so many of my girls. :( though it's only like four days. but it's still weird not having them around me for like EVERYDAY. :/
shall buy lots of goodies okkk! by goodies i mean presents! that shall be your christmas presents so dun ask for more HAHAHA. but provided that i find pretty things k! ^^

i feel so lost right now. :/ it's my first plane trip tml i am supposed to feel YAYYY OMGGG WOOHOOOO but no i dun exactly feel any of those. :/ maybe cause i haven seen it yet. perhaps the excitement will build up tml. hahaha. feeling kind of awkward now. :/ i have no idea wad to pack and my luggage looks so freaking empty now. :/

anyway i had a great time at the sentosa with my girls (hyrah xueli ahyi mel and cheryl) as xueli's birthday celebration. hope you my darling xueli enjoyed yourself. :) sorry for the not-so-good planning but we really hope you had a great time. :) i lub you my chopear. you know i always do. hehehe (L)
dinner at pizzahut left me freaking full like until now. :/ and they went to bar for some drinks while i have to leave home to prepare my bag for tml. :(

anywayyyyy i thought that my flight was at 12plus. and i just found out that it's like at 7plus in the morning. :( omg wad a huge difference. i have to wake up in like a few hours' time and i haven even finish packing my bag and i dun even know wad to pack. :/ argh random rantings now.

shall reach singapore only after midnight on thurs. meaning fri in a way. shall not forget to msg my dears about me flying off and after i reach sg. hehehe. to tell them that i am safe. shall bring my phone along and off all 3g connections hahahaha. hope me and my family will reach there safely and back. :)

i will definitely miss my girls and friends and my bolster and pillow. :( ok it's just four days right! i will enjoy myself thoroughly. provided that my mum doesnt irritate me. HAHAHA.

take good care of yourself while i am gone ok. i wanna see everyone as happy as they are before i left when i come back. ^^ love all of you with all my heart. (L)

many love and hugs and kisses,
from your loveliest and cutest jiale. ^^

HOLIDAYYYYY!

HELLO IT'S THE HOLIDAYS NOWWWWW!! ^^

im feeling sleepy now and im gonna sleep after this post so i shall try and make it a short and sweet one. hahahaha.

ok so we had common tests and theres nothing special which happened? hahahaha. it's just a normal common test and stay at home week. :(

but anywayyyyy on the last day of my common test which is friday, i went to spa with my girlsssss!! ahyi clara hyrah mel and cheryl. hahahaha. finally had my massage. though im still not satisfied now. :( should have exchanged masseurs with clara ah.

btw did massage with clara we felt freaking exposed having to strip to nothing but panties. :( hahahaha and half of our butts are exposed during the massage. should have worn a nicer panty HAHAHAHA.

went over to westmall to grab a bite. i dunoe why we went so far hahahaha but anywayyyy went to cityhall to meet mr tay yin ji. went to pastamania to eat yayyyy to curb my pasta cravings hehehe.

got kinda lost ytd and he just led the way. hahahaha. and he was right! damn li hai ah. walked from suntec to marina sq to esplanade to the merlion place to clarke quay. hahahaha. walked places which we never walked before and chitchatted the way.

yayyyyy hahaha i lub the sea breeze though we were freaking cold and it's actually a river HAHAHA. goosebumps kept appearing on our arms and even the water is shivering hahahaha! yayyyy!!

going to thailand on monday and going to celebrate xueli's birthday tml (sunday)!!! ^^ yayy will bring pretty presents back for my darlings provided that i find nice ones k! ^^




i like you for who you are. so just be yourself.

aloha alohaaaaaaa!!

HEY YO HEHEHE I AM BACKKKK!

TLAW IS OVER OMG WOOHOO YAYYY HEYYYYY!! SUPER HAPPY!
think i did alright though. ^^ din do that badly. at least i din crap as much as i tot i would. keke. but this is only the first paper. :( there is still another paper tml but i feel like it's the end of CTs alr. :( three more papers to go!

btwwwww. was a 'good' kid during the weekends trying hard to study but of course i failed. HAHAHA. only managed to study properly ytd and this morning. :/
anywayyyy i went to THE NEW SHOPPING CENTRE NEX AT SERANGOON ON SAT MORNING HAHAHAHAHA

went with mr tay yin ji hahahaha the shopping mall was quite big? wore heels cause of the super tall guy and ate lunch and walked around and chitchatted and went to see the SUPER CUTE hamsters at the pet safari shop but there are no puppies. :(

he asked me wad name i would give my hamster if i had one and i replied 'ham ham' and he laughed. -_- and said i might as well call it 'hamburger' or something. retarded.
went to arcade to play the 'spot the difference' game again yayy i like. he was super pro and kept laughing at my 'slowness' :( and to think that he dun usually play that game. wts.

went to watch harry potter which was the main thing.
YAYYYY I SAW HARRY AND GINNY KISSED HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
as freaked out at so many moments throughout the movie and he was comforting and laughing at me at the same time. thanks ah. -_-
but the effects were REALLLLLYYYYYY GOOOD and if you were to watch it in 3D i think you wun regret it.

went home after the movies cause he gotta go meet his friends and i need to go home to study. :( sad life ah. and thanks for sending me to khatib!
btw almost fell walking down the stairs cause i missed a step cause i wasnt looking i was staring at some other ppl and i almost sprained my ankle cause i was wearing heels. :( shall only wear heels during some celebration in the future.




OKAYYYYYY BACK TO STUDYING GOODBYEEEE!

if Aaron is studying, so can u, surely, lolol

HAHAHAHA!! aaron is studying!?!? i am dyingggggg! come save me! BTW ni shi na yi ge ah? hahahahaha!

hello! what do you want to say?

HELLO NI HAO

I AM SUPPOSED TO BE STUDYING FOR MY CTs BUT HAIYA SO LAZYYYYYY! :(
well nothing much on my life? just going to school and going home everyday hahahahaha.



OHH YAR AND MY SIS WENT TO WATCH HARRY POTTER ALONE WITHOUT ME! >:( I TOT WE WERE SUPPOSED TO GO TGTHR! >:( sad ttm. LEE JIA MIN I AM SO SO SO SO SO SAD!! :(

but yayy mr yinji says he will go watch with me. i wanna see harry and ginny kiss. i wanna see ron and hermione kiss. HEHEHEHE. though i dun think they did in part 1 hahaha but it's a MUST to watch part 1 if i wanna watch part 2 and 3 and so on!



ohhohh ate macs ytd and I WANNA TRY SAMURAI BURGER BY MYSELF wahahahahaha. tried adeer's and it tastes quite nice and tender kekeke.



anyway went running alone this morning. :( noone wanna go running with me. :( asked my mum but it wasnt convenient for her and asked my sis but she dun want to. :( i no like running alone. but today's weather is really cooling and nice for running hohoho!



