stupid! just tag as chio bu will do right! HAHAHHAHA

NO i WUN do it. hahahax! go die you stupid woman. flood my blog with your qns leh. :( bad woman.

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what la! fb-cist now la huh!!! :c

HAHAHAX!! who ask you. OHH! can i tag your mum on your pictures? like pretend you are your mum. HAHAHAX! like that need to add your mum's fb leh!

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what status? *gives most adorable innocent grin*

dun erxin you this mei you fb de nv ren. HAHAHAX!

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D: is it. now i turn around she ignore me :(

hahahahax. she dun love you already. HOHO! AND DID YOU PUT THAT STATUS ON MY FB!? >:(

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just a short update.

having school now. first day of school. it's just good luck that i passed my pmkt test and it's seriously bad luck that kikwang decided to show his abs in msia and not in singapore. wth. i am becoming more and more vulgar these days i should go back to being a good girl but i cant help but say 'omfg' when hyrah showed me the picture of MY KIKI pulling up his shirt and showing his body despite having a coat over the shirt. so unfair. :( okies this is just random rantings. bye~

rubbish shit. i loading wgm videos, hahahaa, clara wants to kill me for the amount of tabs I have on firefox now ._. so sian la omg, ask fish faster fix her net and tell me the thing online :c

she's using the internet now leh. but she din go online. she doesnt care about you anymore. wahahahax. i also finding wgm videos. WAHAHAHAX!! go watch b2st lahhh. :(

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and stop staring at my screen!HAAHHA

and no loh i nv stare at your screen. HAHAX. i trying to find videos and bookmark them to watch when i go home. WHY ARE WE NOT LISTENING IN CLASS!?

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hohoho/ talk to me first leh *wink*

dun want. you talk to me first. i shy. *-*

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omg i can like die now he still wanna go thru. why aint we taoking thru msn hmmmmmm.

yar. thats wad i wanted to ask you. talking through formspring. now my blog confirm got tons of posts already. cause of you. HAHAHAX! stupid girlllll!

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:(

cheer up my deer. :)) cause i love you okies! HAHAHAX!

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im so bored :(

i am too. :( i almost fell aslp just now when he's talking about i dunoe wad. HAHAHAX!

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lele! you need to update me about your life soon! <3

YESSSSS!! hahahax!! i want to know abt your thailand trip. see that you had so much fun there. JEALOUS!!! T.T i shld have went too! :(( miss you so much! <3!

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i dun like anonymous ppl.

saturday went to celebrate birthday for limguowei belated. i was late cause i overslept. T.T slept till everyone met and limguowei started calling me to ask where i am. and sorry limguowei i hung up your call so many times but subconsciously ah. not purposely. T.T went to cine kbox to sing song~

gave him the birthday letter i gave him and went crazy and sang with everyone yayy! :DD sang duet with our beloved birthday boy tooo~ went to play pool afterwards. nowadays we keep play pool ah. limguowei had to leave early cause he have a wedding dinner at msia. went to eat after pool and went home!

today is nua at home day and woke up late and watched videos and tv and ate and did my script on the presentation tml and tumblr-ed and tada i am here. ://



there are so many anonymous ppl asking me abt my r/s stuffs. okies maybe they are the same person? i dunoe. but freak ah. if you got any qns on my personal life can you ask me somewhere else more private? and let me know who you are. i am not someone who will bite your head off if you come and ask me yourself you know. if i understand your reasons i dun mind replying. if you are curious then please ask me privately. i hate anonymous qns asking me about my past r/s. i may sound very agitated but okies i am not angry but rather i am scared okies. it's like weird ppl aking me qns. T.T please approach me directly for any qns like these. and dun worry about me i am currently a very happy girl who is satisfied with my life now and is slowly taking my time and not at all wanting to rush into a nxt r/s with jonghyun and kikwang and geunsuk and hongki and jonghwa and minhyuk and all sorts of cute guys around and doesnt really care about wadever is going on with that someone of my past though i ranted about it in my previous post. i was just indignant about some ppl able to have it all despite doing alot of wrongs and hope that noone would get hurt anymore. :) although i might rant too exaggeratedly smtimes but in reality i am very calm. HAHAHAX. all in all, to conclude, i am a very nice person whom you can approach directly about any private qns and i am happy and satisfied with my current status and is in no rush to change it or wadever it is. :) thank you very much. :) sometimes i am sad that my close friends dun understand. i dunoe how to put it but nvm. hahahax. :) stay happy and cheerful always my dear ppl!

how did your last r/s end

ermmmmm. who are you? O.O can you talk to me on msn or wad instead? hahahax! kind of a long story.

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ridiculous things do happen.

i sdnly realised how long i have neglected this blog while i have been tumblr-ing dutifully every single day. wahahahax. i think blogger is where i write about me and tumblr is where i write what i like. there is a slight difference there. :DD okies time for some updates HOHO!

monday went to celebrate jiamin's birthday. yes very belated. wanted to eat yuki yaki but the stupid girl slept till so freaking late and the lunch buffet was already ending when we reached so in the end just had pizza hut. almost vomitted blood shopping with them cause they have far too many comments. but nvm i was happy in the end! :DD

went back to khatib and met my dear pri sch peeps. shaun leong and myrna lam. jervis quak was late and everyone knows that he has been napping and overslept. -_- obvious from his hair too. wanted to eat at the kopitiam downstairs but in the end so many ppl and we went to yishun gv eighteen chefs to eat. MY FIRST TIME THERE! they called me suaku. -_- dun care.

after the meal we went back to khatib and went to some void deck to sit down and chitchat. :DD it's supposed to be a group birthday celebration since all our birthdays fall in the apr-jun period. :DD kevin toh came to join us and his birthday coincidentally falls in this period too! WOO! now the last person (jervis quak) has turned 18 i think we can do more wild stuffs tgthr! YAY HEYY! played blind mice at the playground just like the old times YAY! :D was sweating like hell and went hm. :)) love them so very much.

went to aileen's house to do our CEM presentation on tuesday. :)) do and do. left at 5plus to the airport OMG we went to fetch beast/b2st OMG it's my first time fetching my idol OMG they were like freaking gorgeous and handsome and cute okies. REAL LIFE SMMORE.

furthermore we went to send UKISS off cause they were like leaving singapore on the same night OMG. so conclusion. i saw both UKISS and BEAST on the same night. be jealous WAHAHAHAHAX!! totally fangirl-ing now but i dun careeeee. to think i was the same girl last year who knows nothing about kpop and dun even understand them and still hi-fived with ahyi when we were the only two in the group who dunoe kpop. HAHAHAHAX!

went to buy materials at northpoint popular on wednesday and went to sunplaza and hyrah came down and we tabao-ed food up to clara's hse and started doing on the board. i did for kikwang and wrote kiki. HAHAX! and i really like hyrah's board for junhyung and clara did one for yoseob too wahahahahax fangirls. :DD

hyrah left to get the lens and the two of us went over to imm to check out beast hi-five session's situation. in the end we just started queuing and hyrah and the rest came to join us after that. queue and queue and WOOHOO beast!! okies dun want to fangirl here i'm limiting it to tumblr only so okies kikwang is so freaking cute and so is all the other members. freaking goodlooking in real life. went home after the whole thing. :DD but most of the time i cant see with all the ppl's board and everything okies forget it.

on thursday went to make my atm card and bankbook which i shld have done long ago but yay i feel rich again cause i can anyhow spend my bank money again but okies i need to save up and restrict myself. >:( went over to aileen's hse again with clara and completed our CEM yayy heyyy! :DD went home then.

on friday i woke up like early and met clara and we went over to imm to eat and slacked around and met hyrah for beast's fansign. the whole situation was freaking chaotic esp all the queuing parts. okies forget abt the unhappy parts. all in all we got the autographs and i showed kikwang my kiki board and he laughed OMG so freaking cute and clara who was after me in the fansign said he smiled brightly after that so i guess i made him happy and i was freaking happy about that. all the members was damn cute too. :)) this would be the second and last time i saw them? maybe my fangirl-ing will die down the nxt time they come to sg but let's see first. HAHAHAX! went home with a happy heart weehee!!



some ppl just get all the luck huh? found out something abt someone from my past. wtfreak!? life is seriously unfair. wads wrong with him seriously!? there's also a problem about all those girls seriously. he should get a life soon and stop toying ppl around. a leopard nv changes its spot huh? wts. just go and die. wads wrong with you!? wad a heartless bastard you are. i am not speaking for myself. the hurt you gave me had all healed. i am speaking for all the others that you have hurt. wtfreak? and now you have another new target? seriously you need to have your brain and mind checked one gazillion million billion times. i think it's deeply corrupted with nonsensical stuffs and it must have lots of black crude oil and tar and some of the world's most disgusting stuffs in it. you need to get a new brain and heart. your character and personality is warped to an extent that i can't even describe. wtfreak. i am seriously damn disgusted by you. i know that girls grow strong cause of bastards like you but seriously this is no reason/excuse to be doing such stuffs. i am disgusted to the max. i hope you will get your well-deserved end someday. karma will get you i am sure. all those girls hurt by you will get their happiness one day. i hope that the new target you found would realise what she is in for asap. pray for her. you will get it. -_-

of course, he was around since when i was a baby. i attended his wedding too, how scary can he get.