I AM RESISTING THE URGE TO GO TUMBLR! I SHALL NOT TUMBLR CAUSE I KNOW ONCE I START IT WILL NEVER END. but thats how far my self discipline can go. :( i cant make myself study. argh sad life. :(



JIAYOU EVERYONE WHO IS STUDYING FOR THE CTs!! ^^

(L)(L) it'll be a good change kay :3 (L)

hahaha ok hope it'll be a good change haha just saw this. ^^ love you!

hello! what do you want to say?

HAHAHHAHAA. I JUST READ YOUR 6DEC POST. YES YOU ARE VERY NICE TO DO THAT WHEEE (Y) BUT WHAT WERE YOU DOING BEHIND? HAHHAHHAA!

HAHAHA i was just using my laptop then i was super bored and so i started playing with my phone HAHAHAHAHA!

hello! what do you want to say?

maybe maybe.

it's time not to hope and think and be alone for awhile. i am weird i am awkward i cant argh. it's so hard. so hard but argh. why am i like this? :(

what's wrong with some teachers!?

the lecturer asked ade what's wrong with her hair cause she is playing with it. and ade just replied there is nothing and the lecturer said you are playing with your own hair!? hello YOU not playing with your own hair doesnt mean that others cant play with theirs right!?

sorry i am so agitated cause i really DUN LIKE ppl who pin point others like that. and the whole LT laughed ok. this sucks ok. dun pick on ppl when they did nothing ok MISS LECTURER. i dun even know your name and i dun care. >:(

this reminded me of once when i got pin pointed by this teacher of mine. AND I HATE IT. i was young. p4. and it was during a test. i alr finished my paper and was feeling bored. and so i took out my pens to play. DUN YOU EVER PLAY WITH PENS!? at least me and sister do ok! like pretending they are dolls and gave them roles like mama, papa, brothers, sisters, etc. this is called IMAGINATION AND CREATIVITY.

THEN THE TEACHER SAW ME PLAYING AND SHE JUST SHOUTED IN THE MIDDLE OF THE TEST WHILE POINTING AT ME: "LOOK AT HER SHE IS CRAZY SHE IS PLAYING WITH HER PENS."

I WILL NEVER FORGOT THAT INSTANT WHEN I GOT SURPRISED AND LOOK UP AT YOU WITH YOUR BEWILDERED EXPRESSION AND WITH THE WHOLE CLASS TURNING TO STARE AT ME LIKE I AM A FREAK.

you are not a good teacher. i never liked you and will never do. though this is retarded but you gave me traumas you can never imagine. you destroyed all my imagination and creativity until i grew old enough to know that you are the one at fault.

stop pin pointing ppl esp in front of a big group of ppl. you dun understand the hurt you are bringing to him/her.

OUR KITTY TOEEE!

HELLO I AM BACK ONCE AGAIN HAHAHAHA OMG I AM HERE TO PRAISE OUR ADELINE TOH YING YING FOR SAVING US (ME AND HYRAH) FROM THE DEADLY HANDS OF OUR LECTURER HAHAHAHAHAHA.

seeeeeee i am such a nice friend to praise and comment on you here hahahaha! ^^ love you many many!

ok so anyway me and hyrah went to print our cover page/reflections due today even though it was time for our 2pm lecture cause the staff area closes at 4pm cause of staff meeting, meaning that we can't submit our reflections after that time.

came to lecture late. and being afraid that the lecturer would 'blacklist' us we slid into the lecture and hid at the back of the LT hahahahaha! and the lecturer saw the opened door and dear ade said that those people probably came into the worng lecture. hehehehehe. love you many many.

btw just wanna say. I NO LIKE THIS LECTURE! drags the lecture farrrrr toooooooo loooooooonnnnnnnngggggggg!! :( make the whole thing so draggy and boring. :( argh argh. so bored that i am starting to camwhore. :(


you should stop appearing in my mind too often. what has become of me!? :(

^^ ^^ ^^ ^^ ^^ ^^

i am supposed to be doing my dance reflection now but i feel really lazy and this sucks i shouldnt be like that i should be more hardworking. everyone around me is working hard so why cant i do the same? :/

constantly reminding myself to be a happy girl. nothing unhappy is happening, just that some things which happened upset me. kinda being too sensitive. shouldnt think so much. where did the happy go lucky jiale go? :/

pasar malam with ahtao. though it was a short 'gathering' but i feel kind of sad for him. he sort of feels lonely. :( but so far he seems like the most slack ns man i know though hahahaha.

please be a good kid and mum just stop pms-ing. :/

dun you come and confuse me.

NARNIA IS NICE KEKE.

HELLO THE TIME NOW IS 1111 AND IT PROBABLY WUN BE 1111 WHEN I POST THIS SO I WISH THAT MY WISH WILL COME TRUE YAY!

ok btw went to see 2pm with clara ytd and yes they are cute omg esp nichkhun and wooyoung kekeke. i am a biased woman yes i know oh i dun care.

before going to see 2pm we went to clara's hse cause she wanna leave her laptop there and watched mubank and omg my dearies (jonghyun and kikwang) is so freaking gorgeous and i was dying but ok i survived. :')

and before going to clara's house we went to the airport and with hyrah and her sis to fetch mblaq 2pm and miss a hahahaha. i was there with a mood of erm i dunoe? not exactly excited since i dun really stan these bands hahaha.

ohh and after the whole 2pm event which lasted for like less than half an hour -_- we went to walk around and we saw cute shoes and wanna buy them but no size for me and clara couldnt find wad she wanted. :/ so went to lot 1!!

she bought her shoes at cotton on while i bought mine at bata. YES BUY AND THROW AWAY HAHAHAHA. but STILL the brand is north star and thats the reason why i bought it. since it's north star it shouldnt be too bad right!? hahahaha! and it's a pretty nautical sailor kind of shoes as seen below kekeke. wanted another pretty boat shoe at first which i saw but there wasnt any stock for me. :(

yayyy wore it out today!! hehehe. totally happy with new shoes hehehe. shall wear it everyday! ^^ anyway out with yinji hahahaha it was funny and for the whole day i was talking 90% of the time. thanks for making me seem like a noisy person. -_-

he keeps claiming that he is some introvert while suan-ing me 90% of the time while i was talking. great job ah. -_- hahahaha but still it was rather fun even though there was nothing to walk at amk hub. :/

watched narnia and it was WOOHOO i like like HOHO and i kept squealing SO CUTE when the mouse came out and at some of the sweet parts hehehe. and i actually cried at the ending part when [BEWARE: SPOILER] azlan told lucy and edmund that they can never go back to narnia ever again. T.T

just rewatched the second part of narnia not long ago when azlan told susan and peter that they can never go back and sdnly now edmund and lucy cant go back to narnia too!?!? :(:( super sad ok. though their cousin eustace [the both of us kept pronouncing his name as 'useless' cause he is really useless HAHAHA and we couldnt really catch the actual name with their accent and yes i googled the name] could still go back but still. most of the time the cousin was a dragon. HAHAHAHA. ok just watch it ok.

btw yinji laughed at me cause i cried. -_- and said that i was probably the only one who cried in the whole theatre. FINE. :( but i really liked the movie. once again, WATCH IT!!

btw played spot the difference game in the arcade while waiting for the movie. :') got reminded of the times when the rest go and play other machines in the arcade while me and dear ahbe played this game together. :') and in the end everyone just joins in and there are so many pairs of eyes helping us to find the difference and i remembered once we got first and got to write our names. hehehehe. good old times. (L)

was walking aimlessly and randomly on the streets of amk while just plainly chitchatting and eventually settled down at some playground hahahaha. there is really nothing to walk at amk. :( perhaps cause i am too familiar with the place. hahaha!

dinner at sumohouse. totally reminded me of my sec sch days. regardless happy or unhappy. i was an amk kid during sec sch days ok. hahahaha! those days. :') precious memories no matter wad and helping me grow up. :D nostalgia. heh heh.

btw thank you yinji for borrowing the bball though you were the one who felt like playing and though we only shot a few hoops heh heh heh cause i really missed bball alot. T.T and i always felt envious looking at those ppl playing everytime i go home/sch/out. :):) and thanks for sending me home hahahaha though it was cause you were bored or smthing.

and clara called me telling me about wad happened in mnet. OMG. beast my dearies i will go see you guys next time. MONEY MONEY KUAI KUAI LAI~~ HAHAHAHA!

BTW I SDNLY JUST REMEMBERED I HAVEN PAID HIM THE MONEY FOR THE MOVIES. -_- THAT RETARDED BOY SAYS THE TIX COSTS 99BUCKS HE IS CRAZY. -_-

friends.

had some thoughts about my friends.

before getting into poly, i mostly mixed with my bball peeps, who are mostly guys.
and after getting into poly, my clique consist of mainly girls, or should i say, there are only girls.

somehow there is a very big distinct difference between guy friends and girl friends. to me, that is. sad to say, i prefer guy friends. hahahaha. no offence but yup that's the truth.

writing everything about how i feel here would most probably make people feel weird. so.. hahahahaha. too used to being around guys i suppose. my best friend is also a guy. and i grew up with guys. as in i DO have girl friends in the past too but just that when i was young i played and grew up with my guy cousins. hahahaha.

i tend to rely on guy friends more, and they tend to rely on you less, and always seem easier to understand as compared to girls. not cause i am a flirt. it might be a slight differentiation to you, but nevertheless the differences are there, and i din write all that i feel down.

i just need to adapt and get used to having girl friends so much more. :/ it seemed much easier when i was young though.

IMMA HAPPY GIRL!

mood swings are really scary and serious. HAHAHA. i can be unhappy in a moment and unhappy in the next. but hopefully i will maintain my high and happy mood for a LONG LONG time. HOHOHO.

btw TODAY IS A REAL HAPPY DAY cause i met limguowei my dear friend for lunch in the morning! ok it's called morning lunch okkk. his lunch break is too early. HAHA. great chitchats and ate at canteen 4. heh heh. happy happy.

he accompanied me to atrium to buy clara's lunch toooooo! ^^ limguowei the best okkk! :D stop asking me to bring _ to meet you. :( you go find _ yourself! HAHA!

went to town after school with my girls. ^^ ahyi din go cause she was having diarrhea. take care my yiyi! haha! went to wisma starbucks for the FREE drink HEHEHE. I DONATED TO THE SALVATION ARMY OK! ^^ had caramel frappe hoho.

had kfc for dinner cause of our cheesy cravings (cheese fries). walked around too and my girls never fail to make my day happy with their retarded-ness and random chats. hehe. went to heeren too and bought my radiation plating sticker keke.

I HAD A GREAT DAY TODAY!! JEALOUS!? DUN BE CAUSE I AM YOUR FRIEND TOO! HAHAHA! <3333333!! :D:D

i no like cramps.

had severe cramps and went home early. :( sorry peeps. feel a little guilty not going for the bidding thing with you guys. :( was hurting till my goosebumps kept coming out. almost died. luckily i was able to make my way home. hahahaha.

btw mummy ate my durian strudel! :( was ranting like crazy cause i was really looking forward to my strudel but told myself to rein my temper though i really wanted to go on scolding. :( but it's ok! cause mummy cooked me fried seaweed chicken HOHOHO. though i was the one who asked for it. hehe.

sincerely feel that a woman/girl's mood swing and temperamental is really scary. could actually feel the changes of my mood going up and down nonstop throughout. :/ need to change my idiotic and scary temper hahahahaha. though i think that my temper has alr improved heh heh. jiayou ba! :)

HOI HOI!

bought apple strudels for my sisters and durian strudel for myself. heh heh. feel like a good sister nowadays. since like on last sat i just bought them a starbucks tumbler each. ^^ it feels nice to buy things for them somehow. feels nice to be a good sister. heh heh. i like.

AND THIS MEANS I NEED TO SCRIMP MORE ON MYSELF THIS WEEK ALR! feel like buying durian strudel for lim guo wei our ultimate durian lover though. hahahaha. but the transportation ahhhh. :( dunoe how to give him. ok i shall see kekekeke.