OMG OUXIANG! OMG I KNOW WHO ARE YOU ALREADY! HAHAHAHAHAX! YAR HE IS OUR OUXIANG! HAHAHAX! :DD jiejie! :D:D

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of course, he was around since when i was a baby. i attended his wedding too, how scary can he get.

O.O! who are you? hahahahax! but my friends think my dad scary maaa.

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Has he confessed to you yet?

tell me who you are first. >:( and if i know you you can ask me on msn. dun have to ask me here.

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What's your relationship with him now?

erm are you the same person? tell me who you are first!

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how can your dad be killer bear, hes our ouxiang :D

HAHAHAHAHAHAX! OMG! who are you? HAHAHAHAHAX! first time i hear ppl say he not scary. HAHAX!

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You want who ask you questions? jiamin shang

O.O i where got want ppl to ask me qns? you go die! >:(

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feeling kinda tired. :/

it's been awhile since i last blogged. :)) let me recalllllllllllll.

thursday i stayed at home the whole day spamming myself with lots and lots of shinee and anjell's videos. not very meaningful to you but at least i was very happy. hohoho. cant rmb much abt wad happened so okies nvm.

friday went to fetch my dear girls from their work. ^^ saw many ppl. joked around outside. i like very bad ah. go there disturb them nia. heh heh. went over to tampines one thaiexpress to eat. yum yum. but the curry sauce abit little. :( went home~

saturday is nua at home day. discussed atrm proj online with ahyi and xueli but dear xueli is sick. :// TAKE GOOD CARE OF YOURSELF OKIES! GET WELL SOON! :)) WE LOVE YOU LOTS!! :)) so nua-ed at home. went for a jog at night. the stadium there very desolated. scary. :( i'm never going there alone at night anymore. ran still. felt giddy after awhile so went home. omg. really giddy. too long nv exercise already. :( too long nv go bball. but not going for the next two fridays cause not free. :// nvm going to sentosa on sat to celebrate our dear lim guo wei's birthday! :DD

today went to vivo and walked around and bought stuffs for the SC recruitment drive which is like coming soon omg with leon and weifeng. walk and walk. bought lots of rabbits stuffs. we are group two. it's the same group for me as last year with mao and keh. :( but last year i din do anithing for SC recruitment loh. now i know how much mao and keh teng me. but keh did the most. :') i love them loads.

TODAY IS FATHERS' DAY! :)) i msged my dad but he din reply. :( but i know he love me loads still. HOHOHO. i can see it in his eyes everytime he looks at me. :') my dad. is a lovable guy. everyone who saw him found him scary. or even like some wicked person. or like what ahwen said that i can never forget: the world's scariest man with a killer instinct of a bear. but to me, my dad is always so kind and warm. though smtimes he is really strict, like for my overnight stuffs, but smtimes he can be really understanding. i know he secretly read my diary once. he din even bother to cover his tracks. but he hinted it to me after wards by discussing and advising me on the emo stuffs i wrote in it. my dad is really great. maybe he isn't the most awesomest dad in the whole world. maybe he doesn't spend enough time with us. maybe he doesn't bring us out for outings. but that makes me treasure everything so much more. all the lamest jokes he said. make me realise where i inherit my sense of humour from. i can always get advices from him. i can always count on him to remind me what i always wanted. my simplest wishes. our thinking may not always be the same. but all in all, he still love me no matter how willful, bad tempered, idiotic, i am. and always trust that i will always be sensible. papa i love you. :)

I SHOULD DO ONE FOR MY MUM TOO CAUSE IT'S THEN FAIR AND I DIN DO ONE FOR HER ON MOTHERS' DAY. mummy i know you have always been trying hard. smtimes i feel that it's the wrong method that you use to teach us. but i don't know how to tell you. i know you love us loads. by the way you always clean up after us, try to get us to do stuffs. me being in and out of relationships has  always hurt you. all my cryings. i always sense you standing behind me watching. i know it hurts you. it hurts me even more cause of that. smtimes seeing you being forgetful and stuffs lets me know that i inherited that blur part of me from you. :) you always try to let me have my way cause of my willfulness. but yet you try not to let me get too overboard though in the end i still do it anyway. all the small little things you do. the note you wrote and stuck on the kitchen door. i know. i do know and understand. i read that note and cried for a long long time. you wun know that i called a friend and cried over it. i rmbered all those times since young. you always tried to do wads best for us, which of course wasn't what we always wanted. i know both my dad and mum wun see this. but i really hope to write these down in case i ever forgot abt it. i love you both. :) and you both know it. love my mummy. :)) you two make me feel like i never want to grow up. :)) i hope you will never leave me. like what papa always say, if anything happens to me, i can always look for my mum in the day and my dad in the night. :) therefore i know that i will always be well taken care of 24/7. :)



i feel kind of weird nowadays. thinking too much of things that i shldnt think. hahahax. but today i have many friends sms-ing me all the way. esp sebastian loo yu wei merlion sms-ing me the WHOLE day. HOHOHO. LOVE YOU VERY MUCH OKIES. and i really want to find out who is that person below who asked the two qns which i answered without fail. since i know you so why cant you let me know who you are? O.O i'm curious.. ://

Someone you know (: Then, does the person like you back?

O.O someone that i know? you reply very fast though. hahahax! erm. he does i suppose. im not that sure. im still kinda confused. to tell the truth smtimes i feel like i haven got over my last r/s. i still cry smtimes. soooooo i dunoe. HAHAHAX! letting nature takes its course. :) can i know who are you?

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do you like anyone?

erm i suppose so. but i dun want to think so much abt it yet. hahahahax!

btw who are you? O.O

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why are there so many insects!?

i feel kind of accomplished todayyy! ^^ woke up and studied awhile while watching tv and went out to buy my stuffs at popular and went to cut my hair wahahahahax. -_- okies boring lifeeee. when everyone is working at expo communicasia i am here rotting my life awayyyy. :( it's the same tml i suppose. ARGH. but smtimes it's kind of nice staying at home. minus-ing the boring parts. yayy going to find them on friday. i miss them already. HAHAHAX! my beloved girls. ^^

and btw i have NO FREAKING IDEA why there is an alarming increase of lizards and cockroaches and beetles and fruit flies and all kinds of insects in my house nowadays. :(((( i hate them. ohh and we found out the reason for the fruit flies. STUPID LEE JIA QI WENT TO THROW THE BANANA SKIN IN MY ROOM'S DUSTBIN WHICH TENDS TO ATTRACT FREAKING LOADS OF FRUIT FLIES. :((((((( furthermore the kitchen dustbin is the one that is cleared everyday. not our room's. kns kns. stupid girl.

on a happier note junhao bot me bubblegum from msia wahahahahahahahax. :DD i am going to blow bubbles all day long until i finish it. ://he bot his fave type of bubblegum and i dun even know how it looks like. -_- but nvm i am happy that i have bubblegum yum yum. :)) though you aren't exactly supposed to eat it but still yumyum nice. :)) okies last but not least, EVERYONE please take a look at the post below. thank you very much jiale loves you loads. :)

PLEASE HELP!!!

i feel like doing this again please click here and like the video there. thank you very much. i already bold the word 'here' so dun tell me you can't see it. thanks my dears. i love you all very much. :)) please help my friend to fulfill her dream! :DDDD

i hate the hot weather. :(

waking up at 7pm today is crazy. though i actually slept at 6am in the morning but that's no reason to wake up so late. i was surprised when i saw the time. i got up and bathed and had my dinner. -_- which was my 'breakfast'. idiotic much. this will be a very short post but argh i am bored. so so so bored. :////////

uploaded photos on fb and i sorted my music files a little but i need to get on to it soon and started writing my module notes. bored bored bored. :// i think i'm studying harder now compared to my exam period. -_- okies i want to go for a run and tidy up my study table tml. jiayou me. i think i shld go slp now. :// nights my dears. :))




i feel happy, but yet i'm afraid sometimes. but i don't want to hope for anything. it will be if it is meant to be. :) love life!