OK HOMEWORK TIME! GOODBYE!

suddenly.

i feel like crying now. tears are already coming up. if you are my friend, dun ask anything. dun ask if i am fine. i dun want you to ask. i dun like showing my vulnerability. i am a weird person. i just wanna vent here.

fuck i am becoming such a vulgar person. fuck comes out of my mouth so easily now. i am keeping so much things to myself. i dun smile as much. i dun go crazy as much. i am becoming someone whom i dun even know. i dun even understand. arghhhh. i hate myself i hate myself.

i was so cheerful. i was so happy. i was so high and crazy and could laugh at even the smallest things. i was so innocent and gullible that i get cheated by the smallest things. i was so childish and naive and had the wildest imagination which made me feel happy thinking about it.

but all has changed.

TDM LECTURE

having tdm lecture now and i am oh so bored. :( i no like the teacher's accent. tumbled wadever i can tumblr, read wadever blogs that i can read, finished all my milo, watched all the vids that i wanna watch. EHH WAIT A MINUTE. i can go continue watching my kimtakgu now HAHAHAHA. ok goodbye folks!

BOLLYWOOD BOING BOING!

weehee back with a blast BOMB BOMB kekeke.

my sis jiamin sdnly just asked me if i remembered the storybook we used to have titled 'ice queen'. i do remember it and i swear it is the storybook i hated the most since i was young. ok this is random but yar i really hate this book. and in fact i am a little scared of that stupid ice queen. :( read the book if you have the chance. hahaha. i hated the story the most. :(

ok back to the blast today hohoho. dinner with my dear girls in marina sq before going to esplanade for our bollywood dance workshop. deemed it as a waste of our time and money but it was really fun. hahaha. laughed and smiled lots doing all the crazy dancesteps though it was freaking tiring.

walking around the place after the workshop and omg i cant believe we actually stayed to watch HI-5 live performance in marina sq HAHAHA. and GUESS WHO WE SPOTTED!? we spotted our last sem's lecturer low hann ming in the audience right in front of the stage. hahahaha!! he was with his children and wife. sweet husband and dad. :')

ok some random narcissist photo spam hehehehe.

i am in some kind of retarded mood today hahahaha. sort of moody somehow. i have no idea why. ok i do have an idea why but i am just refusing to admit to it. :/ you can call it lying to myself but i dun care.



you are this weird person who i can't get rid of. though i am not trying to. cause i dun want to. i never want to.

kekeke.

hello i am back and it's the fourth blog post today? but it will most probably end up getting recorded on the saturday date since it's alr past 12mn hahahaha. so anyway walked around in town with ahyi and hyrah today and went for the interview which is more like a briefing?

anyway walked around looking at all those pretty things and omg i really need the money to buy them. :( nvm i shall go thailand buy more chio stuffs in dec kekeke. and i am also going to work soon! yay! ^^

btw there is this really funny blog which i would like to intro to all of you cause i have been laughing at it since this afternn. the guy who wrote this is really smart i think. and really funny. hahahaha. it's cute so go read it!! hahaha!!

btw i dun think i would be blogging my daily life everyday alr? which is wad i have been doing cause i am getting bored at my mundane life. hahahaha. would only blog if there is anything interesting that i find interesting though you might not necessarily find interesting but i dun really care unless you are one of my loves kekeke.

anyway i really feel like buying that chio blue liquid eyeliner from mac but then i would have to start to practice using it hahahaha. money money please drop from the skyyyy. ok not possible. -_- i am becoming increasingly vain but ohh well I AM A GIRL SO wahahahahaha i dun care. smile and go on with life girl yay be a happy girl!



isit just me being paranoia but i am feeling weirder and weirder as time passes. would we even stop talking? i am afraid of the arrival of that day. :(

i guess i just have to.

i need to vent this everywhere. when this comes up they all come together and i just have to get it off my chest. of course i cant do it too explicitly but hello are you mentally retarded? or stupid? why are you asking retarded and stupid qns? are you being an attention whore? who just wants to like get people's attention so that you can wadever and wadever? it disgusts me and you should learn to keep quiet. thank you very much.

becoming more and more vulgar these days but no i dun wanna care anymore. i dun wanna restrict myself and scold myself anymore. argh it's too tiring. fuck this shit. it's not that i am being mean or wad cause you just dun understand or is just a little slow. but that i dun truly think that you dun understand thats why you asked.

you are just asking cause you are simply attracting attention or cause of another certain reason which irritates the hell out of me. one day i will scream at you and ask you to SHUT THE FUCK UP. wait and see. just continue doing whatever you are doing now. :)

I AM ALL DONE.

ohh hey i am back in such a short time. i am finally done with my elearning and now i can type all kinds of long bullshit here as much as i want to WAHAHAHAHAHAHOHOHOHOHOHEHEHEHEHE. kind of becoming crazy hahahahaha. ok shall blog properly kekeke.

MONDAY  22 NOVEMBER 2010

well well. i got up early in the morning and rushed pack my bag and off i go to balympics. we had nothing to do there. O.O some played dodgeball but i was one of the those who hide in the shade away from the scorching sun and watching them play. hahaha. but in the end us SCOs played captain's ball tgthr. yay i love captain's ball! and it was really tiring.

back to loft and slacked there and chit chat and at 1pm i went off to ourspace to find my ECD group mates: clara ahyi and solomon. hyrah came abit later and we did as much of the report as we can even though our brains were dying and the cells were depleting at a rapid rate due to the red campers cheering loudly just beside our table. -_-

after the report solomon went off and the four of us went to al ameen to have our dinner and they went home while i went back to the loft where i found the rest dancing lucifer. O.O and i found out that they had did nothing else whilst i was gone. hahahaha.

went to have their dinner and i din eat since i ate alr but i just tagged along. timah market once again and watched everyone eat while talking. back to loft and then it was briefing time for the next day of the actual event.

back to our apartment where boys and girls are just together and we watched gory stuffs like REAL ANIMAL CRUELTY in china omg. they even have an organization in china where they are SUPPOSED TO ABUSE ANIMALS LIKE WTFFFFFFF. they shoot vids of it and sell to ppl who wanna watch it wtf. they torture the animals till they die. and this woman pulled the rabbit by the ear and everything and EVEN SAT ON THE RABBIT WITH A GLASS PANEL ON IT UNTIL IT WAS LITERALLY FLAT I AM NOT LYING CAUSE SHE HELD UP THE FLAT RABBIT AFTER THAT AND I DIN DARE TO WATCH THAT SITTING PART SO I TURNED AWAY BUT I COULD STILL HEAR THE BONES BREAKING DESPITE HOLDING MY HANDS TO MY EARS FUCK OHMYGOD. the other women in the vids was just laughing while she did all those. -_- everyone in loft regardless the gender were scolding fuck all over and weifeng even cried. T.T ok getting agitated but everyone should go and hang all the people in the animal abuse organization ok. tyvm.