guardianangelbyyourside.

had amazing race with dear weifeng and leon at town. which lasted for like two hours. -_- kinda lame cause furthermore there are three prizes and three groups participating. but okies nvm. went off to watch karate kid after that. the kid is really cute. hahahax. i like action films. :)) after cartoons. heh heh.

amazing race pics!

more on fb! :))

after the movies, went off to cine to find yingjie guowei and stella. ^^ dinner at kfc and went to the kbox place for pool~ my poses ugly as ever but argh i cant aim properly standing properly. :PP bloopers as funny as ever. guowei's FREAKING funny. cause he made lots throughout. laughed as much as usual. love them. ^^ (L) will edit this post with pics tml! it's freaking late cause i wanted to finish you're beautiful and yay i did and now i ought to slp. :)) nights dearies.

pool pics!

only got two ah. limyingjie dun want to take photo with me. :((

i just deleted a whole chunk of paragraph. cause why do i have to bother with what people think when what truly matters is me and all the others that i care and cares about me. :)) just want to say that i gave up cause everything is like a cycle. and i hate cycles. i hate bad things repeating themselves over and over again. i am smone who moves on easily and quickly once i am determined to put this kind of cycle to an end. just please understand. :)) tml will be a happy day! i hope. :)) tonight's night sky really has lots of stars. it's like a whole sheet blanket of stars. :)) i like. made a wish at 11.11pm! YAY!

HEY THERE!!

i dunoe if actually anyone reads my blog but PLEASE PLEASE help my dear friend hyrah by clicking on this LINK and like the video. i purposely made the font much bigger already so i am quite sure you can see it. :DD it's the same as helping me if you really love me. :)))) thank you very much. i love you very much. ^^

hao la hao le. give you 1/10 :x

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!! anyhowwww. but 1/10 i also want. HAHAHAX! :D:D

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I AM A FIRST AIDER!

YAYYYY!! like my title said i am a first aider!! :)) though i haven got my cert yet but today we completed the first aid course and i passed the test woohoo. though i was a little nervous and i can count numbers wrongly. -_- missed the number 3 when i was counting from 1 to 5. -_-

but the teacher also gong loh. i do 3 cycles of CPR already he still say im going to do the 3rd cycle nxt. -_- then end up i do 4 cycles. count until my head all numbers and really very tiring cause have to keep press while kneeling down. and now i have two blue blacks. one on each knee. -_- always end up like this when i kneel for too long.

went to kap island creamery to eat after that. my first time there! :DD and my first time eating a real mud pie. :)) sounds sua ku but nvm used to it liao but very happyyyyyy!! :)) i like the mud pie. ^^ went home after that. almost missed my stop cause i was slping but heng heng never. :DD smtimes blogging abit sian ah. haven cut my hair. :// okies need to rmb to bring camera to take photos for the amazing race with leon and weifeng tml. then i might post some pics here then. :)))))




it's time to accept some things in the past. cause time cannot be reversed. ppl change and leave. i have to understand that, even if i do miss those times. :)) i'm starting to like the sky more and more. :)) no matter what, i want to keep this feeling for a long long time. even if in the end, nothing comes out of it, but i will still feel contented. :) i looked up at the sky and wished almost the same wish for three nights straight at 11.11pm. hope the clouds and stars and the moon in the sky would hear me. ^^

BE CAREFUL!!

hey everyone! there is this poland guy who is going around hacking ppl's hotmail so be careful if someone asks you to vote for some picture on msn okies. even if it's your best friend. cause it might be him. and dun sign in with your email and pwd even though that website page looks alot like the real hotmail page. BE CAREFUL!! :))))))))))))))))

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today had society's first first aid course lesson. LOOOOOONG day. though i was late. T.T cause i tot 8am was 2 hours before 9am. and realised my mistake when i woke up. -_- made a few new friends ohh yayyy. the teacher very the funny. wahahahax. and had alot of funny and stupid stuffs. like doing bandages and the choking stuffs. quite the happy today. :)))))))

went JP alone to search for a book in some bookfair. took some time to find the bookfair. and spent some time looking for the book. I CANNOT FIND THE BOOK. T.T so went to popular to look around. maybe i will buy it at popular. go see if i can get more discounts anot since have sales now. HAHAHAHAX! smmore i can go get the popclub mag. heh heh. tml see northpoint got anot. and want to cut hair tml. hope tml's lesson end early!!

AND WAHHHH watching you're beautiful again. saw the vcd at JP and there wrote he's beautiful leh. okies nvm i am confused but nvm it's that show jiu dui liao. hahahax. i find jang guen suk more and more cute leh. sorry adeer but really lah. esp when he pouts. HAHAHAX! but jeremy also cute. HAHAHAX! and weifeng also watched the drama omg we both like leehongki both same taste hahahahahax so fangirl-ed with her awhile during lesson. ^^ so cute.



was feeling argh cause of smone. but received smone's sms. ohmygosh i was seriously damn surprised. and felt damn damn damn happy after that. heh heh. :))))))))) my day is made happy in the end!! :))))

OIOIOI!!! Geunsuk mine hoh, stick to your Leehongki!!!!!!!!!! *takes out parang knife*

HAHAHAHAHAHAX!! but he really very cute lehhh! esp his pouts. HAHAHAX! i am NOT going to fight with you. i will keep him as a secret in my heart. HAHAHAHAHAX!!

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ZOMBIE OMGZXCZXCXBNV

saw this on cheryl's tumblr. watched twice. and both times i laughed till i cried. the kids are really freaking cute and brave. YOU SHOULD WATCH IT!!




i looked at the sky and made a wish at 11.11pm. :)) did you?

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rotting at home the whole day but i like it! watched you're beautiful. and ohmytian i'm falling for leehongki's freaking adorable and cute smiles. HAHAHAX! :D:D:D!! i'm liking adeer(HAHAHAX ADE YOUR NEW NAME)'s jang geun suk more and more too!! his pouts are so cute. hohoho!

just finished episode 6 and i'm filled with extreme sadness. :( hope episode 7 will cheer me up laterrrrr!! :))) dunoe why when i saw the part about them talking about parting in the future i tot of _  and felt scared and sad but i shant think too much!! :)) my hair is longer ahhh i want to cut it though i want to let it grow longer. ://// sian sian.



will you be looking up at the sky? i think i will often be! :))

this: my conver with sebas.

ohmytian and i was telling sihui the other day that i want to name my kids 帅哥 and 美女. HAHAHAHAX! best friends think alike eh. ^^ this is so funny. HAHAHAX! but i dun want my kids to have the same names as sebas' kids. -_- my poor kids.

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tuesday it was dear adelineer's birthday.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ADELINEER!! :DDDDD
stop being so retarded and i am not retarded like you okies. 18 years old already be more mature lahhh! HAHAHAX! love you loads!! ^^
so practically stayed at home and studied the whole day. and got distracted the whole day too. hahahax! and i cant believe i actually started watching the news cause i found it more interesting than pmkt notes. it's either me growing older thus the watching of the news or it's just that pmkt is so freaking boring. T.T

but the news really quite interesting. first the vandalism of the mrt train which made the mrt train looks so much more chio and iphone 4 ahhh i want. :( i think all mrt trains shld be vandalised after the news and i am thinking of changing to iphone 4 this nov. wahahahahax!! shall see the phone plan available. thinking of whether to wait for the first few batches of iphone 4 to come out first since the first few batches always has complications. hahahax!