after that vid we went to watch saw. almost died there. -_- but i was still watching. -_- but luckily i was sitting at the side so the laptop screen seems like that kind of negative feel if you get wad i mean. the camera film that negative. so all the gore parts wasnt that obvious to me. felt nauseous at some part. T.T

was damn afraid to slp so i pulled max and zhihong and weifeng woke up cause of zhihong's retarded actions so in the end i slept with weifeng on the lower deck of the double deck bed cause we were so scared and max pulled the other bed to be beside me and zhihong slept on the upper deck and was later joined by keith who originally slept in the living room and in the end he felt scared. din have a good night since was half conscious the whole night and we had to wake up early in the morning.

TUESDAY  23 NOVEMBER 2010

eventually it's WAKE UP TIME! woke up and went for breakfast with weifeng, leon and cheryl and went back to loft to help carry the logistics to the grand stand. omg was dying ok the cans were really heavy. stayed there and cause i was assigned to be at the grand stand it was boring. :/ so me and galen and tracy went to the bball court to check it out yo. went to support keh and weifeng who were participating though they were competing with each other hahahaha.

then me and galen went off to the dodgeball side and helped them out until the whole thing was over. back to the grand stand and took photos and chit chatted and had the prize ceremony and cleaned the place and went back to loft. packed my bag and went off with weifeng to go home after the debrief. was so tired. T.T ohh and we had a mini birthday celebration for isaac and rachel before that as well.

WEDNESDAY  24 NOVEMBER 2010

went off to clara's house and did some elearning tgthr. then we went to have sakae buffet despite being broke hahahahahaha. i couldnt have enough of the cha soba. :') it was so so so nice. kekeke. had our fill and chithchatted and went back to clara's house to watch dream team while waiting for hyrah to come. she came and we went back to elearning after the show. home after that.

THURSDAY  25 NOVEMBER 2010

off to clara's again for elearning and projs. hahaha. arrived first and we watched the guangzhou asian games together, making stupid comments and remarks and laughing like crazy at the people. we will go to hell clara. TOGETHER. hahahahaha jkjk.

went to the study room and tried to start on elearning and ahyi came so was watching her cooking her maggie mee and went back to the room afterwards and hyrah has only just woke up hahahaha and waited for her to come and quickly did the tlaw stuffs and went to macs for dinner and back and we started to paint our nails and a picture of my nails is in the post below and watched 71 into the fire.

TOP WAS SIMPLY GORGEOUS in the movie i have to say. and after watching the movie, :'( i really hope that a war wun break out between north korea and south korea. north korea dun be stupid stop bombing wadever you are bombing ok. dun plan anything. if world war three breaks out, i dunoe wad i would do. i dun want people to fight and die and suffer. it's not funny this is dead serious ok. and now, i absolutely salute the real smart and brave 71 student soldiers who fight till the end till the last solider who sacrificed themselves and fought heroically in the real korean war. /salutes (i really am doing the action ok.) finally THANK YOU AHYI'S PAPA FOR DRIVING ME AND HYRAH HOME! ^^

ok for now i need to go and bathe and prepare and meet my girls later goodbye i love you keke.

elearning week.

ohh hey yo check out the cool blue nails that hyrah helped me to paint ytd! kekeke.

this week has been a busy week despite it being an elearning week for the BA students. :/ and of course i am busy now but heh heh sudden blogging mood i cant control that. ok i love my nails and hope mum comes up asap with my lunch. shall go off to do my HAPPY ISLAND report which is not graded. :( goodbye~

who i am.

another post on who i am. hahahahaha. will use a little vulgarities in here heh heh.

actually i think i am quite an asshole quite a fucker. i have LOTS of mean thoughts that i keep to myself and don't say. i comment meanly in my brain on even strangers who just walk past me. :/ why so mean!? i have no idea. those thoughts just came to me. i suppose i was quite a spoilt brat in the past. and thus i was or am still a mean child? hahahaha. i suppose so. and i think meanly of people. argh i should be kinder and more caring. :/ i dun like mean thoughts and always chide myself when i think them. by the way it seems like i mentioned this in the prev 'who i am' post? ok i dun care cause i felt all the mean thoughts attacking me really strongly today. :/

and i always feel like there is this me whom noone knows, whom i hide from everyone, whom i try my best to keep it a secret. :/ i cant be as open as others as much as i want to. is it weird? or am i just born this way? though outgoing, there is still this introvert side of me in me. what a weird components making up a weird me. :/

ok anyway. i shall stop blogging now. heh heh. goodbye~

missing someone right here right now.

should probably blog now since i dun think i will be blogging for the next few days heh heh heh.

WEDNESDAY  17 NOVEMBER 2010
PUBLIC HOLIDAY! well practically stayed at home for almost the whole day until we went off to my tpy grandma hse. hohoho. haven been there for a long long time. and yay ahma still teng us as much as ever yay i love my ahma. now i miss my the other ahma. should go and see her soon. :(

THURSDAY  18 NOVEMBER 2010
no school cause IS LESSON CANCELLED but still i went school. FOR MERVIN'S BIRTHDAY PICNIC! woke up late and missed the picnic. :( but spent my time monopoly dealing with the people and helping mervin to massage hahaha. then after that when more ppl came. the 19dares for him started!

it was damn freaking funny with him doing all the nonsensical stuffs. he was wearing two hair extensions and a clip and totally looked like a girl. dares also include him painting his nails, praying to a frog at NP bus stop etc etc.

after all the dares and photo takings, i went off to town taka to find hyrah clara and ahyi who have been walking around to check out ECD stuffs. while waiting for them, i was approached by this hsbc person and i din know how to reject her and she asked me to fill this form and do this lucky draw thing and gave me a travel bag hahaha.

they reached and we walked around and in the end settled at heeren macs and we started playing legos until it's late and went home. hahahaha! i love the 'products' that i created but they say it wun sell. :(

you should probably check out my tweets to see the photos. HAHAHA! though my twitter is locked you can follow me i wun bite hahaha cause i dunoe how to transfer the photos from my phone to my comp ah. :( so there is no photos for my blog too. :( i am a noob iphone user perhaps some kind ppl like ahyi and clara can teach me? hehehe. :D:D

FRIDAY  19 NOVEMBER 2010
sadly, it's a school day. :( went to school and eventually ponned the last lecture cause my eyes and practically most of the rest's eyes are closing. T.T so went home and i actually fell aslp at 9plus omg. though i woke up at 1am cause of my sisters' quarrels i went back to slp at 2plus and woke up only at 12plus the next day. -_- wad a pig.