SO HAD OUR SECOND AND LAST TEST ON WEDNESDAY OHMYTIAN LIKE A DAMN XINGFU. HAHAHAHAHAX!! happy like crazy only. had our LAM lecture and overseas immersion program aka oip briefing after that. lam lecture was :// and ppl who was there shld know but okies shant talk abt it here and oip briefing ahh i want to go thereeee. but only 40 out of 97 ppl can go. argh. :((((((((( hope me and my darlings can goooo!

went to vivo to celebrate the retarded girl(see above)'s birthday. celebrated with the cake first which was meant to be a surprise and smhow failed. hahahax! but all in all she seemed happy and thats the most impt part!! :D:D!! went to earle swensons to eat ohmytian it's my first time and there is a one for one lunch treat yayy! ^^ in the end everyone was damn full okies. had fun with them during lunch nevertheless with everyone's lame stuffs. love my girls to bits. :))

was looking for things to do. wanted to watch some m18 movie but was scared that we will get caught so asked the ticket counter staff if some of us could get it even though they are not 18 yet but still 18 this year and she said no. :( so no movies and we went to walk around and went to eat yogurt~ :))

saw keh and peiqin! :DD and cause of these two girls i spammed loads of toppings on my yogurt which kept dropping on me as i ate. :( they left soon for their dinner and continued eating yogurt with my girls. ^^ after the yogurt we went up to the skypark. crazy we are and started playing in the water and taking jumpshots which hurts our feet like crazy cause of the tiny pebbles in the water. T.T damn pain. photos in ade and cheryl's cam would show you our painful expressions.

forgot who started this crazy idea of staying over at my hse and all of us went home to prepare and all in all gwynnie clara cheryl and ahyi came over to my hse to stay and all reached by 10plus 11pm. we are all crazy. watched shutter. screamed like crazy. vulgarities thrown everywhere. but it was funny while being scared. HAHAHAX! after that wanted to watch liang popo but halfway through we were tired and went into my room to rest and relax and eventually fall aslp. HOHOHO!

so today woke up at like 1.30pm HAHAHAX and we were lazing around and finally willing to go downstairs for lunch at macs at like 2.30pm ++ and yayy we got the mcvalue lunch and ate until quite full. was freaking cold and went back to my hse to watch auntie lucy movie and now they all went home. :)) love my girls and all the times with them! :DD!!




but i know there is you. :)))) take good care of yourself for the next few days kaes!! :)) thanks so much!

my printer pissed me off not my fault D:

hahahax stupid girl! so late print might as well dun print!

btw happy birthday my dear girl hope you enjoy your dayyyyyyy!! ^^

Ask me anything

everybluedayisyourday.

:) hello my darlings i am back once again. wahahahahaahahahahahahahahax!! i know that all of you miss me. :)) okies quit being lame. i shall continue updating my life here. weeeeeee!

went to clara's to study atrm for the whole day. felt damn accomplished and in the end i din study a thing when i reached home. HAHAHAX! but did alot of practice qns in the day already! :)) and got my B2ST ALBUM WAHAHAHAHAHAHAX going for their fansign which means i will get to see my kikwang up close. HOHO! dun worry jonghyun you are still my first love. :DD!!

sunday. stayed at home the WHOLE day to study. what a good girl i am. wahahahahax. though i kept digressing but dun care~ celebrated jiamin's birthday with the cake at night. took photos. i think can see my tummy. :((((((((((((((

todayyyy. woke up early to study atrm. ^^ went to school to meet ade clara and hyrah and went off to our exam hall. stupid adeline er printed her atrm notes ONE HOUR OR LESS BEFORE atrm test. -_- stupid girl. :PP! went to al ameen to eat after the test and go home~

nowadays alot of ppl fall sick ah. ahyi sick for DAMN FREAKING LONG still haven okies. huiwen like going to fall sick soon already. junhao on the way to recovery except for that thing on his mouth. HOPE EVERYONE STAY HEALTHY AND HAPPY!! :)))))))))))) AND WISH EVERYONE GOOD LUCK AND JIAYOU FOR YOUR TESTS!! :DDDDD! LUB EVERYONE wahahahahahax!!

can i lead my own life?

why do i have to become an undergraduate? i know it is oh-so-proud to have a degree and certainly brings much to the family since you want something like an undergraduate in every family. but please don't stress me out. my results haven't been good for the past sems. i know that myself. i don't even think i qualify for any of the local universities. i want to go work after poly and earn experiences. i don't think i can go on to university. i know it's a shocking for you since you have pining your hopes on me. sorry for not going to JC in the first place alright. sorry for not wanting to go JC cause i feel like i cannot handle the stress there. i know it's stressful in poly as well with all the competitions. but at least the lecturers don't push you to the wall. i'm grateful for that. can i not be an undergraduate? i know it disappoints you but i am so sick and tired of all these. all the aunties and uncles saying 'don't worry i am sure jiale will become an undergraduate and get a degree.' and they have no freaking idea how much stress it's giving me. don't make it absolute. don't make my mum and dad pine their hopes on me. i am not strong enough to handle with their disappointments, esp my mum's. you are not the one letting them down. i am. so stop talking with that tone and using those words. since young, you have been advising my mum on what to advise me. i went to the secondary school you chose for me. i went to the polytechnic you chose for me. so, i am already 18, can i finally lead my own life now? don't make me hate you. don't make my mum disappointed. i know i used the irritated tone on her just now. but i just wanted to let her know and don't put all her hopes on me. i love her alot and that is why i don't want to make her disappointed. what do you know? stop instilling those thoughts into her. so what if your son/daughter got into an university. so what if my previous results were so much better? it doesn't mean that i would become an undergraduate. i am not them. i am not like them. i know that universities are great, getting a degree is wonderful, undergraduates are fantastic. but it differs for different people. argh. can we just let nature takes its course? i would get into university IF i can. but please, i don't want to be carrying any hopes and wishes. i tried to make my own secondary school choice, but no one would let me. i tried to make my own polytechnic choice, my mum cried like hell cause of your influence. now, i want to make decisions for my own life. please. the 'guides' and 'advices' can stop. i am old enough, even if i am still young in your eyes. i have been through much which you cannot even imagine, i know i am strong enough to handle my own life. please don't, please stop. all these sucks. please keep your opinions and advices to yourself. this is MY life. i am HER daughter, not YOURS.

ARGH. just need to rant. not like me writing here is going to get any of their attention and stop any of them. argh. ://

mummyyyy i kop picture from you ok:D

okiesssss. saw it on fb already! ^^

Ask me anything

i love my friends.

went to my study room to get smthing this morning and saw the BIG birthday card that my darling girls and guys made for me. i realised that most of the people asking me to stay retarded/dorky/blur/irritating because that's me. i sdnly realised that they truly love me for being me. :)) now i know, when one day, i start hating myself for who i am, i can think back and think of all these dearies who love this me. i will start smiling and be happy, and know that it's alright to be me and love myself more. friends are so super. even though there are always unhappiness, they get sorted out in the end always. if they don't, at least happy memories are forged and left. as long as you were once a true friend of mine, don't worry, you have made an impression in my heart, and i will never forget you. :) friends are so super, esp MY friends. :)

ME AND MY DARLING SON! :))

he really feels like my son. and i felt damn gan dong about him growing up. :)) and aaron was saying the part of the birthday video of me was as if i am marrying haien off. mummy loves you my son. :DDD!

went to school as per normal on wed and went to ahyi's hse with xueli cause ahyi forgot to bring her clothes for the stayover at xueli's hse for bcomm long report. first time staying at a friend's hse with the permission of my dad. heh heh. love both of their houses cause there are milo packets for meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! :D:D:D!! love them both too! hahahax. slept pretty late. :((

woke up to continue to finish our report and the three lazybums didn't want to move so macdelivery and had mcspicy woohoo like a happy only. ^^ finished up our report only at night. T.T cham ah cham ah. ohh and on thursday it is also.. 
LEE JIA MIN'S BIRTHDAY SO HAPPY BIRTHDAY AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! :DD!!
i am such a good jiejie i know dun need to thank me. ^^

printed our report and binded it in school. met leon and submitted it. thanks leon for lending me money to buy my bus concession. T.T need to return him asap! met weifeng and daryl and the four of us went off to btp pizza hut to eat!! ^^ damn full loh!!

then went back to school and met aaron and met sihui and we rushed off to get haien's cake and cabbed back school and prepared the cake for him!! know he's very very happy. at first i still told him that i wasn't going to school. know he was kinda disappointed but still mummy went horh! ^^

fooled and played around and went off to town to eat. aaron accompanied me to 313 while i check out beast's albums but no more preordering so went back to cineleisure to find the rest and had our dinner. went to the new SCAPE place and sang songs and played stupid games and listened to the stupid green ping pong ball story.

but i think damn sad loh. T.T sorry for emo-ing ah. having mixed emotions. thanks baobao and aaron and everyone for being there. ^^ enjoyed my day still. lub them very much. ohh and i played street fighter in arcade HAHAHAX damn funny just anyhow spam but yayy i got very far all say i pro! ^^ but ronald fought along side with me. HAHAHAX! :DD perfect combo!

and since now it's past midnight it is officially..
MY DEAR HAIEN BAOBAO'S BIRTHDAY HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY LOVES YOU! :DD!
really feel like it's my son growing up. got the maternity feeling. heh heh. faster find mummy a daughter-in-law! :D:D!!