SATURDAY  20 NOVEMBER 2010
nua-ed around at home like nobody's business and was worried about the weather cause i wanted to go run. but eventually yayyy it wasn't raining though it wasn't a clear sky either but i just went to the stadium to run in the evening. dad and mum tried to persuade my two sisters to stop playing the comp and go running with me but they failed miserably hahahaha.

went to run and there were alot of ppl. O.O ran three rounds and my stomach started hurting like hell. it wasn't stitches which i usually get when i run which i would ignore. it was like freaking pain and i couldn't even walk. omg damn scary. i had to squat and walk and finally reach a bench where i sat and rest and watched some vids to distract myself. i couldn't even walk to where my bottle was and i was damn thirsty. :(

went home when i was feeling better cause i still need to bathe before heading to baby niece carabelle's first month dinner. dad drove us there and we sat there and had some family chit chat session and talk nonsense and all kinds of things

SUNDAY  21 NOVEMBER 2010
went to wdlands to meet my girls hyrah clara and ahyi and ate there and sat there and drafted the report and went off to tampines ikea~~~ bought ice creams and walked around and we laid on practically every bed we see like it's our house and hyrah started instilling unclean thoughts in my mind which involves jonghyun HAHAHAHA.

walked around somemore and ended up at the food section hehehehe ikea meatballs here we come~ sat around for awhile and even though we werent hungry cause it was still early we eventually went to bought stuffs to eat. you just cant resist food when it is all around you. T.T

ate happily and felt like we were in msia hahahaha. went to giant to walk and all of them bought sweets except for me. :( need to save money after the sinful dinner ah. :( bused home after that cause we were dead beat.

btw, there is a pretty werewolf full moon tonight. hehe. looking at the moon, i feel that werewolves are popping out beside me any moment HAHAHA. but it does look kind of mysterious and mystical. heh heh.

gonna stay in sch tml until wed? or thur? but i haven pack my bag yet. :( shall use the bag that the hsbc person gave me on thur heh heh.

the way my heart races at your name, the way you put a smile on my face.

fee fi fo fum hee ha ho hum. lalala~ tri lalala~ ben xiao jie in a good mood today kekeke. ok though nowadays i feel kind of emo and part of the emo feel is still in me but still learn to make your life happy. ^^

SATURDAY  13 NOVEMBER 2010
basically it's a nua-ing day at home which i laid in bed and slept until 2plus when ahyi called me waking me up and telling me that there is another slashing incident which happened in yishun. O.O!!!! omg. so be careful ok my dears. so kong bu.. T.T i lub everyone. (L) manymany.

SUNDAY  14 NOVEMBER 2010
SOOOOOO~ me mum jiamin and sienyee. randomly chatting in the room. talked about iphone and itouch cause dad gave me money the prev day to buy iphone hehehe. mum offered to buy jiamin itouch. O.O sienyee goes home cause she was going to korea that night. so xing fu. envious. *-*

so mum me and jiamin prepares to leave hse. went to northpoint and then headed to town. walked lots of places. but iphone was out of stock. :( eventually yay bought mine at m1 instead of my original starhub cause i hate them and their services. :(

the m1 guy was damn funny. he kept joking with us and we joked back with him. hahaha. i like his service! :D:D he continued joking with us even though my mum was damn auntie and asked him for free gifts omg. and he taught my mum how to get free vouchers HAHAHAHA damn funny irl.

in the end jiamin din buy her itouch cause there was only the 8gb and 64gb one left and she wanted the 32gb one. :( not my fault ok so stop blaming me though i got my iphone. :( it's not my fault. and once we reached home she almost immediately started using my phone and downloading apps like it's hers ok! :( so fair fair.

MONDAY  15 NOVEMBER 2010
it's a school day ohh yeaaahhh and even though it's the afternn lessons i din go and run. :( though i tot of doing so. but then we are eating lunch in sch and there isn't enough time for me to run unless i wake up at 6am which is like insane/mad/loony/crazy since i slept late the prev night.

tried to rush home to watch SHINEE on bai fen bai after sch heh heh. they are so cuteeee. i love them so very much HOHOHO. had an emo night. :( felt freaking emo and couldn't sleep. which was made worse with jiamin mapling in the same room and qiqi learning the piano keyboard at the room door. :(

eventually grew tired and slept yay~

TUESDAY  16 NOVEMBER
the day i forced my eyes open the whole day. which is unusual. cause usually i will only feel groggy in the morning and i will feel quite refreshed by the afternn. :/ argh. and cause i wore contacts, my left eye was tearing the whole day and my contacts kept slipping to the side. :/

was a little late for lecture but he haven started the lecture yet so it was alright. went to makanplace to eat and WOOHOO my favourite stall in makanplace is Sha's Corner. i highly recommend it. hahahaha. even malay friends can eat there cause it's halal and their food is super duper nice. i tried many of their dishes already. if there is only one stall in makanplace, it must be Sha's Corner!! hahaha. it's at the right side of the makanplace. MUST EAT!!

after the long dreadful day i went home and yipee it's shinee on tv again hehehe. and i tot i would take a nap but in the end no i din. :( so i should sleep early today hahaha. and as i type this i am yawning so goodnight world. but maybe i will play some games and tweet a little before sleeping hehe.

lub my world lub everyone. ^^



you just can't forget certain people. they will stay in your mind and heart for life. it's alright. leave a space for them. they deserve it as they have left an impact in your life, no matter good or bad, cause you were taught a lesson through all those. just remember, don't be too bothered about it and don't regret and all will be well.

tumblr's 10 days challenge

this is the last one already hahahaha and i think i am going to start on another challenge soon hehehe. ok tml i have to wake up early and i feel hungry and it's REALLY late so goodnight everyone. (L)

Day Ten: One confession.