AND FOR ALL THOSE TAKING TESTS TML (evon, keh, aaron, joanne, benny, etc) JIAYOU AND GOOD LUCK! ^^ ohh and junhao twin! get well soon! :)





i know you saw me. i am not exactly dumb. it's weird ah. your face seemed sharper smhow. you seemed more mature smhow. yupx i know i know. carrying the bag was weird. somehow afraid that you will feel that i am not over you. does that mean that i am over you? i think so. but i miss you. as a friend. you were smone whom i can talk to about everything. but i know i have to learn to let go. :) i have others too. take care alright. :)





hello there. smtimes i think you are like my happiness generator. i threw you all my worries and rubbish, and you used them to generate rainbows, sweets, flowers and all kinds of nice and pretty things. thanks for being there smhow. :)





smtimes i think you are weird you know. it's like you like everyone. but i hope you smtimes be clear with your stand. don't confuse yourself. :) will always be here for you. :)

to the one who always calls me idiot.

:) missed you so the very much. so glad that you came to find me!! ^^ you seldom rant to me ah. or should i say you seldom rant. it's been tough for you. i know. it's been so many years. to you, it is so difficult to move on. but no one is forcing you to do so. do whatever you want to. even after getting hurt over and over again, you still held on. even though you dunoe what will the outcome be. i dunoe either. but i will support your decision. :) thanks for scolding all those that didn't treasure me. thanks for consoling me cause i was feeling guilty towards certain people. i know you will always understand. i know even if everyone leaves you will always be there. i am so certain i don't even have to say it out, i won't even feel insecure. :) you are the last friend that will leave. i know you understand me. :) and i am so glad i found a friend in youuuuuuuuuuu!! you can make me cry and make me laugh. but you will always be with me throughout. :) i love you my dearest bestest bestest friend. bestest x 9999999999999999999999MILLION okies. you are so going to my best man on my wedding. no running. :D:D! so what if you are a guy. i am proud that my best friend is a guy no matter how weird other ppl say it is. :) esp when it's sebastian liu yu wei. ^^ LOVE YOU SO VERY MUCH MY DEAR FRIEND!! cheer up soon. :) happiness is already on its way! :D

feelings.

a friend, shan't say who, once said that people around him has been breaking up, including me. smtimes i feel like i have been ruining and wrecking my own life through all these. :// i don't feel good too you know. i do feel tired too you know. when i see friends around me getting hurt over relationships i do feel sad too. i do feel worried too. though they might be smiling at me, i know it somehow still hurts. it's so hard to find someone who you are in love with who is similarly in love with you. it's even harder to find that same person who understands you and love you just the way you want. i am not in search of such a perfect love, it just seems too much impossible. but yet i don't deny that i still hope for that miracle. i am really happy that some of my friends are really in happiness too. but most of them are unsure, insecure, afraid. that's what it is right? relationships are often filled with uncertainties. this is what makes people afraid. or rather than relationships, i should say the future is filled with uncertainties. but future is supposed to be like that, isn't that so? it's okay to be afraid. there's nothing wrong. but keep in mind not to be too afraid, remember to trust in your relationship, remember to trust the other party. no matter how many times you have been hurt, no matter how uncertain and unsure you are. you might be sick and tired of falling in and out so many times, give yourself a break then. cause the right person will appear at the right time and moment at the right place. a small something which i will always want myself to remember. believe and trust in miracles and hopes and wishes. if you do believe and trust them enough, they will happen and come true. :)) trust me.

adidas sundown etc.

weehee! i am back! ohhh and forgot to mention!! saturday was myrna lam's birthday!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAR MYRNA LAM!!
i totally forgot to wish her argh ohmytian i am such a bad friend. T.T sorry myrna lam dear but i still love you lots!

went to adidas sundown volunteering for the whole of sat night. chui ttm. almost died staying up. went with von, ep, benjamin, keh, lynn, yoke, peiqin, michelle, chenxi, and dewi. pictures up on fb! HAHAHAX! me von and ep kept singing emo songs. since we din manage to go k the other day. the k buddies yay! ^^ okies i shall plan the nxt k outing!

went home on sunday morning but din slp cause i felt damn awake after bathing. -_- so discussed bcomm with ahyi and fell aslp.. -_- kns. but woke up awhile later and quickly did my pmkt. argh. i hate doing work. noone likes it i know.

ytd and today is basically school!! ://// had bcomm dining etiquette this afternn. it was okies i suppose. wish all those having the assessment tml good luckkkkk! :D:D!! can ask me for tips. HAHAHAX! :DD! okies off i go byebye! ^^

outing with my girls. :))

woke up and met clara and went to dhoby ghaut and tabao some fingerfood and i had my dear takoballs and went to cathay to meet hyrah huiwen and carol. ade came and we exchanged our coupons for the icecream! yayyy! cheryl came only after we finished so had second round again with those coupons belonging to ahyi mel and rina cause they not coming. yum yum i like!

sudden impulse to go to peranakan museum and we just walked there. carol went home for her family dinner. i swear we are a bunch of crazy kids. but it's okies. i like. :DD i am lazy to post any pictures here. i suppose ade will post some so go her blog for pictures. hahahax. might post on fb but clara says dun want leh. scared of unglams ah!? okies see my mood first hoho.

huiwen left and we went on to asian civilisations museum. random us. took tons of pics everywhere. was freaking hungry cause by the time we ended our random impulsive museum tour it was like 8plus. ade quickly went home and the remaining four of us went to eat manhattan fish market!! woohoo!! cause suaku me nv eat before ah. wahahahahax!

trained home with freaking full tummies after dinner. enjoyed my day with my girls. :))))))))))))))))))))))))) lub them so very muchhhhhh!! :DD and i really think i might have a cold. tml is going to be a freaking tired day. :((((((( and btw si chua lin feng. everything also copy me. ://///// i nv put that 'jiaobin' very good liao horh. even your blog profile also copy me. but nvm i am a very good jiejie. :)) so proud of myself for being such a good jiejie. *thumbs up*

new perspectives. :) EDITED!

hello hello as you can see i have removed my tagboard. it's getting kind of irritating with all the advertisements. put comments instead under each post. maybe shldnt put comments too. feel like using formspring. :// (created one! but :// i feel weird to use it. i dunoe why. heh heh!)

have been thinking ah. linfeng ahdi has given me new perspectives from life smhow. a very cheerful kid. :)) happy to say. the world would be a happier place without all these messy stuffs so yay we should inject more love into this world. like our 'siblings' love, friends love. :) smhow i feel like true love can be found in between friends too. something like true friendships.

his perspectives of relationships also quite cute ah. who needs to rmb the dates and monthsaries and anniversaries when we have birthdays and valentines day to celebrate. most imptly is the two ppl loving each other! :) i like i like. but aiya if it's me smhow i will still want to have anniversaries cause smtimes i also think monthsaries abit mahuan to always celebrate. too frequent liao. hahahax.

i want to cut my hair but ytd ahbee said i must REN. T.T cause now very ugly reach the shoulder then damn qiao. but after the hair grow over the shoulder then everything okies liao. REN. so i am not going to cut hair already. REN. miss my long hair after showing xueli my LMS video from long ago when i still had long hair on wed. :( that time hair DAMN long ah. xueli also miss her long hair. rash impulses. :(

later going to have B&J's with my girls at cathay and then have to come home to do work already. elearning! T.T btw nowadays the weather very luan qi ba zao. hope everyone dun fall sick okies! i kept sneezing nowadays. T.T take ah! esp ahyi! sick so long already. :// dun always go out ah! sorry for all the chinese and abit of hokkien mixed with english but that's the way i speak in real life. hoho! loves everyone! :)

happy day~

went to school for IS. had presentation and :)) it was real funny. love our video TTM! WOOHOO! everyone laughed. yayy. i think we ourselves laughed the hardest. i couldn't stop laughing seriously so sorry but yayy i love our presentation. kept asking qns about other ppl's shows and ppl din actually ask much abt ours. WAHAHAHAX! ours was the best to me. weehee!

went to pizzahut after school and ate abit and went back to school to meet ahbee and went to the CC to find daryl and alan and see the grad for the rest of the ppl. jojo went off with her friends already. -_- si jojo. :( nv wait for me. :( von came and we went to eat at the refreshments.

went off with von supposedly to sing k but in the end it was too expensive cause of the public day eve thing. :( so changed and went to soghurt instead! :)) i like their yoghurt. erm okies fine all yoghurt taste the same to me. but cause of the yummy fruity pebbles toppings! wahahahahahahax!!

bused to town to find rachel ahbee and benson. rachel left soon after we reached and the four of us went to eat and eat and eat and walk abit and eat and eat. i think we damn pig. hahahax! me and ahbee wanted to catch a bus home to save transportation fees but it was seriously damn packed and all the four 190 we waited was freaking packed so in the end trained home~





hey yo i have a new didi linfeng! :):):) like a happy. i want to fill up the world with love like you want too! :):) stay happy with _ kaes! i will try my best to love and teng you as a jiejie shld! :) you are a very sweet boy and hope you really do wad you said. <3!!  it's funny how we became closer ah. :)) love can be between friends too! ^^ i love all my friends!