i do miss you a little. keke. ^^

WEDNESDAY  10 NOVEMBER 2010
a freaking long day in school even though we skipped the last lecture. had two hours break but we skipped the lecture so it's end of sch at 1pm for us ponners but we stayed back in sch to do spm tutorial. :( what good girls we are cause we know we wun listen to the lectures so might as well not waste time there right!? hahahaha.

walked all the way to canteen 4 to eat with ahyi hyrah and clara cause it was the less crowded than makanplace and it has aircon! :D:D did our work there until the canteen was already closing and we were like the last people to leave!? they were already cleaning up the place and closing and workers were like checking on the maintenance of the aircons. O.O

BY THE WAY!!!! it's my beloved cousin tan wei xiang ortao dear taotao's NS enlistment dayyyy as mentioned earlier! :( din send him off but i will be waiting for him to come out! :D:D taotao jiayou be a fitter man and get rid of your little tummy and be the skinny taotao but dun be ribs like in the past and have some muscles okkkk! ^^

THURSDAY  11 NOVEMBER 2010
oh hohohoho. it is peppero day in korea! and it is the tradition there to give the person you like peppero sticks! and korea peppero sticks look like pocky! next time if anyone wants to confess, just give pocky sticks to the people you like! hahahahaha!

it's supposedly a very special day too. since it's 1111 and cause of the wishing time 1111. and i am very happy and lucky to say that i saw both 1111am and 1111pm on this day hehehe. made wishes tooooo! ^^

it's also the day when junhao went NS!! goodluck ah you. stay strong with your resilient mind and you will succeed! :):) hahaha! sebas is also going NS early next year. sdnly all go NS hahahaha.

ok btw~ went for a run in the morning. ran only like 3 rounds. -_- noone accompanied me so i din have much motivation to run. qiqi last minute pangseh-ed me. :( i need to improve my stamina and run like the wind hahahahaha.

had IS and it was a waste of time? din do much there and we were just nua-ing around after lunch and it ended early since there was nothing for us to do. went to island creamery with ahyi clara and xueli. seems like we have been going there frequently huh. hahaha. dunoe if it's a good thing for there to have a branch there. im spending money like flowing water. T.T

FRIDAY  12 NOVEMBER 2010
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO EVON DEARRRR! (L)
meet up soon alright! ^^

school and it was damn long a day cause we ended at 5pm. ok 4plus to be exact. was freaking hungry and went over to clementi kfc with cheryl hyrah clara and ahyi to eat. onomnomnom. had lots of laughs and jokes over dinner with my girls. laughed like crazy. i love them so much. ^^

wanted to buy KOI but the queue was like -_- freaking long. so we went over to the opposite side to try the oktea that cheryl wants to try. it was erm not very nice? :/ gong cha better hahaha shall buy one of that for myself one day.

wanted to go to the airport to fetch G.NA. cheryl went home and ahyi tagged along halfway and went home instead cause clara our kpop dictionary werent sure of the flight details. so anywayyyyy me hyrah and clara nua-ed at the airport and ate random stuffs like sugar roll, strawberry roll, icecream cone and din get to see G.NA at all. but forget it hahahaha.

went home and i almost missed my bus. clara was like calling me but i woke up just when the bus stopped and hyrah and clara was like staring at me and asking me to faster get off the bus. they were sitting two rows in front of me so they couldnt exactly shout to me or wad hahahaha. immediately rushing down the bus is a big nono cause it made me feel dizzy hahaha but yay i am alright now.

and i think i am done with blogging so i shall go slp soon hehehehe. i love this pretty world and i want to treasure every moment now. ^^ every friend is a precious gem buried deep down in my heart kekeke. btw below are the pictures of the presents leon bought for me in china hehehehe! please ignore my messy hair hahahaha!

the cute eyemask which has a cooling pad in it and makes your eyes feel cooling when you wear it!

the keychain he bought for all three of us (me him and weifeng! :D) yayyy! ^^

hey ho hello hi.

quick update since i haven blogged for almost one week and i need to write down everything before i forget kekeke. and i need to do it quick so i can turn in for the day i am really tired. :/

WEDNESDAY  03 NOVEMBER 2010
had sch and we ponned the last lecture which was like two hours away after our prev tutorial (2 hours lunch break) and we wun listen to the lecture cause it's freaking dry and the lecturer would just start on her old grandma story so we went off to kap macs to eat. wahahahahaha.

after that me hyrah clara and ahyi just cabbed to ahyi's hse wanting to do tlaw tutorial. but we ended up playing and in the end just went home early. hahaha. ok thats how far i can rmb on that day weeeee~

THURSDAY  04 NOVEMBER 2010
wanted to wake up early to go run but i really couldn't wake up. T.T so went back to slp and woke up and had lunch in sch with my girls and after lessons we went to town weeheeeeee~ me and cheryl went to cine to buy movie tix while the xueli clara and ahyi went to find a place where we can have dinner cause we were all starving. hahaha.

after buying tix we went back to find them and placed our order and hyrah came to join us and we ate happily and after that we went to watch the movie!! SOCIAL NETWORKKKK! O.O it's cool and when i went home i immediately went to research and found out the story was real omg damn cool. now i feel like i know about facebook's story hahahahaha.

waited for bus with hyrah and xueli and every bus went past without stopping cause it's just filled with ppl. after waiting for 8238172319873minutes we gave up and trained home. might as well went back with clara who took the train right from the start.. -_- they should have more buses seriously.

FRIDAY 05 NOVEMBER 2010
woke up and packed my camp bag and whoosh went for camp. met olivia on the way and we went to timah market to tabao for peiqin and went to loft to nua around while waiting for the resttttt. eventually bamp trial started whoosh!

dinner at fei siong cause of the chinese curry cravings hahaha crazy ppl being racist even of curry. HAHAHA! ok kidding kidding. had our happy dinner and went back to have more activities which ended abruptly cause of the interruption of the security guards. :( they always spoil our stuffs. >:( went back and played monopoly deal with the girls until we felt tired and went to slp~

SATURDAY  06 NOVEMBER 2010
woke up and had activities again and lunch in between and more activities until evening and thats the end of camp for us~ din trial alot of activities i suppose hahaha. stayed in sch smmore though. dinner at timah market!

played crazy games with corrine benson max olivia and weifeng while waiting for the rain to cease and we are like stuck there. the auntie at the drinks stall was smiling widely while watching us play hahaha she damn cute. but i think we are really damn noisy hahaha.