FREAKING BUSY.

i shall blog while sending clara the video for tml's tv presentation! finally done with editing phew~ this is a freaking busy week. :( i need to rest more on friday. tml rush work already. T.T cannot slack alreadyyyy!

today went back to school with ahyi and xueli to do our bcomm. but in the end we digressed and kept chitchatting. showed xueli kikwang. i think im falling for him. but jonghyun you will still always be my love. HAHAHAHAX! xueli said she will buy me SHINee hp strap!! YAYYYY! :D:D:D!!

ran off awhile for the SCO interview. was nervous and laughed hysterically before the interview. si enping ask me to be serious. then during the interview he kept colouring my nose on my picture on the application form with his pink colour pencil. :( then i say i dun have a relationship and he pointed at himself. IDIOTTTT. make me laugh.

i cried during the interview OHMYTIANNN. scared everyone. then i laughed at myself for crying so i was like crying and laughing. ohmytian. cause they asked me why i wanted to join back society since i joined before. then i was like reminded of the past when everyone was tgthr during all the events and everything flowed back and i started like miss the society 0910 ppl and babomb. i cried. -_- idiotic much. but happy that i saw enping, my dear keh, lynn and sylvia! :))

went back to find ahyi and xueli and did work? okies they did the work. T.T i din do much cause they practically finished everything when i was away. but i did up the survey ytd night okies! :D:D!! considered that i did smthing ah! T.T went home after that and started editing videos for the tv presentation. can die seriously. T.T lucky finish liao!!

ytd went back to school with jojo!! went to find von dear and chitchat. went to eat with jo while von went back to do her stocktake and went back again to give von her pockyyyy. hahahax! went home with jo afterthat! ^^ on a side note tml it's jo's grad!! :D cant go cause of lesson but going to find her after that with von! :DD!! going out i suppose but need to come home and chiong work already = little slp. :( so many things to dooooo. DIE. T.T jiayou everyone! :)

EDITED. :) I LOVE LIFE.

can i still love you? cause i'm starting to treat someone like a sub. i really treasure the friendship so i don't want it to turn out this way. i don't want to fucking lie that i don't love you anymore. he makes me smile and everything. but somehow, it's just not the same.. i still see you every week. i don't want to deny that i still want to go up to you and smile and play and laugh like the way we used to. i freaking miss you. i don't want to act around you like nothing is wrong. what a fucking liar and hypocrite i am.




this is when i realised that i had moved on subconsciously. :) not pining for anything anymore. shall enjoy life now! :))

quick update before slping!

it's seriously late. and tml i'm still meeting jojo for lunch. YAY! :D:D! that's a happy thing weeeeeee~ woke up early today for our ATRM web conference and seriously the situation was freaking chaotic. okies dun care. after that went to meet huiwen and went to bukit timah shopping centre to meet the rest and she rmbered that she has the proj thingy meeting with the rest of the projs head so off she rush to school~

printed and binded the reports and went to al ameen to eat cause everyone was freaking hungry cause noone ate despite waking up early for the ATRM thingy. i lub the choc tissue prata. though i ate till everything was all over but weehee i like! :)))))!! huiwen came back to find us too.

ade huiwen and cher went to hand up the report for us while me hyrah clara and ahyi went to ahyi's hse to do our tv report. we digressed alot while typing but it's still funny and happy yay! did the videos and by the time we were finished it was already midnight. :( went down to take 961 to wdlands and papa came to fetch me and clara back home. yayyy! :D:D:D!! end of story! SLEEPING TIME! :)







sometimes, i still feel like calling someone baby and tell him whatever that i am doing and when i reach home. it's just a matter of time to get used to it i suppose. it's supposed to be a special day now. but i don't really feel very special. i don't really know anymore. maybe it's all going away now.

TIME TO TAKE A BREAK FROM REPORT!

even though my title says it, but actually i have been taking ALOT of breaks from report. HAHAHAX! die liao die liao haven finish ah. but dun care. T.T my shoulder hurts so much. i am in need of a massage and spa therapy. hohoho!!

friday night. went for bball. had a damn blue day. since i was wearing blue the whole day, even after i changed for bball. and indeed i had a blue mood. :( siannnnn. but forget it~ thanks limguowei for trying to explain, tyansoon for trying to cheer me up. thanks junhao too! went home and found out that hyrah won b2st's autographed album through cheryl! CONGRATS! hahahax! so was cheered up! :D:D!!

ytd and today is report day. seriously i am dying. but dun care. everywhere hurts. i just feel like surfing the net, watching television, and read storybooks. can someone make me concentrate? :( jiayou ah jiayou ah jiayou ahhhh! jiayou to my dearies who are rushing their reports too. i love you all very much! :D:D:D!!




somehow i still feel sad when i think back the past, and about how we could have been. but yet somehow i dun feel sad anymore. they are happy memories. i was happy, really happy. even though sometimes i would suddenly feel empty, i don't actually feel that i want to go back to the past. it's just meant to be i suppose. i want to look forward. somehow i feel like i don't need you anymore. is it delusional? i'm not sure. you are not you anymore. that's what i know. the you i once loved is not you anymore. so may you and i be happier. :) good friends still. :)
though sometimes i really feel like speeding up the process of _. heh heh.

bored.

since i'm crashing leon's lecture now, and i planned to do my cruise report during this time but i forgot to bring my cruise file so i'm unable to it, here i am to blog! :D:D:D:D!! bloggy misses me too. awwwww. i haven't been blogging as FREAKING MUCH as i have been tumblr-ing. heh heh. school and school.

nothing much happened except for on tue it was rainbow paddle pop day and all of us bought rainbow paddle pop except for ahyi who is now named serpentine cheshire cat fish witch chia shuang yu. freaking long name. -_-

and went to udders for icecream ytd with serpentine, huiwen, clara, hyrah, cher and gywnnie! :D but evon no longer working there ah. :( and it's my first time to udders!! i know very suaku but that's me. WAHAHAHAHAHAX! 'vandalising' on the boards are real cool. and i wrote kim jong hyun loves lee jia le and sdnly it feels real. WAHAHAHAHAX! ^^ ignore moi~ just being high by myself.

LEONNNNN AND WEIFENGGGGG ARE GOING FOR LUNCH WITH MOI LATER ONNNN! :D:D:D:D!! AND WE ARE GOING TO HAND IN OUR FORMS WHICH I WROTE UNTIL QUITE CASUALLY HOPE NO LECTURERS ARE GOING TO READ IT BUT NVM I KNOW HOW TO EXPLAIN FOR THAT ALREADY! :D:D:D:D!! WEEHEE! wad should i eat later!? i am hungry now already! T.T T.T

ohhhhhhhhh just now borrowed benny's specs and took photos. ugly ones. :( okies catch my VERY short updates on tumblr every now and then. that's the main reason why i am not blogging. cause the updates are rather short. B&J's outing nxt week! :D:D! and adidas sundown with von, keh, peiqin, lynn and yoke? hahahahx! WEEHEE! :D:D! busy busyyyy!!








you make me feel weird. i dunoe wad is this feeling. but it's making me feel scared. and you. i dunoe anymore. i dunoe wad to feel anymore. it's like i miss you but yet i don't. maybe i don't need you anymore. :) maybe i suppose. when i see _ the butterflies just don't seem to be there anymore. but i don't know anymore. i have stopped feeling and thinking. this is good i suppose. but somehow i got a feeling it is delusional. i no longer know what i feel.

much to be done.

school work and school work nowadays. for those interested in what we did during the 3 days of cruise you can go adeline er's blog which has lots of details. HAHAHAX! happy happy with my friends. ^^ lots of things to do. i just started on my cruise report. and i dunoe wad to write already. shld go get my file where all the things are and start concentrating. which is proving to be a little hard for me. hahahax! so many things to dooooo. :// sian sian sian. plus common test coming. ARGH. shld make full use of nxt week to really study already! >:( jiayou ba!







feeling weird feeling weird. :/ okies shan't think too much. :) i know it will all reveal itself in the end. hoho!!

STRESSED.

im so dying seriously. okies i have to stop procrastinating so i would appreciate if people actually realised that i have been appearing awayyyyyyy and dun blame me for replying late. :) and look at this.

haien's flying ghost. hahahax. which reminds me not to procrastinate if not the flying ghost will come and haunt me. HAHAHAX! friends spur me on yay! :) and thanks to those who did my surveys cause i have been spamming lots of them with it. love you guys ttm!

me.

was thinking about myself today. yes only myself. i have been screwing up my life far too often. restricting myself not to scold vulgarities but sometimes only they can express how i really feel. so many people went in and out of my life. i don't really know who are the ones who will be going to stay, or rather, who are the ones who are willing and want to stay. maybe that's the reason why i don't really initiate talking to others on msn or sms. it's not that i don't care, but rather that i am afraid that they will find me annoying and irritating. negative thoughts.

i hate my voice. like seriously. the high pitched tone. argh. the way i talk to people. argh. i sound like a flirty bitch. argh. hate all these. giving out wrong info when i don't mean them at all. argh. all these sucks. bad habits bad habits. shouldn't behave too comfortably with guys no matter what my reasons are.

to me both guy and girl friends are the same. but no excuses i know i know. need to change. :( i don't like me. don't like don't like. sometimes, to tell the truth, i want to be more antisocial. :( at the very start, i was much too eager to make friends, and became too friendly. people always had a bad first impression of me. i didn't mean anything then. i just wanted to make friends. was too afraid of the status of friendless and loneliness. too dumb too dumb.

but sometimes i really don't want to care. i hope that my head was wide open so that people would know what i am truly thinking and know that i have no ill intentions or what so ever. i am not trying to flirt or wad, i am just using my sincerity to make friends. then again, i don't want too many friends. yes i want friends, but just a few close ones would be enough. like the friends i have now. it's already enough for me. :)

somehow sometimes i want to hide. i want to dig a hole and hide in there with my pillow and blanket and bolster and sleep for a hundred years until a prince with a white horse passes by and comes to dig me out. then we will ride on that magnificent white horse of his to his rainbow castle whereby during the journey we will fall in love and when we reached the castle there would be a beautiful wedding and surprisingly all my family and friends whom i love so dearly would be there and everyone would live happily ever after together in that small town to where the prince belongs to.

possible not. hopefully i would make this dream tonight though. wish me sweet dreams. :) goodbye.

HELLO BLOGGY NO I HAVEN'T FORGOT ABOUT YOUUUUU!!

even though i have been like tumblr-ing everyday and sort of neglect you but dear bloggy i still love you very much. WAHAHAHAHAHAX!! but i have been busy you know. dun worry. i am back here!! ^^ LONGGG update!!

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SUNDAY 09 MAY 2010
woke up and went to meet weifeng and leon at cathay astons to have our lunchhh!! ^^ first time eating at astons woooo! i love their fishhhhh! :D:D:D:D!! chitchats!! went off to marina barrage to FLY KITE FLY KITE!! my kite flew away in the end. :(( cause the string was too short and i din take note and whoosh my kite flew away with its string. :(( smone picked it up and we saw my kite afterwards but nvmmmm.

went off to tangs macs to have my CINNAMON MELTS (OHMYTIAN I'M STARTING TO CRAVE FOR IT NOW!) with vanilla coneeeeeee! weifeng said it's nicer to eat with vanilla cone and mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm FREAKING NICE!! :D:D:D:D!! happily finish and went to heeren to have our dinner at thai express. WEEHEE IT'S MY CURRY SOFT SHELL CRAB RICE ohmytian it's eating good food day and this makes me happyyyy! :D:D!! chitchats chitchats and home we go~

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MONDAY 10 MAY 2010
SCHOOL AND SCHOOL!! cant rmb anything else that happened HAHAHAX! only rmb me and clara procrastinating the packing of our bags for cruise. HAHAHAX!

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TUESDAY 11 MAY 2010
went early to ourspace reading room with ahyi and we studied (okies she studied) while i waited for the phone etiquette test thingy cause she got the call quite early. saw haien baobao sihui aunty and benny and ohmytian damn diu lian cause they just opened the door and said that i zao geng at the back cause my shirt creeped up my back. T.T i received my etiquette call almost near the end of the session. -_- flunked it but forget it. hahax! went off and met the rest after that for lessons.

went to meet guowei and anson at bugis after school and had a vegetarian dinner tgthr to celebrate anson's birthday! belated one though. heh heh. laughed and talked. :))))) went home after anson bot his stuffs~

wanted to procrastinate the packing of my bag again but argh not possible. and yayy used huiwen's packing list to pack my bag wahahahahax. but still i forgot to bring stuffs. -_- and had to borrow from her. hahahahax. THANKS HUIWEN DEAR! :D:D:D!!

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WEDNESDAY 12 MAY 2010
went to northpoint to meet huiwen and her dad and went to fetch hyrah and clara and went off to harbourfront. met mel and went to buy carol's cake. mel went to meet the rest while me hyrah clara and huiwen went to pizzahut first and put the cake there. had our lunch and tada the cakeee and celebrated carol's birthday! :D:D we took lots of retarded pictures and it can be found on fb! :D:D!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO CAROLLLLLLL!! :D:D:D:D!!

went off to check into the cruise and pictures and room checking and WAHHHHH! :D:D nice! changed to evening wear and went for the dinner! after that went to walk walk around and had supper toooooo. slept late~

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THURSDAY 13 MAY 2010
woke up and went for our briefing and went to tour around the whole cruise like the restaurants and the staffs area and the storage place and the chiller which was freaking cold and the casino which was rather boring and so on. din went to the casino when it was opened cause erm kinda not my thing. hahahax!

went to watch the acrobatics performance ohmytian damn zai!! love their wonderful performance! choc buffet weehee! HIGH LIKE CRAZY OHMYTIANNNNNN! though din eat much and was feeling quite full but STILL we went for supper. it was crazy. throughout cruise it was like walking and eating all the time. we eat like 6 meals a day. CRAZY alreadyyy.

went to watch the stars at night despite being tired and in the end only left me ade mel ahyi and cheryl. then cheryl wanted to hear my life story and thus the chitchats started. HAHAX! went off to the deck outside of the lobby to continue. in the end left me and ade to chitchat. :)) went back our room to slp at 6am.

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FRIDAY 14 MAY 2010
it's the last day of cruise! and due to our late bedtime my room (consisting of me ade mel and gengtao) overslept and all of us woke up at 10.10am when we had briefing at 10am. changed and rushed down immediately with neither of us brushing our teeth. it's funny ah. but kinda stupid cause we stayed there for like 10mins after we reached and left. -_- went back to our room to bathe and brush our teeth and went off for our brunch! :DD

had limited time so went to buy our photo souvenirs and paid for them while ade and mel went to get our bags and went to lido and checked out and dumb me went to gave the person my student card instead of the cruise card which was freaking diu lian. all laughed at me. T.T went to kfc for lunch but din buy anithing cause was still full over from brunch. cabbed home with huiwen clara and hyrah. ^^ hyrah came to fetch us yay! did lots of vlogs for her. hope she will enjoy it! :D:D:D!!

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SATURDAY 15 MAY 2010
woke up early and went to np lib to find guowei stella and yingjie to study!! but i was late. :(( overslept. LUCKY yingjie called me in the morning. if not i dunoe wad time i will wake up. HAHAHAX! makan place for kaki fuyong for lunch WEEEEEE~ like a happy! bused to marina and was slping the whole way.

stella hid my phone when we were in np then i only found out on the bus then was looking for it then stella called it then it was ringing with the very nice though paiseh song 'wei shen me wei shen me wei shen me~' then was looking around on the bus then everyone was like looking when all the while it was in guowei's pocket. PAISEH TTM!

played pool with lots of bloopers and laughed like crazy like miss hitting the white ball and hitting the white ball when i was just merely aiming at the ball or hit it with so little force that it barely moved blahh blahh. wahh damn funny. hahahax. weixuan joined us too! :DD!! movies after that! the losers! nice nice. quite funny ah! :D:D!! weixuan left after the movie and went for dinner and home afterthat~ :))


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To A Dear Friend Of Mine,
i understand how you feel. i have been through something similar too as you know. :)) all these will pass. rmb that you still have us kaes! sometimes drifting apart is something we cant prevent. so dun mind too much about it. let nature takes its course! at the very least we will always be there for you, where you know you belong! ^^ i dunoe if you know i am talking about you but yes i am. :)) no matter wad happens laugh and smile like you always do alright. :)) love you! (L)!!