went back to loft and we had a mini massage session where everyone was massaging for everyone hahaha it was fun! hehehe. then some had a drinking session while two groups of ppl were playing monopoly deal. and of course i am one of those playing monopoly deal hahahaha! went to slp thereafter~

SUNDAY  07 NOVEMBER 2010
woke up at like 9am and packed and washed up and went off with weifeng jomaine jiahui and hengxuan. had breakfast at timah market and bused home. din slp when i reached home i dunoe why. used the com for the whole day and just nua-ing around. :/

MONDAY  08 NOVEMBER 2010 / TUESDAY  09 NOVEMBER 2010
just normal school days with nothing special happening but argh nowadays i am feeling weirder and weirder. like i am changing and growing up into someone i dun like and argh i dun like this feeling :/ i feel like i am becoming weird and not who i am anymore.

i very much prefer the previous me. when i am happier and crazier and more talkative and everything. i would smile more laugh more and am more retarded. i miss the old me. :( thinking of _ more and more and it's really weird cause i dun wanna think dun wanna miss dun wanna dwell so much of such stuffs anymore. i need to control myself i need more self discipline eh.

sebastian's alvls started today and i din forget to wish him goodluck yay i am proud of myself. :) jiayou k sebastian liu yu wei! :D:D good luck! tml tanortao is going for NS. :( feel kinda sad i should have went out with him earlier tao tao ahhhh. promised that i will treat him da san yuan (this coffee shop downstairs hahahaha the both of us live near each other) when he comes out weehee! junhao is also going in ns on thur take good care of yourself! :) JIAYOU FOR EVERYTHING EVERYONE!! ^^

i need to study harderrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr~ i am not working hard enough. :(

so it's like a lie? in a way? i kept my hopes up and now i am disappointed. so what should i do? cry? i did. so? what can i do now? time please pass faster. i wanna grow up quickly and be a capable woman. i hate this transition of my life.

on another hand, i really miss you. this is wrong. i shouldn't. argh. shut up and leave.

i feel like i'm in a blogging mood now. :/ but it's already 6.44pm now and i want to watch Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix at 7.30pm and i still have my SPM tutorial to do tonight. sooooooooo.. i shall blog again maybe tml or the day after? heh heh heh.

by the way, had bamp trial for the past three days. found out that there's another school joining BA. can't remember the name of that school already. T.T so there will be more courses nxt year! O.O and bamp trial is fun overall! though there are some sian parts but still yay waiting for actual bamp!

dad told me that we are going to thailand from 21nov to 24nov. not ponning school cause i just found out it's elearning week. O.O hoho. so yay i am still a good student and i shall study hard now and do some tutorials before harry potter shows~



1/8 of four years has passed. it feels weird to start to feel like this. maybe i dunoe. maybe i should stop thinking.

what a lousy day. :(

abcdefghijklmnopqrstuvwxy and z, now i know my abc, next time won't you sing with me? :):)
a random song to start with the postttt~ hohohoho!! though to be honest, i am not feeling that happy today.. :/ today is a lousy lousy day. :(:(:(:(:(

SUNDAY  31 OCTOBER 2010
so fast so soon it's already the last day of october. it is also halloween~ though it makes no difference to me. :/ felt different on that day kekeke. went downstairs with mum and shopped around yayyy~ bought junhao's fave cereals blueberry morning to try hmm mm.

bought lunch and i finally finally got my specs wahahahahaha! i still think it looks cute! :D:D home and tried to do some work and it is another normal day at home~

MONDAY  01 NOVEMBER 2010
goodbye october, hello november. :D:D had the cereals breakfast yumyum it's really nice and when it leaves fragrance on your teeth. ^^ not lying. even my mum likes them kekeke. lunch at sch with my girls.

had a mini heart attack when i sdnly saw an email pop up saying my mum added me on fb and after i accepted it she listed me as her daughter. HAHAHA. damn funny. wrote on her wall and talked to her there, through my sis though. but it's funny enough.

went home and it's the day dad offered to bring us down to eat dinner wahahahaha. ate like one and three quarters of rice. i am a rice bucket (direct translation from chinese) hahahaha. i lub rice. and woohoo~ i ate lots of kangkong weehee. ^^ and got money from dad to buy the kitkat ice cream hohoho!

TUESDAY  02 NOVEMBER 2010
had school and it has been a terribly bad day for me from the start. :( found out about some stuffs that made me unhappy. :/ argh. but forget it forget it. saying it and feeling unhappy over the same thing repeatedly over and over again is just so irritating and annoying. went to class and had lunch at alumni after that.

went to order the food and everyone's arrived except for mine. T.T some of them were finishing their food and ade helped me go to the counter and she saw wad i ordered so she just took it. xiexie ade. :) but by then i drank my milk tea till i was already half full. :/

finish my meal hurriedly cause we were running late despite being dismissed early from the prev class and we went to the wrong class at block 56 when our class should be at block 72. but both the timetables that me and cheryl have showed block 56. :/ guessed that they changed the timetable after me and cheryl downloaded ours. :(

and on my way to block 56 while crossing the road from block 72 to convention centre i forgot to look at the road before crossing and there were cars on the road so clara hyrah and cheryl (?) screamed 'cars!' and started scolding me after that. T.T T.T omg so sorry :/

rushed all the way to the correct class and half ran along the way to the right class and told the teacher the reason why we were late but it seemed like she dun believe us. :/ but eventually the tutorial went on and when i went home i fell aslp and missed my stop and had to walk a bus stop back and when i crossed the road i kicked on the curb and my toenail chipped.

as you can see, i had a very bad day so do not come and irritate me further thank you very much. i will scream and bite your head off. literally. :)

but btw on a random thought, i wonder how i actually survived everyday when i can even forget to check the roads for cars. heh heh heh. of course i have to thank to the ppl around me esp clara who would always insist on holding my arm while crossing roads if we are walking tgthr. and also all the gods everywhere who blessed me and let me be alive till now. ^^

wad a lousy day for me but with dears talking to me who i dun see/talk to everyday like sebas and guowei cheers me up. :) esp sebas and his retardedness. love everyone to bits and i wanna keep all of you in my pocket~

ANYWAY HERE IS A PHOTO OF ME AND MY ADORABLE NEW SPECS WHICH YOU CAN SEE ON FB AS WELL HEHEHE.

and the following two are SCCAAARRRRYYYYY photos i took for junhao's 'halloween return gift' hahahaha!

happy belated halloweeeeeeeeeeeen to everyone~