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subconsciously i have been waiting for you. i dunoe why you. i dunoe why i feel this way. hope i stop feeling so dependent cause it's just so not right. :// but all in all. now i am a happy girl. :)) saw 11.11 and wished it for smone. :)) dunoe why i did that and not the one that i always wish but it's just a very small wish and it was the first one to appear in my mind when i saw the time. :))

i have nothing to do but i dun want to do my homework. :(

i am feeling so freaking lazy now. trying to do atrm tutorial for the whole day but even a year 2 acc student like aaron hui doesnt know how to do you cant expect me to know right!? HAHAHAX! okies nvm i shall go take a look at it again cause i am a hardworking student you knowww! :DDD okies some pictures for my very picture-less blog. :)) since my tumblr has ALOT of pictures and i think i shld be fair to blogger. :)))))

hello this is me and my weird fringe i cut it myself. -_- i think i shld go to a proper salon. mr lim guo wei suggests that i cut bangs cause he keeps saying i look nicer in bangs okies i shall try it the next time i go to the salon. if it's ugly i just have to bear awhile and it will grow back. anyway also noone wants to see. HAHAHAX! and my layer is getting longer see my hair it looks so funny i dun like it I NEED A HAIRCUT! >:(

and say HELLO TO THESE THREE CUTE PEOPLE BEHIND ME RONALD ARNOLD AND DEBBIE WEEHEE! ^^ taken last week when we were having the same lecture and yay we took a picture tgthr but my face is the biggest >:( i am not very happy about that and look at my eyes. okies nvm i am happy i love them! :DDD

no point hiding.

out with xueli and ahyi early in the morning to do our survey interviews. din manage to get much ppl to do it but still i think we enjoyed ourselves. ME AND XUELI'S LOVE CINNAMON MELTS again for lunch weehee like a very happy only! ^^ starbucks to chill after walking around in the FREAKING HOT weather and going to the IR. bought new shoes!! chitchats and laughters ohh and btw we saw this weird kid in macs who keeps talking to himself and laughing and scolding us for not eating fast enough when actually we are just sitting there longer to talk. bball after that! thanks to guowei anson yingjie for today! :))

and since it's past midnight i have smthing to sayyyy.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ANSONNNNNN NG CHENG EN!! :DDD
thanks for always being there for me. i mean it. :))








im glad that i got to talk to you. and say how i feel. i am glad to know how you feel. smhow i feel that i have so much i have yet to say. hugging ___ to sleep is wad i have always been doing too. it hurts to see the tears on your face. im not blind i still can see even though you are smiling. i will follow my heart like what you said. and cause it told me that i can never find another you i will wait. as long as i can. i will be happy. cause that's wad that makes you happy. :)) whenever i'm near you my heart still races and butterflies still flood my stomach. 因为我最喜欢你。

smiles all around~

im so lazy to blog nowadays. :// im tumblr-ing everyday though. hohoho! i love tumblr-ing weee~ basically it is school everyday and i love my darlings! ^^ they are all just so freaking cute and sweet! and me and xueli that crazy girl is crazy over macs' cinnamon melts WAHAHAHAHAHAX! all her fault! tml out with xueli and ahyi for our survey stuffs! jiayou ba me! i love my incans family too! ^^ sihui haien benny ronald mingxuan siti and all those that have been accompanying me like junhao and aaron! ^^ yay hey! i am a happy girl! :DD! nxt week cruise already OHMYTIAN i need to buy so many things~

INCANS SB OUTING!! ^^

YAY HEYYY! i sort of had a great day today! ^^ hohoho! went to dhoby ghaut to meet everyone. i was late and mingxuan papa was the only one earlier than me. aaron si korkor asked me not to be late and in the end he was late and still say wad he only told me not to be late and din say that he could be late! >:( HAHAHAX! met my sihui aunty/granddaughter and serene granddaughter and we went to arcade while waiting for ronald grandpa. YAY HEY LIKE A HAPPY!! :)) wahh like siao our relationship web is getting more and more complicated! HAHAHAX!

bused and walked to ecp and went to rent bikes and cycling starts!! benny and haien and their friend joined us cause they skated all the way from suntec. SIAO ONE LOHHH!! then we all kept cycling/skating tgthr while chitchatting while getting chased by ronald who wants to rub his front wheel against everyone's back wheels. crazyyy! but love them loads. :))

byebye to haien cum benny's friend and ronald and serene and we went off to dhoby ghaut to eat at this korean shop. nicenice! :)) i like HOHO! OHHH and i forgot to bring money and only brought a little and most of my stuffs are like treated by them!! THANKS THANKS!! ^^ esp sihui ah! treat me drinks and icecreammm! arcade after that and train home with benny! :)) had a fun day with themmmmm! LOVE THEM LOADSSSSSS!!


now it is THE TIMEEE to clarify our relationship web!! :DDDDDDDDDDD!!
RONALD: GRANDPA
MINGXUAN: PAPA
AARON: KORKOR
ME: JIALE
HAIEN: MY BAOBAO NOT SURE IS DAUGHTER OR SON
BENNY: HAIEN'S HUSBAND AFTER HAIEN CHANGE GENDER -_-
SERENE: MY GRANDDAUGHTER AND HAIEN'S DAUGHTER before he changed gender cause haien is her papa.
now here comes the complicated part..
SIHUI: MY AUNTY/GRANDDAUGHTER AND HAIEN'S DAUGHTER after he changed gender cause haien is her mum!!!
she is my aunty, meaning she is my grandpa, ronald's daughter. but she is my granddaughter, meaning she is my baobao's daughter. SOOO conclusion is sihui is the illegitimate daughter of ronald and haien OHMYGOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD! and since serene is haien's daughter before he changed gender, she is not benny's child and she is smone else's!?!? SOO haien! tsk tsk anyhow anyhow that's why make everything so complicated ahhh! but all in all i love my incans. ^^ love them ttm!

hello darlings! :))

quite some time since i have a proper update ah! :)) weeheee! jiale is THE happy girl!

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wednesday 28 april 2010
school-ed and lost my wallet. :(( was damn unhappy. tot someone took it but it was just picked up. :)) the three people who picked it up returned it to me intact with everything inside the next day! thank you so much! :))))))) they were very cute. msn-ing with me then keep chitchat. hahahax! googled my blog smmore! ^^

broke down and cried. argh i think it has something got to do with LAM tutorial. starting to hate the tutor. :(( thanks ahyi, ade, clara, huiwen, hyrah, cheryl, lipin for being there! sorry for throwing my tantrum. :(( argh. i will take note!

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thursday 29 april 2010school-ed. IS: entertainment beyond tv. tutor showed us boobs and taught us wad kind is appropriate for local tv. -_- dots and crows flying everywhere. went to ahyi's hse while waiting for evon and enping. went to meet evon first and left for cine when enping came. :DDD! wanted kbox but all the rooms were booked. :(( wanted movie but cine was damn full. walked to shaw house and yayyy there's seats and short queue so we caught iron man 2. me and evon kept ohmygod-ing during the show. HAHAHAX! they sent me to the stn and went to take bus! ^^

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friday 30 april 2010
school-ed. had 5 hours break. -_- spent first half of it with my incans dear. thanks sihui aunty aaron korkor haien baobao benny and nick for pei-ing me and going crazy with me! seriously went crazyy! HAHAHAX! then pulled aaron to go attic with me to find huiwen and foohou. stayed there for awhile and went to atrium. saw guowei and yingjie and weixuan! chitchats like a yay! :)) saw jervis quak too! :))

went to find huiwen and cher and ade at lib after that and met the rest and went for LAM lecture. lecturer getting on my nerves seriously. ARGH. -_- went to bukit timah plaza for ATRM textbook and dinner at kfc~ but i ate my dao hueyyy! craved for it the prev night WAHAHAHAX! went for bball. :)) seems soooo long since i last went. LOVE AND MISS THEM OHMYTIAN! walked back with stella weixuan and yingjie. yingjie took 171 with me and got down at his stop. :)))))) THANKS!

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TODAY!
stella's house to study in the morning. went off to yishun gv. din manage to buy the tix for the 2.10pm show so bought the 4.10pm one! arcade before movie! :DD exchanged lots of things with the tix accumulated too! and damn diu lian cause i said IP MAN (the letter I and P then the english word man) instead of IP MAN (the cantonese lang). T.T anson you started this. :(( but the movie like a nice! YAY IP MAN ROCKSSSSS!

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:)) decision made. i dunoe if it is right. but we shall see how it goes. :)) no one knows what will happen in the future anyway! :)) maybeeeee.. just stupid hopes of mine. heh heh. ^^ be happyyyyy! :))